my mind is completely overrun with thoughts of embroidered resort shirt and short sets

last few days of being 25 are just like seeing ppl you know earn hundreds of millions, also there’s aliens, also i’m moving, and have been scratching my scalp until it bleeds and i can’t stop

one time i was walking and talking to my friend on the phone about how i missed this guy. it was cold and getting late (~10pm) so I went into a 24 hour access building, and as I was walking inside, the call dropped. so I walked around a bit more to try to get the call back. I was walking out another direction when I passed by a printing room on the ground floor, and then THE GUY walked out. I hadn’t seen him in months. he had been working on the 4th floor all night and came down to print one thing for about 10 min. we took it as a sign

this acquaintance i sometimes flirt with just asked me “oh why did you decide to move to X?” so i was honest and then he was soooo passive aggressive … lesson learned!

i just fit into a jumpsuit i haven’t worn since college which is 4 sizes smaller than i was wearing 6 months ago… slay…

decided i want to start wearing statement dresses of high quality fabrics. also decided to sew them myself. the time to learn a pattern is an investment in myself, and is multiplicative

“angry, and half in love with her, and tremendously sorry, i turned away”

i have a strong desire to isolate. for the first time, i’m not feeling lonely or craving connection. i actually prefer just being alone most of the time. i enjoy a text here and there from people i care about. a few times, i’ve interacted with people who used to be key players in my life and walked away frankly disgusted, wishing i hadn’t interacted with them at all. i don’t really know what’s going on… feels like a major shift, though