spidermansdeadgirlfriend

Is your self-hate also making those good at it spaces even worse for beginners?

I had a partner and also a solid buddy who both worked at Games Workshop, a place where everyone has to be able to paint miniature armies to keep their job and get raises.

They were fucking good at building and painting models. All the tricks, the skills, the techniques, they lesrned them and practiced them by painting armies for every setting, for work.

At home, my partner would always talk about how bad he was and how other people were better. It made me and other people in the friend group feel unable to even get started or be playful. It felt terrible to look at a model better than I could imagine ever being able to paint and hear it dismissed as barely table grade.

themed days - i have a lot of interests rn so im treating my afternoons like grade school classes. music monday, writing wednesday etc

no clothes just outfits - a capsule wardrobe is too confusing a uniform is too boring and hard to pick im gonna just style up some complete outfits including socks & unders and eliminate a lot of laundry economies

Things that can just be stuffed in drawers are fine tho. But the thing with that is that they get harder to find. Which creates other problems

clothing storage is like a calculus problem and i’m in the 3rd grade all my clothes are in two piles dirty in the living room or clean on my work desk. its a problem. the biggest problem. i can tell u what ive been thinking but idk the answer or even have a likely model yet

hanging clothes is sooo boring and i also hate folding i dont have a dresser i have a bunch of low drawer organizers on a bench. its not working the bench gets piled and spills over onto the floor

folding seems mostly to fit in the dresser and hanging seems for wrinkle prevention & like air flow but i do think theres something to be said for rolling, possibly ? i have even considered some kind of towel rod plinko wall

EPD points to removing decisions until theres energy left for hanging or even doing something more enjoyable before and riding momentum but i think its cursed. sliding those stupid rods into neck holes just blows. but it would also say just dont do it then. but still remains the question of storage, access, and maintenance.

However, he replied to said email within five minutes, asking a question that required an answer. So I answered and was like "Also, I was going to apologize for answering emails during this call, but I see we're both here at the Devil's Sacrament, so I don't think an apology is necessary."

I watched him read that on screen and try not to laugh. And then at the end of the call as everyone started saying goodbye, he goes, "Hey, MJ, I meant to tell you. I like your shoelaces."

And I looked straight into my camera, stone cold serious, and said, "Thanks. I stole them from the president."

And the rest of the team was like, "What...the fuck...?" before he abruptly ended the call for everyone.