âHappy birthday, dear one,â Narcissa cooed to the child she held in her arms. She smiled down at her lovingly.
âMama,â she gurgled, playing with the necklace around Narcissaâs neck.
Cathryn was a year old today. She had been the perfect addition to the Malfoy family. Narcissa felt as though Cathryn had been hers all along. Despite the dark auburn hair on Cathrynâs head that differed from the white blonde hair that was a distinct trait of the name Malfoy, they looked like a family.
That was what mattered.
Even Lucius, whose laugh and smile to Narcissa were a rare gift, was in love with their children. It was like another child had completed them.
âHungry!â yelled Draco from his high chair at the dining room table. He banged his fists repeatedly on the tray.
âDraco, stop that,â Narcissa chided him. She knew he was just jealous of all the attention that his sister had been getting that day. She went over to Draco and kissed him on the forehead.
âHungry,â he repeated.
âHun-gy!â Cathryn exclaimed, laughing. Nearly everything that Draco said hilarious, and her vocabulary was slowly growing day by day.
âThatâs not how you ask for food, Draco,â Narcissa said, prompting him to use full sentences.
He pouted. âCan I peas have some food?â
âYour father will be home soon,â she replied. âThen you can eat.â
Just then, Narcissa heard a knock come from the front door. She could hear the footsteps of their House Elf hurrying to answer it. She set Cathryn down in another high chair and walked out of the dining room, through the kitchen and into the hallway that lead to the entrance room.
Dobby, their House Elf, approached her, wringing his hands and glancing anxiously back at the front doors.
âWho is it?â Narcissa asked him.
âIt is Master Severus, my lady,â he replied, bowing as Severus Snape came into view.
Narcissa stiffened. He stood in her entrance, awkwardly carrying a wrapped parcel. Though in the heat of summer, he wore all black as though he were constantly mourning.
âSeverus,â she addressed him. She could see him look past her as the sounds of her children came from the dining room.
âNarcissa,â he replied. âI apologize for coming unannounced. I wanted to speak with you and Lucius.â
âOh. Ah - Lucius is not home yet. He should be arriving shortly. Why donât you⊠come in,â she said, gesturing for him to follow her inside. She felt nervous and strangely territorial at the thought of Severus seeing Cathryn. It would be the first time since that night last October when Albus had brought her to them.
Draco and Cathryn looked up when they came into the room. Both grew quiet at the sight of a stranger.
Narcissa could see longing and sadness in Severusâs eyes when he looked at Cathryn, who was staring innocently up at him with her green eyes.
âSay hello to Severus,â Narcissa said, putting on a cheery voice for her children. She nodded expectantly at Draco.
âHello, Servus,â Draco said with a toothless grin.
âGood boy,â Narcissa praised him. âLetâs go into the play room, shall we?â she looked to Severus, who still had his eyes fixed on Cath. He looked softer and kinder in her presence, like he wasnât being haunted by a past or mourning her motherâs death. âIâll be back in just a moment, Severus.â
âNarcissa⊠could IâŠ?â he raised a hand awkwardly towards Cathryn.
Narcissa, though she felt a bit uncomfortable, was sorry for him. Heâd only held his daughter a handful of times. Narcissa picked up Cath, who was staring quietly up at him, and gently handed her to Severus. As soon as he held her, he smiled.
It was strange, seeing him like this. Narcissa had never pictured him as a father before.
She had always known Severus as a sour, sullen boy. He had never really seemed to love or enjoy anything in life.
Except for Lily.
Narcissa left them alone for a few moments as she walked with Draco to the sitting room where his toys were scattered on the ground.
âMother needs to talk to Severus. Can you stay here with your toys, love?â she asked Draco as she set him down on the floor.
âIâll play Quidditch,â he replied, reaching for his toy broomstick.
âGood boy, Draco,â Narcissa smiled. She returned to the dining room.
***
Cathryn was grabbing fistfuls of Severusâs hair and repeatedly saying the word Dobby. Severus wasnât quite sure what to do or how to act around her, but just watching her was enough. Even though she was only a year old, she already looked so much like Lily.
Your mother loved you so much, he thought. He wanted so badly to tell her that, but for some reason he couldnât. He knew she wouldnât even understand. But she had to know⊠He remembered Dumbledoreâs words from the past, âThere is so much that they donât know or understand right now. But in time, they will. I will make sure of that.â
He heard Narcissa clear her throat quietly. Severus looked up at her and then hesitantly let her take Cathryn back.
âSheâs grown so much,â he remarked softly, his eyes fixed on her.
âYes,â Narcissa replied. âShe has quite a personality. Sheâs very smart.â
âLike her motherâŠâ Severus said. He instantly regretted the comment, realizing that Narcissa obviously saw herself as Cathrynâs mother. âI apologize. I⊠have clearly come at a bad time. I shouldnât have arrived uninvited.â
âNonsense,â Narcissa assured him. âYou arenât an inconvenience. Lucius should be home any minute now.â
A loud poof from the fireplace and an excited shriek from Draco told suggested that Lucius had indeed just Flooed in from work. He spent a moment in the sitting room saying hello to his son.
