Doll

y are you even bothering to message me this when I'm not even active on Tumblr and it's obvious that you know this

If you're going by that logic, why do you care to message me this? Why do you care to be on social media if all you see is what other people have and don't have? bit of a tit aren't you lol

I know I haven’t uploaded in forever or posted much. 

I hope things are going well for you. I updated a social that I never go on anymore to see if you were still active and you are which is a relief.

Through-out my teen years to now adult age, you still remain so important to me. You still are such a huge significant figure in my life and of course you always will be. I share the times we had with everybody new and old I meet because the things we have shared never get old.

I've been thinking of many ways to reach out to you, but have been such a coward. I always think of an excuse not to due to my lack of self confidence. I just want you to be happy and the most recent news has left me very shocked indeed. I just want you to know, the pain you're enduring at the moment, I can never fix it, nobody can, not even your close friends can but I know you are loved and supported and even know we haven't spoke, I want you to know I always love and support you.

You're a very strong individual and I'm so terribly sorry. You of all people don't deserve this sort of pain. You have so much heart, so much love to give and you carry so much. You make me proud, proud of your big and small achievements and everything you choose and decide in life. I really do think about you every single day without fail and you are always in my best wishes. I sit in my garden and every time I see a bright shining star, I always wish you the best.

I'm having a baby boy. His name is decided and he will be called Lincoln!