:Acid Puppy:

I want to be somebody's Christmas

my brain would never let me forget you, it's not like you're lingering, it's more like you're haunting

The problem is that I'm fascinated and entertained by the idea of a self-destructive and downward-spiraling life. Part of me teases it and pokes at it until I realize that what I'm doing is harmful, whether balancing too many things or becoming too emotional. I try to keep friends, I try to stay happy, and I try to keep money. I try to keep things on the up. I'm not saying I can't handle life, what I'm saying is I don't know how. It's 1:52 AM, and it's time for sleep. Goodnight.

I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going with my life. All I can do is get by and keep going.

By the age of 21, I will be traveling - across America, and eventually the world. And no one or no thing will be able to stop me. And if I die, I'll have nothing to worry about. But either way, I will fight to achieve my dreams and my freedom. I will not waste my life away stuck in the groove of society, working 9-5, all the while gaining debt and only working towards retirement. I will have a life of adventure.

It's been a while since I've posted on here. About a month now. My drug addiction has subsibbed temporarily but I have urged every single day. I've got to see Crystal Castles live the other night. And now I have an amazing girlfriend. Life is great and it's hard keeping it on the up. They've just got a hold on me and it's hard letting go. // #420 #421 #710 #acid #art #artwork #ayahuasca #buddha #buddhism #cannabis #DMT #ecstasy #high #hippie #kush #LSD #magicmushrooms #marijuana #molly #peace #peyote #psilocybin #psychedelic #psychedlics #shrooms #spiritual #spirituality #taoism #trippy #weed

I just wanna pack up and leave. Live on the road, doing odd jobs in cities to make money, never staying too long in one place, constantly adrift. I wanna look up the stars each night while I’m high and not regret the choices I’ve made. I wanna live in the now. And I don’t want my life to be full of “ifs”. I want love and I want freedom.

Got a new radio a couple days ago. Speakers are next and then some underglow.

My emotions are a fluxuation of extremely cheerful to gloomy as hell, from moments of self-degradation to self-praise, all in sometimes the span of a day. I have character flaws. I pride myself on my comedic ability, even though I’m probably not funny. I am annoyed by those who are less intelligent than me, even though I didn’t excel in school. Deep down, I’m a hyprocrite. I have an ego, I claim to not have. I have a drug problem that I admit to but I don’t want to fix. I have no idea what’s happening anymore. I just go through life now, aimlessly, still wondering what the purpose of it all is and why it matters.i wish I could find someone who loves me. The only thing I want is the last thing I need.

Even if your life falls apart around you and you have nothing left, it’ll be okay. Even if you die, it’ll be okay. Because you have nothing to worry about when you’re dead. So live your life the best that you can. And when it’s time to let go, let go. Be happy. // sc: evan_senpai

All I want to do anymore is be high or drunk. I also want someone to love. But I can have neither I guess.