Hold On Baby
After years of feeling burned
My perfect love suddenly returned
Like waves crashing hard into my soul ,
I descended into the deep You became a part of me,
insides turned out, gave you my heart to keep
Everything you showed me you were about
Always there to hold me, never a doubt
Two private gardens of weeds soon bloomed beautifully into one
I was safe once again, scarred heart becoming undone…. (For you that is)
My naked body, my bare heart held every night in your arms
Safe from the world , nothing to fear
In our own private works, I only felt your never ending care
When Im next to you, easily felt were others’ envious stare
Safe in our world, nothing else mattered but one another
Never wanting to be pulled from each other
Lavishly lying skin to skin under covers
I believed you to be my moon and you told me I was your sun.
Proved you’d protect me until each day was done
emotional intelligence and intuition I could feel and taste
One of the only men to ever make me feel safe
In your Scorpio web I found my place
Passion in your eyes, your touch, feeling like the only one in your world
My partner, my lover, my best friend kept my soul swirled
Uplifted by your touch, hands wrapped around my hips
Each day believing every word that came from your lips
Images I once projected went from color to black and white overnight
Lost its hold while discovering I was not the only one in sight
Perhaps you disguised your distrust
Making me unworthy of your truth
I let my last tears fall free trying not to bleed into the memory of you
You slowly poured water onto the fire inside me that you once lit
Now in my own smoldering ashes here I sit
Too scared to feel anything I blankly drift
Paralyzed , unable to think or move
I’m stuck because I put forever into all of you
My fire never dies, it always stays alive… for your love that is
Embers that survived your rainstorm left me with remnants of the man I miss.
But as hard as I try your words leave me unconvinced
My hopeless attempt to stay invincible while dying inside drains all of me
What was our magic that fueled us feels lost to the sea
Spying Crying dying while inside my soul prying
My soul inside knows, it’s impossible to extinguish the flames I carry for you
I wonder am I still the sun to you
I’ve seemingly always mange to dry up the storms of torrential rain
Painful realization of putting someone first only to find out it doesn’t go both ways
Guarding my open heart, But still it’s you I could never replace
despite the frustration and pain I hold behind my face
I somehow don’t want to be without your embrace
The moments we spent together once again remind me I’m second,,, or third.
My safer place is missing
Praying how the hell we hold on. Where has my radar lover gone? 143
