#absorber

https://pluralpedia.org/w/Absorber

I swallow the wound.

I eat it all for you,

You joke, you mock, you cry, I stop.

I move mountains for you,

You say, why did you bleed when time was meant for us?

What is this version? Not meant for us?

Who is this shell, compounding in light.

Why are we on the ground, lost in the night.

You dont walk my way anymore, you never did.

You call it sin, my suffering.

You call me a joke, a woman, a breath of fresh air.

But only when I stop to care, about you.

Always you, I carry it all.

The weight of the Mother, The Father,

I water, I bleed, I feel it all.

The tree grows and I dance below,

But they still laugh and tell me NO.

Stop that, who are you to dance,

Get back in your cage, make us laugh.

Be the one who only feels in the pages of lost poems, stages and wagon wheels.

But I was there too, I watched it all, I still see you now, but you dont like how.

Your eyes were always turned away, arms covered each other,

Dont worry about me.

I am seperate from the rest,

I give you the space, the love and I take scraps.

I promise myself I wont feel like this forever,

I will find the peace,

The kind in the stories all wrapped up neat.

But I cannot if you keep writing my story,

Tell me I dont deserve my own page, when I held it all on my head.

All the fear, the denial, the avoidance,

THE TRUTH,

It didnt start with me,

since we're a system, we decided to do some system role flags!

here they are!

in order, from top to bottom, left to right

absorber / absorber (simplified)

accuser / accuser (simplified)

antagoniser / antagoniser (simplified)

beauheur / beauheur (simplified)

diplomat / diplomat (simplified)

here are simplified descriptions of the terms

absorber:

a system member who “soaks up” either the optimism or pessimism of other system members; they can mirror that optimism or pessimism, but some absorbers may choose to "soak up" both

accuser:

a headmate that is similar to a persecutor but is focused almost solely on framing a member of the system (usually a host) as a terrible person guilty of crimes; this behavior isn't necessarily out of hatred, but may be out of internalized fear or guilt

antagoniser

a headmate whose morals don’t align with most or all other system members

beauheur

a beauheur is a headmate who stores happiness and shares it amongst other headmates; they may or may not create happiness as well

diplomat

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