This Our Exile

I am going to take a step back and reevaluate some things, and try to build a more honest relationship with God.

Okay. So. You know how some people want to finish exterminating all large predatory mammals so they have less competition for deer and so they don't occasionally lose livestock? And you know how native deer species in North America have been hit increasingly hard with Chronic Wasting Disease (CWD) in the past couple of decades due to overpopulation thanks to the eradication of large predatory mammals that normally keep them in check?

We already have evidence that reintroducing predatory mammals to their native ranges not only knocks deer populations back to a healthier level, and now we've discovered that apparently the digestive systems of cougars and bobcats are lethal to CWD prions. Prions are among the most difficult pathogens* to eliminate; you have to heat them up to about 1,800 degrees F in order to thoroughly destroy them. And prion diseases like CWD are almost universally fatal.

-Cousin, age 42, admitted to hospice after 2 year liver/pancreatic cancer battle. He’s probably not going to last the next 48 hours. He’ll be leaving behind a wife and 2 daughters no older than 10.

-Grandpa died three weeks ago. Celebration of life tomorrow, guests coming in. Lots of stress hosting/making sure everything is all squared away.

-Grandpa’s housekeeper/personal assistant has been causing drama. She may have been taking advantage of his generous nature if not outright stealing from him for the last few months of his life. We found out and have been dealing with all of that this last week.

-Mom dislocated her knee about an hour and a half ago.

-My dad, his Parkinson’s, and dealing with all of this as the only child of my late grandpa.

The setting that prevents your work being used to train AI models is turned off by default! I had no idea about this until now! Artists, go to your settings, click “visibility”, and turn on this setting! Protect your work!

I think the gabapentin is having a rebound effect that makes my nerve pain worse. Sent a MyChart message to my doctors office so we will see in a few days what they say. Pelvis just feels like I still have endo except I feel more hollow? Like same pain, but I can physically feel the absence of the growths.

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