Spoonie Adventures with Maddie

I had the worst panic attack of my life today...over a school assignment. The website malfunctioned and my assignment didn’t get submitted although it said it had been submitted. My professor emailed me that my assignment was missing and I didn’t see it until past two hours past thedeadline. I had had trouble submitting an assignment earlier in the semester and she said that she wouldn’t accept this excuse again. Did I react like a normal person when I found out that I missed the deadline? No. Instead I fell to the floor, crying uncontrollably and screaming from anxiety, panic, and fear. Fear that I would get a zero on the assignment. Because, with my irrational thinking, I would rather die than fail at school. And if I miss this assignment, then certainly I’ve failed at school. This intense state lasted around five to ten minutes. After that, I was still crying, but softly now, and I found it difficult to breathe for around thirty to forty minutes. This is not normal. I’m not sure if it was a severe panic attack or something else but I never want to experience that again.