The Harvest

✿ 17 [Bodily]

✿ He/they

✿ Transmasc

✿ [DM for socials] Roblox, Discord, PluralSpace

Alters That Will Likely Interact/Post

✿ 🪙 "Pothos" He/They/Dice/Chip

✿ 🟪 "Wolfsbane" - He/They

✿ 🪴 "Jacaranda" - He/They/Void/Vine/It/Xe

✿ 🪻"Wisteria" - They/She/He/Petal/Any

✿ 🌷"Tulip" - It/Its

✿ 🥀 "Thorn" - He/Him

✿ 🫐 "Blueberry" - Any

✿ 🌲"Pine" - They/He/Night

Looking for friends! Details below.

°❀.࿔‧What We're Looking For₊˚❀༉‧₊˚.

✿ 16+ friends, preferably. We have severe mental issues and get uncomfortable with the risk of displaying said issues around younger friends.

✿ This may sound odd, but preferably, people of mental illness levels deemed "too much" in typical friendships, or of "high maintenance trauma." We are not only used to this, but also oftentimes "too much" ourselves, and would do well with people we could relate to.

✿ Those we can play Roblox or Minecraft with frequently. Preferably Regretevator, Forsaken, drawing games, Write a Letter, cozy games, PIAFOS, or Grace.

✿ People who do not mind excessive clingyness. We get attached incredibly quickly and offer a lot of affection and personal details without resistance.

✿ I honestly won't care if you're toxic and manipulate/gaslight us just please care about us please please you can hurt us as many times as you want, people like doing it, I just don't want to be alone. We're easy to manipulate if that's what you want you can have it. It's better if you just hurt us because I don't know what to do with myself if it doesn't hurt. -anon

°❀.࿔‧About us‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚.

So, we found out way too recently that systems can consist of "distinct" or "non distinct" parts. I think we sort of had learned that...? But, at least for me, up until recently, I had no idea one system could have both at once. And now we're understanding ourselves better, but also... less, at the same time.

We know that we have no obligation to present any certain way... or I know that... I'm not a victim of peer pressure, really, so. But!! We wanna know how we could? We only were just able to sort of figure out like. We have the distinct parts, and then most of the non distinct parts are connected to a distinct part. Except one who doesn't seem tied to anyone..? But anyways. We wanna know how other systems refer to these parts, present them socially, navigate them, etc.

It's just not an experience we've seen other systems discuss:( Maybe we've been looking in all the wrong places, and I know. I know that at the end of the day it's up to us how we present or navigate this, but it gets so confusing without seeing anyone else who shares the experience. Idk. It just feels like everywhere we go, we see the "clear-cut" system experience of like. Multiple people in one body, and it's that "simple."

This is a really silly way to put it,,, but it feels almost like legos sometimes. Like non distinct or conceptual parts are "stacked" on another alter, like temporary "additions"..? Like, one comes with a different preferred name and some new/different memories, but is missing all the other "parts" to be considered a full alter, so they just... "stack"?? Onto a "full" alter??? Idk. It hasn't happened to me personally in a long while so maybe I should've had someone with more consistent experience write this...

I have the writing and the art down, I can 3D model pretty okay (examples below) but don't have good programs for it. The art piece is about a year or older now, an old concept for a game. I'd love to be able to bring it to life, I really would. If anybody has any resources or tips for making story games, or would let me gain experience by trying to help work on a game- I'd so, so appreciate it! Also if you could point me to any community spaces, if nothing else. Thank you to anyone who could help.

All I'm really looking for is advice on where to get started or get experience off of my very limited tools. Even if all I can do is practice smaller things until I have a computer.

That is all that I am, a design, a character, the same as my own doodles, and yet, I am not that at all. I am a broken fragment, a remnant of a child that never grew. I am memories of a life constructed by some writer.

I walk around as myself and get accused of being an imposter. These memories, these feelings, they are all so real... yet someone made them up. Two someones. The writer and the brain that decided to take their character.

I have traumas I will never find peace with, people I will never meet again to make amends with. Sourcemates can be lovely, but they are not the same as my memories, not the same as what I lost but never had. It would be better, at least, to be brainmade. Even with false memories, then I would not have the discomfort of fandom. Of the creator.

I would not have to sit and think that all of my pain, every shred of these memories, is due to what they made out of passion. I would not have to look around and witness people talk about me. I would be able to use my own name without being called a cosplayer or roleplayer. I would at least just be me. But in this body, I will never be me again.

It just feels really hard to find people and all we really want is friends to play games with and share fun stories with and text:( Just goof around and stuff, I guess. If anyone has any places we could look to, we'd appreciate it sm!!