what makes ed happy is... you

Butch in boxers with no shirt

no one loves middle aged women more than lesbians and the thing is we’re so right

you don’t have to delay your happiness until after everything in your life is perfect or fixed or whatever. you can enjoy it now, no matter how imperfect it may be.

one time I went over to a friend's house and their housemate was making paper in the living room, and we saw this big tub full of water they were using to dissolve old scrap paper into a slurry, and everyone was immediately like "oh, you need scrap paper?" and started turning out their jacket pockets and producing expired coupons and bus tickets and crumpled receipts and old shopping lists and whatever else they'd been carrying round with them for no good reason, and passing it all to the paper-making housemate to make sure it was suitable before it got torn up and dropped into the tub, while people took turns stirring the slurry with a big wooden stick. it was strangely ritualistic, like presenting an offering to some kind of temple elder for inspection before placing it in a watery shrine to be devoured and reformed. pulp for the pulp god.

i feel like there is a sleep in me that needs to be slept but each time i sleep i don't sleep that sleep

you can be scared, overwhelmed, and uncertain but still be capable of doing it anyway