#1in6

I am sad to say we have lost our first embaby. Despite being on progesterone, I started bleeding a week early. 

IVF is no a guarantee. It’s a sad, scary fact that you can spent thousands of dollars, pump yourself full of hormones, take medications by every way of administration possible and still end up with nothing. 

I knew to expect this. I knew the first transfer likely wouldn’t stick around. I knew that it really only is a 50/50 chance. 

But it still hurts. Another child of ours I am announcing to the world by way of loss. I feel like I am grieving not only this baby but all the others we have lost along the way. 

On a somewhat related note my wife bought me a bass because I mentioned 1) I need it for a future cosplay and 2) Ive had a guitar for years, I love her but its so hard to learn and was rec'd bass as a bit easier to start with and well 3) Yamato plays a bass. Hence the cosplay. I mean I lived near NASA for years if that says anything about me picking up character interests. I did manage to play the intro to the OG P4 boss battle theme... ANYWAY

I got a 1BlueString (sponsored by 1in6.org) for my guitar. I wanted to get one for my bass [because I am horribly ignorant and gonna take a huge guess that strings are very different, even if the blue string is the 6th string] and their shop link no longer works.

Im gonna buy a set of blue bass strings and add it myself. Not sure what number string yet. I would use all but itll clash with the red body. I already got my fav color blue for the guitar and again need red for the cosplay.. I need to get a black pick guard too for certain-shitty-episode accuracy too...

Some Domestic Violence and Sexual Assault Prevention Resources

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network) https://www.rainn.org/ 1-800-656-4673 #rainn

National Sexual Violence Resource Center (NSVRC) https://www.nsvrc.org/ #nsvrc

Men Can Stop Rape (MCSR) https://www.mcsr.org/ #mcsr

Helps men who have had unwanted or abusive sexual experiences https://www.1in6.org #1in6

The National Domestic Violence Hotline https://www.thehotline.org 1-800-799-7233 #ndvh

I will not be silent…2019

Perhaps some of you need a refresher…

It is not your fault.

It is not your shame.

You do not have to be silent. (But it is always up to you. Do what feels right.)

Check out my original I will not be silent post.

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