I do the strangest things to feel safe sometimes. I think I spoke about it before on here but i converted my small closet into a small bunker for me to hang out in when things start feeling to much. Iāve started watching older cartoons and tv shows I use to as a kid because the voices and imagery makes me feel safe.
One I have been going to a lot is mister rogers neighborhood? He just feels so comforting and safe, it makes me feel like Iām okay for a bit, and itās a healthier way of coping then Iāve had. Some of my daydreaming has gotten better, not by much but at least Iām not doing it all the time now.
Oh! good news :) Iāve gotten back into roleplaying and writing in general, I have so much creative energy in me lately that honestly I need to put it somewhere and I love that Iām writing again, even on my bad days my first instinct is to write a vent fic about it. I may start physically journaling but I like posting on here quite a lot, mainly because I doubt anyone reads them, and a physical journal feels to unsafe with how nosy my family is.
I saw a tik-tok yesterday that said āLife isnāt about finding yourself, its about creating yourselfā and I think Iām going to paint that on my wall when I get the chance. To remind myself Iām not finding myself, Iām creating myself.
- Gob Boi











