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Day One: Describe your system. What kind of system, how big, anything you feel is a good introduction.

we're an osdd-1b (hope this is still ok for me to do) system. we collectively identify as a puppet show. we're named System of a Hall. we're very strongly anti-endo. idk what else to say.

Day Two: Who knows about your system? Who do you want to know? What do you feel like it’s like coming out as multiple?

good chunk of my close irl friends and pretty much all of my online friends tho im not as open about it online cause I dislike being viewed as "a system" rather than an individual Person. not to say I'm ashamed of it but you're treated SO DIFFERENTLY....

Day Three: What are your thoughts on integration? Do you wish to integrate?

we don't know yet as we're more focused on trying to survive and the idea of getting professional help hasn't been an option yet. I think I would like to strive for final fusion possibly?

Day Four: Are you or any of the others in a relationship in or out of the system? How does dating work for you if you do it?

ever since we left sys communities its only rlly been me dating, but we've made it work in the past. usually just some alters date people and if that person isn't in a relationship with a certain alter they just act like a normal buddy

Day Five: How often do you switch? How often do you lose time? Talk a little about what dissociation is like for you.

this is a lot of questions UHMM we do not switch very often especially not as often as we used to. we tend to switch maybe 1-3 times a day where in the past it has been 5-10 and would dissociate constantly, luckily we have gotten better. we lose time 24/7 and my memory especially is Not Good because I'm an alter who isn't allowed to remember our traumatic experiences. sometimes I blink and 3 hours go by and it confuses me a lot.

Day Six: How do you feel about talking about the trauma which created your condition? Do you like to write about it privately or publicly? Why?

we formed due to repeated trauma rather than one severe trauma. our trauma is still ongoing, and thus we do not like to talk about it unless it is with close friends.

Day Seven: How many parts do you know of in the system? How many know about each other?

i know of everyone who's logged themselves into our simplyplural, vice versa. there are a lot who are hidden to me still however

Day Eight: How did you first discover you were plural? Was it before, after, or during diagnosis?

spoke about the "voice of [character] in my head" who would guide the original host and give their advice and take over their body at times. this was 2019-2020. at the time we knew of DID and had 3 friends who had diagnosed DID and it seemed scary. told them this and they were like Uhhh.........this sounds like Me...... look into the disorder. and they helped us with the process. we're so lucky to have had this support, and was comfortable with being a system after about 1-2 years of research and guidance.

we've also consulted some professionals who have helped with the discovery, but we cannot get proper help or a diagnosis for it yet. I guess we count as medically recognized?

Day Nine: What level of co-consciousness do you have? How do you feel your communication skills are within the system? How do you want to grow in those skills?

our co con levels go throughout the full range, peaking at "just watching my body move on its own" . our communication is really bad like Really really bad... and we'd love to be able to properly see eachother clearly

Day Ten: Have you ever done a system map? How extensively have you mapped your system?

yes but I lost it, and it wasn't very extensive

Day Eleven: How much control do you have over switches? Do you know of any specific things which cause specific alters to front?

i can sometimes fight them off but not really and it causes me to feel very sick and dissociative which like No shit lmao. specific alters front at their own specific reasons so I cant answer that collectively.

Day Twelve: What’s the worst thing you’ve woken up to finding out your alter’s done? What’s the best?

i don't remember the worst thing and I'm not comfortable sharing the best thing

Day Thirteen: Has anyone ever noticed you were multiple before you told them? Do animals seem to know the difference in your switches?

yes because a lot of our alters are Mean and it caused people to be suspicious. Im not in the vicinity of animals so I cant answer that

Day Fourteen: To whoever’s fronting; what’s your favorite item to have around when fronting? Is it yours or do you share with other alters in the system?

i guess I don't really have a favorite item. Im the host. I love our stuffed animal plushie as im an introject of it kinda and its mine cause its me

Day Fifteen: What song(s) do you relate to your DID? changing this to lyric

" Why, I can't see, that I am the 'me' that I was born into And what's the source of you? In your head, in your head, in your head And yet you believe it's true, well you do Like you knew anything ever Never trust in yourself or anyone else We've always all been wrong And we built these walls strong ,,

Day Sixteen: Where, as a system, is the safest place for you? Why?

anywhere where our friends are because I love them

Day Seventeen: Who’s an alter you’re interested in knowing more about or befriending? Which alter do you know best?

i don't really know... I don't talk to other alters often because I really cant , our communication is bad. I know our primary host & protector Jensen the most as he's always by my side to protect me

Day Eighteen: What’s your least favorite misconception or common misinformed fact spread abut Dissociative Identity Disorder?

THAT YOU CAN BE A SYSTEM WITHOUT TRAUMA

Day Nineteen: Have you ever met another multiple offline? Tell us about it.

i know many and I'm not close with any

Day Twenty: Do you have a favorite book or TV show about or including DID?

i sometimes headcanon characters with OSDDID but no

Day Twenty-One: Tell us about your persecutor(s), protector(s), and gatekeeper(s).

persecutors for us tend to be alters who still believe things we were groomed into believing and have since abandoned, or alters who have our trauma and act upon the things we negatively believe (like they may push our friends away cause they think they'll just leave)

being a protector is a big deal in my system and our most common role. you're either a protector of a specific alter, the system as a whole, or guard a persecutor.

gatekeepers are rare for us

Day Twenty-Two: Tell us about your littles.

most of them do identify as children and prefer to be treated as such while others do not

Day Twenty-Three: Do you have an inner world? If so, who can access it? What’s it like?

anyone can access it but its hard to cause once again communication is in the gutter . its a weird facility thing

Day Twenty-Four: Have you ever dealt with denial? What helps you work through it?

all the time and I don't know, sometimes I just talk to my friends and they're like "Youre so fucking plural bro stop" and Im like Okay HELP IDK

Day Twenty-Five: When did you first hear about Dissociative Identity Disorder? Was it before or after you discovered your plurality? In what context did you hear about it?

i heard about it after i had formed our system but was unaware of it. admittedly, I heard about it through Danganronpa back in 2017. once again, in 2019 we had friends who said we experience eerily similar things, and that's how it happened.

Day Twenty-Six: What aspect of DID do you find most challenging in daily life?

i do not like being constantly survalianced and policed but I understand that it is neccasary otherwise I would not be alive

Day Twenty-Seven: What do you think the biggest differences between living as a singlet and living as a person with DID are?

singlets can do anything with their body while I'm constantly restricted. which once again isn't a bad thing

Day Twenty-Eight: Share a memory of one of a different alter fronting which you’ve either been told about by them or by another friend.

i don't remember any

Day Twenty-Nine: How do your alters like to express themselves on a daily basis?

how I dress changes but I'm usually vaguely alternative or punk-ish, but I only really go outside in a school uniform. Jensen likes to go outside in goth. other alters dress how they please

Day Thirty: What’s one last thing you feel should be written about after answering all of that? Talk about whatever you want.