âLucius,â Narcissa called to him. âIâm in the dining room.â
A moment later Lucius appeared, with his cloak on and briefcase in hand. His white blonde hair was pulled back neatly. He came to stand beside Narcissa. They looked every bit the perfect family.
Severus couldnât argue that Cathryn would grow up privileged and better off with the Malfoys.
Lucius looked a bit uncomfortable by Severus being there. He looked him over once before greeting him. âSeverus,â he said. âTo what do we owe the pleasure?â
âHe came to visit Cathryn on her birthday,â Narcissa intervened, smiling up at Lucius like she was trying to ease the tension between him and Severus.
Severus was beginning to feel ever more the fool. He should have merely left the parcel at the door and been on his way.
âAh,â Lucius said in reply. âYou must stay for dinner then.â
Not sure whether Lucius was being genuine or trying to make him more uncomfortable, Severus tried to force a smile. âThatâs very kind of you.â
There came a few clanking sounds from the kitchen. âThatâs probably the House Elf. Weâll be ready to eat in just a few moments. Should we⊠go to the sitting room, then?â
Dinner had been considerably awkward. Severus had looked as though he couldnât tell the difference between a fork and a knife⊠Narcissa had kept giving Lucius pointed looks at him as if he were responsible for making all the conversation.
Lucius knew what Severus was really here for. Of course, he wanted to give Cathryn a present on her birthday, but it was much more than that. There was no doubt that Severus questioned his loyalties. Lucius couldnât blame him. Before the Dark Lordâs defeat, he had been one of his most trusted followers. He and his wife would have followed him to the grave⊠but they didnât.
Secretly, Lucius feared the Dark Lord. He knew that he would do anything to get what he wanted. Lucius had seen too many families torn apart and killed at the hands of Lord Voldemort. He loved Narcissa too much, and when theyâd had Draco the thought of ever losing them to his master sickened him.
For a very long time, Lucius had been planning just how to get away from the Dark Lord. Part of him feared, very much, that no matter how far his family ran away from him he could never quite escape. That was the reason he had remained faithful for so long.
Lucius saw his chance when the Dark Lord started talking about a prophecy made about a boy who was said to have enough power to defeat the Dark Lord. Lucius and Narcissa had immediately run to Dumbledore and swore their allegiance to him.
Then, on October 31st in 1981, their loyalty had been put to the test. Cathryn was placed into their home. She was enough to ensure that Lucius would never turn to the Dark Lord again. He was gone, anyhow. Lucius would never have to worry again.
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The children had been sent upstairs with the nanny soon after dinner. Lucius, Narcissa and Severus had moved to the sitting room and were all quietly sipping cups of tea.
Narcissa felt a bit anxious to move the conversation along. Truthfully, though she felt sympathy for Severus, she did not find it right for him to be paying visits to Cathryn whenever he wished. They were her family now, and Dumbledore had instructed them to raise her as such.
âSo,â she began. âYou wished to speak to Lucius and I?â
âI will be brief, as I know I have already taken up much of your time,â Severus replied, setting his cup down with a clink. âThere have been⊠rumours among certain people that The Dark Lord is not truly gone.â
Narcissa felt Lucius shift uncomfortably in his seat.
âAs his former most trusted follower, I only mean to ensure that if he does return, you know where your loyalties lie,â Severus said. He stiffened as Lucius sat up straight.
âWe made a vow to Dumbledore that we intend to keep,â Lucius said firmly. âThe Dark Lord is gone. He will not return. But if he did, Merlin forbid⊠I would never dream of betraying my family.â
âWe took the promise seriously,â Narcissa put in, feeling protective of her family. âIf Harry Potter is indeed the Chosen One, he and Cathryn both need protection. We will keep her safe, Severus. Sheâs our child.â
Severus looked down when she said that.
âI do hope this conversation has been helpful for you, Severus,â Lucius said, his eyes piercing.
âIndeed,â Severus replied.
âGood. Then I should trust that you will not have the nerve to question our loyalties to Albus Dumbledore again.â
âLucius,â Narcissa warned him.
Severus stood up abruptly. He and Lucius were engaged in some sort of stare down. âIâll be leaving now.â
âIndeed,â Lucius replied in a subtly mocking tone.
âYour cloak, Severus. Itâs in the entrance,â Narcissa said. She stood up, gesturing towards the entrance and leading him at a quick pace.
âI apologize once again,â Severus said to her quietly.
âItâs quite alright,â Narcissa replied. âThank you for⊠bringing a present for Cathryn.â
He nodded in reply, taking his cloak from the coat rack.
Lucius appeared, standing behind Narcissa with his arms crossed over his chest. Severus gave him one last hard look and then Apparated with a crack, disappearing in a whirl of black mist.
Without another word, Lucius stormed angrily into his study as he usually did when something upset him.
Narcissa returned to the dining room where Cathrynâs present sat unopened on the table. She brought it upstairs to where her and Draco were playing. The nanny sat in a rocking chair, watching over them.
âCathryn, darling,â Narcissa said, sitting down beside her. âYouâve got another present.â She helped her rip open the brown paper.
âDeer!â Cathryn exclaimed. She picked up the plush doe and hugged it tight against her chest.