i am so grateful for this life. getting a handle on my anxiety has led me to some of the most amazing encounters and experiences these last few weeks. i had almost forgotten what it was like to feel so confident and comfortable and loved. i danced the weekend away and laid in the sunshine and i feel so strong mentally and physically. excited to wrap up break with lots of time relaxing with friends and fmaily, and then travel to DC next week for a conference. feeling scared but equipped to face all the challenges of the super busy semester that is about to begin.

getting on an airplane back to portland tomorrow morning and I will see my sister and mom and dog and brother and friends and I am so excited and then isaac is coming up from ashland and I am going to eat so much sushi and ice cream and we are going to eugene for new years and maybe visit the coast snd I am going to read so many books and finish scholarship apps for grad school and summer study abroad and work hard on my spanish and go see some movies and take cedar for long walks in the park and I go to some zumba classes and go to shows with alex and I am going to have a great busy time and then flying to a conference in DC and then back to school a couple days late to start my last semester of classes and wow life is so wild but so so so good right now ahhh what is happening