OH SNAP yep that's me

to be honest even if vaccines did cause autism i would rather live in a world where everyone is vaccinated and some of those people have autism than an unvaccinated autismless world. like ok whatever. would you rather have autism or polio. autism or measels. idk about yall but im choosing autism every time. its not even a hard choice.

whoops lost myself for about eight years there

i don’t think people understand how much of life is grief. not just people dying, but losing the version of yourself you thought you’d become. grieving the city you had to leave. the friends you lost not in argument, but in silence. the summer that will never come back. the feeling that maybe you peaked at 12 when you were reading books under the covers and believing in forever

in order to lead a happy life im gonna have to disappoint my parents a bit

not to be dramatic but this post genuinely made me consider my priorities in life and the choices i need to make for my own wellbeing

I have become everything I never thought I would this year. My parents would flee in terror if they knew.

feels so wrong that itll be 2025 soon. fake year. science fiction year

once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see

guy who has chronic pain and fatigue: man why can't i do more stuff

guy who has chronic pain and fatigue: man i'm so tired today for some reason

ok so i do have adhd but i feel as though this somehow transcends it. I just made a cup of tea 10 minutes ago. Im in a very small room. It has disappeared. I didnt leave the room. It just escaped. It is gone. It never was. Wheres my tea. It couldnt have gone anywhere and yet it has. Did i drink it and eat the cup and forget? Where is my tea. I miss her. This is fucked