Cripple Punk (Bi)tch

"Chubby" because they gave her actual muscles like an actual adventurer would have

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In origins, Alistair really downplays the trauma of being sent to the Chantry by arl eamon and kind of waves off 10-year-old Alistair’s very normal reaction as a childish tantrum that he was “too stubborn” to drop until eamon stopped visiting him. He blames himself for acting like a traumatized child, causing the man who had been a father figure to him for his entire life up until that point to stop visiting him at the Chantry that he was abandoned at. He doesn’t see it as eamon not being able to face the consequences of his decisions (forcing a kid into the catholic-school-to-catholic-army pipeline in order to appease your weird jealous wife = kid is mad at you), he blames himself for not immediately bouncing back from this horrible betrayal and for not putting on a happy facade. Ohhhh the characterization ohhhhhhh ouuughhhhhh aauaauauuughhh;;

Does the resentment come back? When Andraste’s ashes are found and Eamon is saved, does the rose tint fade? Without the threat of death looming over eamon’s bed, does alistair stop feeling compelled to show loyalty to the man? If alistair finds a friend (or lover) in the HoF and doesn’t feel like he has to rely on eamon to be cared about, does he allow himself to think about what was done to him? Does the resentment come back? During his time traveling around Ferelden with a wide variety of people who have had traumatic experiences and bad relationships and, to varying degrees, are willing to talk about their traumas and how these events may have shaped them, does Alistair stop to unpack eamon’s actions? Does it reopen an old wound? Does the resentment come back? Does he realize, when eamon wakes from his coma, that talking to him still hurts? Does the resentment come back? As time passes following the blight, does he very slowly and methodically sift through his memories of sleeping in the dog kennels and being treated differently by everyone? Does he think about the way isolde used to look at him? Does the resentment come back? Does he look at connor or bevin or any other child and wonder how someone could leave them at a chantry just to appease their wife? Does he wonder why eamon was so easily dissuaded from visiting him at the chantry ever again just because a child who he abandoned was angry and upset at him? Does he wonder if eamon felt guilty when the boy he betrayed refused to hide how miserable he was? Does the resentment come back? At the landsmeet, does he feel sick when eamon urges the HoF to make him the king of ferelden? Does he realize that this is very much the same man who hurt him, when his apathy for alistairs wishes becomes so painfully clear? Does the resentment come back? When he’s given his mothers locket, which eamon went through the trouble of having repaired only to leave it to sit in a closed drawer for a decade, does he ever think about what that decision meant? A reminder of what eamon had done to alistair, hidden away and forgotten? Another thing to ignore because it made him guilty? During their time at eamon’s estate in redcliffe, does alistair ever go to visit the kennels and feel how much colder it is without a decade to soften the memories of sleeping there? Does the resentment come back? Does the resentment come back? Does the resentment come back? Did it ever really go away?

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