Steph's Musings

If you haven’t read my previous posts about this, you can find the first post here and the second here. I still feel weird naming these posts “cancer journey”. Technically it was cancer, but I feel like I didn’t have an experience bad enough to fit that category. I truly respect the real struggle so many deal with every minute of every day. I don’t ever want to take away from the suffering of…

For anyone unsure of what journey I speak of, you can read my first post here. I had my surgery yesterday. I woke up that morning with a strange sense of calm. If you’ve read much of my blog or know me personally, you know how odd it is for me to feel that way. I can’t explain it, but I wasn’t freaking out at all. I think I had just conviced myself that it wasn’t bad, they weren’t going to find…

I have cancer. That feels so weird to say – or write. I still haven’t said it out loud yet, not in that way. I’ve referred to it as “basal cell” and even “a skin cancer”, but I’ve never just come out and say “I have cancer”. Technically, I have “basal cell carcinoma, nodule and infiltrative variant” on my “left medial eyebrow”. I just don’t feel right saying I have cancer. I know it’s in the…

I have been putting off writing. Since I was a little girl, I have loved to read. I would read anything, including the back labels of whatever was in front of me. I wanted to write. I got so much enjoyment out of reading that I wanted to write something others could enjoy as much. I never really took that idea seriously growing up, I guess I never gave it any thought. I had a story in my head…

Daily writing promptWhat advice would you give to your teenage self?View all responses It’s like some sort of joke the universe plays on us. We’re given these decisions early in life; some mundane, some very important. Our minds just aren’t developed enough to really think of the long-term effects of our choices. No matter how happy or unhappy one’s childhood is, we all eventually…

OK. So, the idea of conducting a premortem on yourself sounds incredibly depressing – but – if you think about it, it makes sense… sort of. I came across the idea early in the year when the majority of news articles were about making New Years Resolutions. The Wall Street Journal article’s title caught my […]Conducting a premortem on yourself

She wandered through the forest not knowing where she was going. Who was she? Why was she here? She knew her name. She hadn’t lost her memory, just herself. Life had finally swallowed her up and refused to spit her out. She was tired, so tired of trying to figure out how to get back to happiness. She couldn’t do it anymore. The floor had finally dropped out and she had reached her limit. There…

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What could you do less of?View all responses I could do less worrying about tomorrow. My worry becomes anxiety, then my anxiety consumes me. So much so that my brain splits off into too many thoughts at once. I get lost trying to figure out the one I need to hear. Which thought do I need to access in this moment in time? They all just become jumbled to the point that I can’t hear any of them.…

This is a loaded question, isn’t it? Who of us don’t have many answers to this question? I almost passed this prompt when I saw it. My head started spinning with all the things I can list as an answer, I was quickly overwhelmed. I stopped, took a breath and thought for a bit. So many first moments and happy memories to re-live, just to experience the feelings all over again. But the actual…

I came back to this site to reform it to be what I started it to be. I planned this space to share the random thoughts that come into my mind. Hoping I can help someone feeling the same to understand they are not alone, and their feelings are “normal”. Like most ideas I decide to put into place, I’ve only succeeded in short bursts. I have 3-day weekends and do a lot less around the house than I…

Writing Prompt Such a loaded question, where do I begin?? We all have so many things we should do more of, don’t we? I feel like for me, the one thing I could (should) do more of is spend time with my family. I’m around important people in my life quite a bit, most of them anyway. There are quite a few more I should definitely take time to see. I should at least check on them a lot more often.…

Have you ever just felt like your brain wasn’t cooperating with itself?? Can you have writer’s block if you’re not technically a writer? I have had many topics I’ve wanted to talk about, excited to even, but when I sit down to do it I just can’t. I have a few posts started but barely gotten past the title before losing either how to write about it or just the will to write it at all. I started…

Ok, this won’t happen often, but I have gotten myself into hosting a Pampered Chef party online. I do love their products! If you love them too or are curious, please come by and shop. The more orders you make, the more products I can get. I sold it 20 years ago but that was before social media and we actually had to throw in-person parties. I didn’t know enough people and I was in a very…

Come to my party! Ok that may have been a bit misleading and not quite fair, but here’s the story. I was invited to a virtual Pampered Chef party and of course, she needed like 2 more people to host one. I don’t have to do anything so I figured that’d work great for me! I am formally inviting you all to my party. Please don’t feel obligated,  if you like the products, come buy some. If you…