the truly faithful servant and minister of Christ,
in order to do everything
faithfully and perfectly,
used to direct his efforts chiefly
to the exercise of those virtues
which by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit
he knew pleased God more.
In this matter it happened
that he fell into a great struggle
after many days of prayer,
he proposed for resolution
to the friars who were close to him.
"What do you think, brothers,
what do you judge better?
That I should spend my time in prayer
or that I should go about preaching?
simple and unskilled in speech;
I have received a greater grace of prayer than of speaking.
Also in prayer there seems to be a profit
and the accumulation of graces,
the distribution of gifts already received from heaven.
our interior affections are purified
with the one true and highest good
as well as strengthened in virtue;
we get dust on our spiritual feet,
distraction over many things and relaxation of discipline.
and dwell among the angels
as if we were living an angelic life;
we must think, see, say and hear
adapting ourselves to them
as if we were living on a human level,
But there is one thing to the contrary,
that seems to outweigh all these considerations before God,
namely that the only begotten Son of God,
who is the highest wisdom,
came down from the bosom of the Father
in order to instruct the world with his example
and to speak the word of salvation to men,
with the price of his sacred blood,
and nourish with its draft,
holding back for himself absolutely nothing
that he could freely give for our salvation.
And because we should do everything
according to the pattern shown to us in him
as on the heights of the mountain,
it seems more pleasing to God
that I interrupt my quiet
When he had mulled over these words
for many days with his friars,
he could not perceive with certainty
which of these he should choose
as more acceptable to Christ.
Although he understood extraordinary things
through the spirit of prophecy,
this question he could not resolve with certainty
But God's providence had a better plan,
that the merit of preaching would be shown
by a revelation from heaven,
thus preserving the humility of Christ's servant.
to ask advice in small matters
true Friar Minor that he was,
though he had learned great things
from the supreme Teacher.
to search out with special eagerness
he could serve God more perfectly
according to God's good pleasure.
this was his supreme philosophy,
to inquire from the wise and the simple,
the perfect and the imperfect,
how he could more effectively reach
the summit of perfection.
Choosing, therefore, two of the friars, he sent them to Brother Silvester-who had seen the cross coming out from his mouth and in those days spent his time in continuous prayer on the mountain above Assisi-that Silvester might ask God to resolve his doubt over this matter and send him the answer in God's name. He also asked the holy virgin Clare to consult with the purest and simplest of the virgins living under her rule and to pray herself with the other sisters in order to seek the Lord's will in this matter. Through the miraculous revelation of the Holy Spirit, the venerable priest and the virgin dedicated to God came to the same conclusion: that it was God's good pleasure that Francis should preach as the herald of Christ. When the two friars returned and told him God's will as they had received it, he at once rose, girded himself and without the slightest delay took to the roads. He went with such fervor to carry out the divine command and he ran along so swiftly that the hand of God seemed to be upon him, giving him new strength from heaven.”
-St. Bonaventure, Life of St Francis of Assisi