#365degrees

In these days where you are just too overwhelmed to wrap your head around what the heck you are supposed to do...just stop! There is no merit in sit at your desk and torture yourself to come up with a solution or an idea. And more importantly...even if you come up with an answer, it will not be a good one as you are asking anyway the wrong question. 

It’s never about what you should do. It’s about what makes you feel alive.

I have learnt that when I let go off expectations I create a space where life can finally surprise me and miracles can happen. As hard as it can be at times, when I manage to live an experience without expecting anything, I truly enjoy it. The best thing about not having expectations is that I am OPEN. Open to see things otherwise I would miss. And that’s wonderful.

Though, I am human and I still have expectations. As a way to experience that I care. I care about a person, I care about an outcome or a situation. And that’s ok, as long as this does not prevent me from living to that the fullest. Fighting the human inclination to formulate expectations does not serve the purpose either.

As everything in life, it’s a balancing act. Not to get attached to outcomes it's a path to happiness. Fighting back expectations it’s a path to disengagement. So this is what I have learnt today: expectations are a signpost telling us there is something or someone important to us. This is something to be grateful for. 

We look for a purpose in life and we have a hard time finding it for a couple of reasons. First of all because we look for it in the wrong place, which is outside ourselves. Secondly, we tend to believe that our purpose has to do with what we do in life, with our job and our career. 

A purpose is much more than what lies behind the activity we invest our time into. A purpose is a calling. It’s just the expression of our talents, of our gifts. Each one of us has a talent. Something we are uniquely and extraordinarily good at. And we have it just inside of us.

There are days where I feel I am going in circles. I try to come up with a good idea about what to do with my life. But the harder I try, the harder it gets. When I try to figure it out all by myself it seems there is no way. In the past I used to get very upset about it and to think I was wasting my time.

Knowledge is overrated! We all want to be in the know. Uncertainty just drives us crazy. We live gathering knowledge because we don’t want to face moments where we don’t know what to do. And in this pursuit of knowledge we miss life.

You see, what we know is inextricably linked to what we have already experienced, to our past. If we choose to live our life from the knowledge we have, we keep ourselves trapped to what we have already lived.

Uncertainty is our worst enemy and our best friend.

When we are able to embrace uncertainty, we can finally step into the unknown. That’s the place where miracles happen. That’s the space where life can surprise us. When we finally accept that we don’t know it all, we open to infinite possibilities.

Am I what others think I am? Am I my name, my gender, my nationality, my age, my job, my past experience? Am I my feelings and emotions? Am I what I think I am?

Every time I fall into the trap to identify myself into any of this I give up my power. I believe I am contained and limited. Defined by what others tell about me. Defined by my past. And I shut the door on what I can be.

I AM both. I am the physical body with a name, an age, a gender, and a past history. I am what others believe I am. But I am not only this. I AM also infinite. Infinite potential to become who I choose to become.

I have spent most of my life thinking I was not enough. Not enough to be loved. Not enough to be seen. Not enough to be taken care of. Just not enough. And I have tried to fill the gap with material things and people, failing over and over again to experience enough-ness. And then, suddenly, it dawned on me. I AM enough. And I AM NOT.