alashay.

Me on tumblr is either because I’m bored out of my mind or extremely suicidal. There’s really no in between. This time? Bordum. Been in the hospital since Thursday & I just wanna go home. 🥺 you ever been in the hospital with no visitors? 🫤 it actually sucks a lot.

I tried to stay out of the dark, but it has swallowed me whole.

My auntie has me on suicide watch after last night but little does she know, as soon as they let me go home I’m checking the fuck out. I’m done.

You never really get over a loss. Rather it’s a lover who broke your heart or losing a parent. You just learn how to cope 1017 days later and I still haven’t accepted the fact that you’re gone

Idk why but this birthday is the hardest so far. Literally woke up crying. I don’t wanna read any birthday message that’s not from my momma. I hate it here.

my heart hurts

I spent Christmas numb af and I plan to spend today the exact same way. If my mom woulda never gave birth to my brother 22 years ago today, she would still be here. I was 22 when she died and I’ll be 25 in a week. This shit all sick as fuck. I really hate it here. Even when I try to act like I’m ok my body don’t be going for it. The insomnia has officially kicked in.