sophia

Feeling so not slay tonight 

respectfully when is it my turn to be in a loving longterm committed relationship where the person is obsessed with me and adores me

mayhaps i just need to be lobotomized

i dont know what to do anymore. im so lonely and sad. im convinced im the worst person alive and my personality must be god awful for no one to want to date me,,,dating apps suck no one messages me or answers when i send one first and half of them only want hookups :/ why is it so hard to find love why does my sister get to be in love (hes an asshole and emotional abuses her but its the fact she has someone and i dont that makes me so upset) i think it’s because im fat too like thats gotta be part or it right?? the fat girl is good to use for sex and sexual things but god forbid anyone knows ur actually with her im just so tired. im tired of dating im tired of spending months of time and effort into boys (bc they arent men if they act like this tbh) and then i het thrown away with a few quick texts. not even a call. a text. i just want to be loved why is that so much to ask for