Just typing my feelings and progress

I had a Major panic attack on Nov. 4th and had to go to the ER before my body went into shock. They quickly put me back on my meds and I've been taking it everyday for a week now.

I had a stress migraine on my dad's birthday and I won a raffle for a bee plush and feel about the same about both. A little guilty, a little happy. Not sad I missed really celebrating my dad date of birth or excited about a free plushie. ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

The answer is getting a HUGE dopamine rush cause you doodled for the first time in a decade.

I hate having to rely on medication to feel normal. Always have always will but I know that we are modern people in an age where we don't have to suffer and keep being sick. I hate the doctor's personally but not professionally.

*screaming into the void* AAAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH