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Dr. Spencer Reid calculates everything, cognitive efficiency, statistical anomalies and the exact distance he needs to keep to protect his own sanity, but for three months, your laughter has been a constant agonizing hum in the bullpen, a bright and tactile frequency shared with everyone but him. You think he hates you, but the reality is infinitely more dangerous.
Read it on AO3 | Spencer Reid/Female reader
Tags: Enemies to Lovers, Eventual Smut, Hate S*x, Couch S*x, Jealousy, Jealous Spencer Reid, Coworkers to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Misunderstanding, Sexual overstimulation, Rough S*x, Multiple S*x Positions, Multiple Orgasms, Marking/Biting, Dirty Talk, Soft dom Spencer Reid, Degradation/Praise, P*rn With Plot, Aftercare
Word Count: 8.3k
Notes: He hates you because he's jealous so he fucks you :)
๐Masterlist๐
The fluorescent lights of the BAU bullpen always seemed a little too bright, but lately, they felt downright blinding to Spencer, specifically whenever you walked into the room.
You had only been with the team for three months, but you had slipped into the unitโs rhythm with an infuriatingly effortless grace. You were sharp, your profiling skills were precise and worseโฆ you weren't remotely intimidated by him.
While other new agents usually blinked in dazed silence when he rattled off statistics at 180 words per minute, you just leaned back, smiled and countered with your own observations.
He should have liked that, he should have appreciated the intellectual challenge, instead it made a strange tight knot form in the center of his chest, and then there was the way you interacted with everyone else.
"Good morning goddess," your voice echoed lightly from the doorway of the tech office.
Spencer -who was currently sorting through a stack of geographic profiling data at his desk- went completely still. He didn't look up, but his eyes stopped tracking the words on the page.
"Oh stop it, you beautiful girl!" Penelopeโs giggling squeal carried easily across the bullpen.
From the corner of his eye, Spencer watched as you leaned over Garciaโs desk, setting down a specific half caf caramel macchiato. You whispered something close to her ear, some private joke that made Penelope cover her mouth, blushing and swatted playfully at your arm.
You laughed, a low warm sound and let your fingers brush against Penelope's shoulder before stepping back.
Spencerโs grip tightens on his pen until his knuckles turned white. โItโs unprofessional,โ he told himself, his mind furiously scrambling to find a logical analytical reason for the sudden hot spike of irritation in his gut. โThe bullpen is a secure federal environment. Displaying that level of casual intimacy distracts from the psychological focus required for active cases.โ
Except, it wasn't just Penelope.
Later that afternoon, Hotch called a roundtable briefing. The air was thick with tension as the team analyzed the timeline of a new unsub in Seattle.
"If we look at the victimology," you spoke up, sliding a crime scene photo across the smooth wood of the table, "the unsub isn't choosing targets based on geography, he's choosing them based on their routine. Emily, look at the transit schedules, they all use the same train line at exactly 6:15 PM."
Emily studied the file for a second, a slow nod forming. "She's right, it accounts for the three day gap between the second and third abductions. Good catch!"
"Just following your lead," you replied smoothly. As Emily looked up, you caught her eye and gave her a deliberate playful wink.
Spencerโs breath hitched, his eyes darted from you to Emily, his brain short circuiting so violently he completely lost his train of thought. A heavy suffocating weight settled in his stomach. "Why did you do that? Why did you look at her like that?โ
When the meeting was over, the team dispersed back to their desks. Spencer intentionally lingered by the coffee maker, his posture stiff, eyes fixed on the dark liquid dripping into the pot. He heard your footsteps before he saw you.
You walked up to the bullpen lounge, standing right next to Emily as she filed a report. You said something low, laughing and reached out to casually touch Emilyโs forearm, just a brief lingering pressure of your hand against her sleeve.
Spencer didn't even realize he was staring until you suddenly turned your head and caught him.
The warmth in your expression vanished instantly, replaced by a cautious guarded look. The contrast was agonizing, with Penelope and Emily you were bright, tactile and radiant but with him, you were walking on eggshells.
"Am I disrupting your focus Dr. Reid?" You asked, your tone completely dropping the playful edge it had just had a second ago.
Spencer cleared his throat, his chest tightening as his social anxiety spiked, locking his muscles in place. He wanted to say something normal, he wanted to be a part of the casual ease you shared with everyone else, but the sheer terror of rejection -the crushing certainty that you would never look at him with that kind of warmth- made him freeze.
So he did what he always did, he built a wall of academic formality.
"The human brain requires sustained focus to process complex behavioral patterns," Spencer said, his voice clipped, cool and entirely detached. He didn't look you in the eye as he grabbed his mug. "Superfluous socializing in the workspace statistically reduces cognitive efficiency by 23%. So yes, it is distracting."
He turned on his heel and walked straight back to his desk without waiting for your response, leaving a heavy frustrated silence in his wake.
He didn't see the way your jaw tightened or the hurt that flashed in your eyes before turning into pure irritation. He just sat at his desk, staring blankly at his paperwork, his mind screaming at him because he had done it again.
He had pushed you away, all because he couldn't handle the burning desperate jealousy of wanting that attention for himself.
By the following Friday, the tension between you and Spencer had stretched into a thin dangerous wire, ready to snap at the slightest touch.
For an entire week, he had barely looked at you. If you handed him a file, he took it without letting his fingers brush yours, if you spoke in a briefing, he stared fixedly at the whiteboard, his jaw clenched so tight the muscle ticked.
The breaking point arrived at 9:00 PM on the same Friday night.
The team had just returned from a brutal exhausting case in Seattle, the unsub was in custody, the paperwork was logged and the heavy oppressive cloud of the job finally lifted.
Instead of heading straight home, everyone clustered around the desks in the bullpen, loosening ties and kicking off heels, unwinding with a rare relaxed camaraderie.
JJ had brought out a bottle of whiskey someone had gifted Hotch and plastic cups were being passed around.
You were leaning against the edge of Emilyโs desk, a cup in your hand, finally letting the exhaustion melt away. Emily was sitting in her rolling chair, laughing softly as Penelope recounted a ridiculous online dating horror story.
A few feet away, Spencer sat at his desk. He hadn't joined the circle, he was meticulously cleaning his satchel, pretending to be deeply engrossed in organizing his books, but his ears were entirely tuned to your frequency.
"Iโm telling you, the guy said he had a coupon to a Michelin star restaurant and then asked if we could split the appetizer three ways," Penelope said, laughing and throwing her hands in the air.
"Oh absolutely not," you laughed, leaning down closer to the two of them. "See, this is why I don't bother with dating apps, the standard is entirely too low."
Emily looked up at you, a smirk playing on her lips. "And what exactly is your standard?"
You smiled, the dim light of the bullpen catching the playful glint in your eyes. You leaned in just a little further, your shoulder brushing comfortably against Emilyโs as you looked between her and Penelope.
"Honestly? If I wasn't working here and if regulations didn't exist, Iโd just ask one of you two out on a proper date," you teased, your voice dripping with an affectionate exaggerated drawl. "You're both brilliant, gorgeous and you actually know how to dress. I'd treat you like queens."
Penelope clutched her chest with a dramatic gasp. "Oh my heart! Don't tempt me sweet girl!"
Emily chuckled, shaking her head, leaning back into your space with an easy familiar warmth. "Careful, don't make promises you can't keep."
It was a joke, it was a harmless casual bullpen banter meant to lighten the mood after a week of tracking a monster, but to Spencer, it was the sound of a match striking a puddle of gasoline.
โA proper date.โ The words bounced around his skull, mutating into something agonizing. His brain didn't process the teasing tone, it only processed the visualization of you holding Emilyโs hand, of you taking Penelope out, of you looking at someone else with that soft open desire.
The proprietary suffocating jealousy that he had spent three months trying to cage suddenly tore free, it filled his chest until he couldn't draw a full breath, a hot toxic wave of adrenaline that made his fingers tremble.
He couldn't do this anymore, he couldn't sit here and pretend he was just an annoyed coworker when the truth was ripping him apart from the inside out.
With a sudden violent movement, Spencer jammed a book into his satchel, the heavy thud of the binder hitting the bottom of the bag cut through the laughter at Emily's desk.
You paused mid laugh, your eyes instinctively darting over to him.
Spencer stood up so fast his chair rolled back and slammed into the desk behind him. He didn't look down to adjust it, he just looked across the bullpen, his gaze locking directly onto yours.
For a fraction of a second, the mask of the detached genius dropped entirely, his hazel eyes were dark, burning with a raw chaotic mixture of hurt, anger and a desperate untamed hunger that made your breath hitch. It was a glare that stripped away all the polite distance he had built between you.
You froze, the smile dying on your lips, your heart suddenly hammering against your ribs. โWhat is he looking at me like that for?โ
Before you could even think to say anything, Spencer ripped his satchel over his shoulder. He didn't say goodbye to Morgan, he didn't wish the team a good weekend, he turned on his heel and strode toward the doors of the bullpen.
"What's crawled up his edge tonight?" Emily muttered, frowning as she watched the empty hallway where Spencer had just vanished.
"Maybe he's just tired," Penelope offered softly, looking confused.
But you couldn't speak. You stared at the empty doorway, your fingers tightening around your plastic cup. That look, the sheer unadulterated fury and longing in Spencerโs eyes had left your skin tingling. You didn't know what it meant, but as you looked down at your hands, you realized you were shaking.
The streetlights of the city blurred into long bleeding streaks of amber against the windshield of Spencerโs old car. He had been driving aimlessly for hours, completely lost in a vicious looping spiral of his own thoughts.
He hadn't even realized it was already approaching 2:00 AM nor that he hadn't made a single move toward his own apartment. His hands were gripping the steering wheel so tightly his knuckles were completely bloodless, the leather casing groaning under the pressure.
His mind was a runaway train, a chaotic overlapping mess of statistics, psychological profiles andโฆ your voice.
โIf I wasn't working here... Iโd ask one of you two out on a proper date.โ
He pressed his foot harder onto the gas pedal, the engine whining in protest. โItโs a statistical anomaly for a team to maintain a cohesive environment when personal desires cross professional boundaries,โ he reasoned, his brain working overtime to build a logical fortress around his breaking sanity. โSheโs careless, sheโs entirely unprofessional, she doesn't respect the psychological weight of this job if she can just stand there and throw around reckless flirtations like they mean nothing.โ
He repeated the words like a mantra, trying to turn his blinding jealousy into a righteous clinical lecture on workplace protocol. But it was a lie, a desperate pathetic lie because every time he closed his eyes, he didn't see a violation of FBI guidelines, he just saw the slope of your shoulder brushing against Emilyโs, he saw the warm easy smile you gave Penelope.
โHe wanted to tear that smile away from them, he wanted to force you to look at him even if it was with hatred just so he could be the center of your universe for a single fleeting second.
The car jolted to a halt, but Spencer didn't pause. He didn't think, he didn't rationalize and he didn't formulate a single objection as the sheer momentum of his own thoughts took over entirely.
โBefore his mind could formulate a single coherent objection, he was out of the car.
โInside your place, you had just changed into an oversized shirt, trying to shake off the strange vibrating electricity that had settled under your skin ever since Spencer had fled the bullpen. You were just about to pour yourself a glass of water when a heavy frantic knocking rattled your front door.
You frowned, your heart instantly leaping into your throat. "A case? An emergency?"
You hurried over and pulled the door open and the words died in your throat. It was Spencer.
He looked entirely unraveled, the cool pristine meticulous Dr. Reid was completely gone, his long brown hair was wildly messy, falling into his face as if heโd been running his fingers through it over and over. His coat was open and his tie was completely loosened.
The top two buttons of his dress shirt undone to reveal the pale skin of his throat and he was breathing heavily, his chest rising and falling as if he had run up a flight of stairs.
"Spencer?" You breathed, staring at him in shock. "What... what are you doing here? It's 2:30 AM! Did we get a call? Is there a new case?"
"No," he said, his voice lower than usual, rough and vibrating with a dangerous unstable energy. He didn't ask to come in, he just took a commanding step forward, forcing you to step back into your entryway so he could slam the door shut behind him.
"Then what is wrong with you?" You asked, your voice rising as defensive instinct kicked in. "You look like you're losing your mind."
"I am losing my fuckin mind," he shot back, his hazel eyes locking onto yours with a terrifyingly sharp intensity. He began pacing the narrow hallway, his hands gesturing wildly, the academic persona returning like a clumsy shield. "Iโm losing my mind because the operational integrity of our unit is being compromised and nobody else seems to notice or care. Your behavior tonightโฆ your behavior every day directly violates basic professional protocol!"
You stared at him utterly bewildered before a hot spark of anger ignited in your chest. "My behavior? What the hell are you talking about?"
"You know exactly what I'm talking about!" He snapped, spinning around to face you, stepping entirely too close. "The casual touching, the whispering, telling Emily and Garcia that you want to take them on a proper date in front of the entire bullpen! It's distracting, itโs reckless and it is entirely unprofessional!"
"Unprofessional?!" You yelled, taking a step right back into his space, your chest nearly brushing his. You had to tilt your head back to look him in the eye but you refused to back down. "It was a joke! We were winding down after a brutal case! Emily and Penelope are my friends. It's called bonding Spencer, it's called being a human being!"
"Itโs a distraction!" He shouted, his voice cracking, a raw vein of pure emotion bleeding through his academic lecture.
"No you know what? I am sick of this!" You fired back, your voice shaking with months of built up frustration. All the cold shoulders, the clipped answers, the way he made you feel like a nuisance, it all boiled over. "You've been looking for an excuse to tear me down since the day I got here! Why do you hate me so much Spencer? What did I ever do to you?!"
"I don't hate you!" He roared, the sound tearing from his throat, echoing off the walls of your quiet apartment.
"Then why can't you even look at me?!" You screamed back, tears of sheer frustration stinging the corners of your eyes. "Why do you treat everyone else with kindness and treat me like shit?!"
"Because you don't look at me like that!" Spencer finally exploded. The words cut through the air like a knife, slicing the shouting match dead in its tracks.
He stopped breathing, his hands hovered in the air trembling, his chest heaving violently. His face was flushed, a deep dark red creeping up his neck to his cheekbones. The anger in his eyes suddenly shattered, leaving behind something so raw and so agonizingly vulnerable it made your knees go weak.
"You spend all day..." Spencer whispered, his voice cracking, the fierce mask completely gone as he looked down at you, totally exposed. "You spend all day laughing with Penelopeโฆ you tease Emilyโฆ you touch themโฆ you smile at themโฆ you look at them like they're the only people in the room, and you act like I'm completely invisible. You walk on eggshells around me, you drop your voiceโฆ you look at me like Iโm something dead who doesn't feel anything."
Your jaw slacked, the blood in your veins turned to liquid fire as the puzzle pieces slammed together in your head. The coldness, the glaring, the meticulous avoidanceโฆ it wasn't hatred, it was never hatred.
He was losing his mind because he was desperately and agonizingly jealous.
The anger between you instantly shifted, morphing into a heavy thick breathless tension that made the air feel like velvet. The space between you suddenly felt charged with a magnetic pull so strong it was dizzying.
You looked at his trembling hands, then up at his mouth and finally back into his dark burning hazel eyes. Slowly and deliberately you took a step closer, the tips of your toes brushed against his. You could feel the heat radiating off his body.
"You think I want them Spencer?" Your voice was barely a whisper now, low and steady, your eyes locking onto his with a fierce intensity of your own. You reached out, your hand hesitating for a fraction of a second before you let your fingers brush against the loose fabric of his tie.
Spencer let out a shaky hitched breath, his eyes dropping to your lips.
"I was trying to get your attention," you murmured, looking up at him through your lashes. "I was loud and playful because it was the only time you would actually look up from your paperwork and notice I was in the room. I don't want them Spencer, I've been waiting for you."
"Fuck it," he rasped, his eyes dilated so wide the hazel almost vanished into black.
He reached out, his long fingers tangling fiercely into the hair at the back of your head, his other hand gripping your waist with a bruising possessive pressure and pulled you violently against him as his mouth crashed down onto yours.
It wasn't a gentle kiss, it was clumsy, desperate and completely feral.
A soft breathless whimper escaped your lips and the sound only seemed to drive him crazier. You wrapped your arms tightly around his neck, burying your fingers deep into his soft brown hair. You kissed him back with an equal starving hunger, your tongue sliding against his, tasting the dark intoxicating heat of pure desire.
Spencer groaned, a deep vibration that rumbled right into your chest. He staggered forward, completely blind to his surroundings, his lips never leaving yours for a single fraction of a second.
You backed up willingly, your legs tangling with his until the back of your knees hit the soft edge of your living room sofa. You tumbled backward onto the cushions and Spencer came down right on top of you, his heavy body a comforting solid weight.
You didn't want a single inch of space between you, you hooked your thighs around his hips and pulled him closer, guiding him until he sank down between your legs.
With a rough tug, Spencer gripped your hips and hoisted you upward, shifting his weight until you were completely straddling his lap.
The burning heavy heat of his thighs pressed directly against your bare skin, a searing contact that ignited the raw hunger he had been suppressing for months.
Without a second of hesitation, his large trembling hands slid down your waist, his palms dragging possessively over the exposed skin of your outer thighs, his long fingers digging firmly into your flesh, tracing upward until his hands molded perfectly to the burning heat of your bare hips.
The kiss became entirely unhinged, he was devouring you, his lips sliding from your mouth to bite at your bottom lip then instantly sucking it back in, his breathing so loud and ruined it filled the quiet apartment.
You arched your back into him, your hands moving from his hair to grip his broad shoulders, pulling his chest flush against yours as your hips tilted instinctively into his lap.
When he finally broke the kiss, it was only because his lungs were screaming for air. He dragged his mouth away, a thin wet silver thread breaking between your lips.
Both of you were completely breathless, your chests heaving violently against one another.
Spencerโs head dropped into the crook of your neck, his forehead resting against your collarbone as he sucked in a sharp ragged breath. His heart was hammering so fast against your ribs it felt like a trapped bird.
"You're..." Spencer panted, his voice completely wrecked, dropping an octave into a gravelly, breathless whisper. He pressed a hot wet kiss right beneath your jaw, his lips dragging against your sensitive skin, "...you are so incredibly... unprofessional."
A breathless euphoric laugh bubbled up from your throat, even now -completely unraveled and hard as a rock beneath you- his brain was trying to process it.
"Shut up Spencer," you murmured, tilting your head to the side to give him better access.
You reached down, your fingers catching the hem of his loosened dress shirt. You began tugging the buttons free, your hands trembling as you popped them out of their holes, wanting the barrier gone.
Spencer didn't help you, he was entirely consumed by the texture of your skin. As your hands worked the shirt open, exposing the pale smooth expanse of his chest, his mouth trailed down your neck, biting gently at the junction where your shoulder met your neck, making you gasp and arch into him.
His large hands kept running frantically up and down your bare thighs, his palms smooth but firm, bunching the oversized shirt higher and higher up your waist until there was absolutely nothing between his hands and your skin. He squeezed your thighs, lifting you slightly just to press his hips up against yours, a low needy growl escaping his throat when he felt how soft and completely bare you were for him.
"Look at me," you whispered, finally pushing his shirt off his shoulders, letting it pool around his elbows.
Spencer looked up, his face flushed a dark beautiful crimson, his eyes completely pitch black with blown out desire. He looked completely untamed.
You didn't give him a chance to speak, you leaned down and captured his lips again, smothering whatever academic thought was left in his head.
This time, the kisses became slower, heavier and agonizingly deep. You sucked on his top lip, soothing the sting with the tip of your tongue before he groaned and took over, pulling your upper lip into his mouth, tasting you over and over until your brain felt entirely fried.
"I need to touch every single inch of you," he rasped as he gripped the hem of your shirt. He violently yanked it up and over your head, throwing it carelessly onto the floor. Spencerโs breath caught completely, his hands trembling as he stared down at your bare skin under the dim light of the room. "Look at youโฆ you're fuckin perfect."
He didn't wait a single second, he lunged back in, his mouth crashing not against your lips this time but against your jaw, his teeth scraping gently over your skin, leaving a wet trail down the column of your neck.
Your head fell back as the heavy friction of his mouth drove you absolutely crazy. You were so desperate for him to finally touch you below the waist, to end the agonizing ache that a wave of sheer physical frustration took over your body.
You tilted your hips blindly into his lap, your hands sliding down to frantically tug at his belt. "Spencer... please, no more waiting," you begged rawly, a tight sob catching in your throat as your fingers fumbled uselessly with his clothes. "I can't take this... please just fuck me... I need you inside-"
Driven by his own need to punish you more, his mouth dragged lower. Spencer caught your nipple between his lips and sucked deep and hard, his tongue swirling around the sensitive peak before pulling it into the heat of his mouth.
A loud horny moan ripped from your lips, echoing off the quiet walls of your apartment. Your head fell back, your fingers tangling frantically in his messy brown hair, pulling him closer to your chest.
The sheer intense friction of his tongue sent a violent jolt of electricity straight between your thighs, making you tilt your hips instinctively against his covered lap.
He switched to the other breast, lashing his tongue over the peak, sucking until you were shaking beneath him, whimpering his name like a prayer. He broke the contact by barely an inch, his chest heaving as he fought for air.
"You like that baby?" He panted, his voice a dark gravelly rasp you had never heard from him before. "Tell meโฆ do you like it when I touch you like this? When I bite you?"
"Yes!... Fuck yes Spencerโฆ please," you sobbed out, your hands sliding down to his chest, feeling his heart hammering at a dangerous rapid fire speed. โI need youโฆ I need you right nowโฆ ple-โ
The admission seemed to break whatever thread of sanity he had left. Before you could even finish the word, Spencer leaned up, his large hands anchoring your jaw as he violently pulled you down into a crushing desperate kiss.
The thought of how much time they had wasted, how many days he had spent glaring at paperwork while his mind secretly simulated the exact texture of your skin turned into a rough unforgiving urgency.
He dragged his lips away by barely a millimeter, his chest heaving violently as he gripped your face, keeping you entirely pinned to his mouth.
"Three months," he muttered against your lips, his voice tight with an agonizing mixture of fury and need. "Three months of looking at you... of watching you touch everyone else and losing my mind... we wasted so much time."
He didn't give a fuck about fully undressing, the desperation was entirely too high for perfect positioning. With a trembling feral hand, Spencer reached down and violently ripped his belt open, his fingers fumbling with a manic breathless urgency at his zipper just enough to shove his trousers down past his heavy thighs, finally freeing his massive aching length.
It snapped out between you, violently hard, thick and dripping with a heavy coat of precum that smeared instantly against your skin, throbbing like a live wire as it pressed directly against your soaking wet, dripping cunt and a fractured breathless gasp caught in your throat.
Spencer gripped your bare waist with a brutal bruising hold, his fingers sinking deep into your flesh to anchor you. He hoisted your hips up slightly, his chest heaving violently as he forced you to look right into his blown out eyes, letting you see the absolute depraved ruin you had made of his sanity.
"You're mine," he growled, the primitive dirty declaration vibrating right against your mouth. "No one else touches you like thisโฆ no one else gets you this fuckin wet."
"Yes... ahh!~... fuck yes," you wailed breathlessly, blindly grinding your soaking wet, dripping entrance up against his hard length, practically begging for the stretch."Please Spencer... now... put it in!"
With a sudden violent downward yank of his hands, he slammed your hips down, completely burying his entire length inside you in one deep brutal thrust.
The sheer shock of it made your eyes snap wide, a loud high pitched scream of pure pleasure tore from your throat but Spencer was already leaning up, capturing your mouth in another heavy bruising kiss that smothered the sound, his tongue forcing its way past your lips to match the sudden violent movement of his hips.
"Fuckโฆ you're so tight," Spencer groaned directly into your mouth, his tongue sliding wetly against yours as his hands anchored your hips. His fingers dug into your waist and with a ruthless heavy heave of his arms, he began physically lifting your body up his length and slamming you back down.
The friction was overwhelming, the combination of his rough heavy pacing, the coarse fabric of his pushed down pants rubbing against your bare thighs and the intense deep stretch of him hitting your sweet spot was too much for your senses to handle.
You let out a broken needy wail, your hands abandoning his shoulders to clutch at his face, your fingers tangling desperately in his hair as you pulled him down into a frantic sloppy kiss. You were completely unraveled, swallowing his hot spit, your mouth working against his as frantically as your hips were rolling against his lap.
Spencer was completely unraveled, hoisting you up and down in a fast punishing cadence. He kept his mouth locked to yours, bruising your lips, swallowing your ragged gasps as he pounded up into you. He could feel how incredibly hot and slick you were, the tight walls of your cunt clamping down around him with every hard thrust.
"Spencer!... I'mโฆ ahh fuck~..." you whimpered, breaking the kiss, your head tossing back as your vision went completely blurry. Your internal muscles violently clamped around him, contracting in a sudden shattering orgasm that rippled through your entire body.
"Fuckin look at you," he growled, his voice dropping into a filthy gravelly rasp as he watched your face twist with pleasure. "You like having my cock inside you don't you? Tell me how good it feels to take itโฆ tell me you're my good whore."
"Spencerโฆ fuck yeah~โฆ I'm yoursโฆ nghh~... pleaseโฆ I love it," you sobbed out, your mind entirely short circuited by the high of the orgasm. You couldn't even think straight, you were just blindly rolling your hips against his lap, begging for more of the friction. "Iโm yours Spencer... please... cum for meโฆ inside me please..."
The desperate undone admission shattered the very last of his sanity, his hands gripped your waist with a brutal trembling pressure, slamming his pelvis flush against yours as he rode the wave.
"You're a fuckin drug," he choked out, his fingers bruising your waist as he delivered three more deep frantic, incredibly rough thrusts, burying himself to the absolute hilt before a loud deep sound of pure surrender tore from his chest.
His body went completely rigid, his hips locking tightly against yours as he spilled himself deep inside you, his hot length pulsing hard against your contracting walls as you both shook with the violent aftermath of a desperate long awaited release.
Spencer didn't pull out, he stayed buried deep inside you, his heavy forehead resting against your shoulder as his chest heaved, his heart slamming against your ribs.
"Good girl," Spencer panted rawly into your neck, his voice completely broken from the release. He squeezed your waist, pressing himself deeper into your heat. "Fuckin perfect... you took every single inch of me so good baby."
You couldn't even answer, you were slumped heavily against him, your breath hitching in little pathetic stutters. You were completely helpless to the throbbing ache of his thick length stretching you open from below, gravity keeping you sunk all the way down on him.
Spencerโs hands came up to clutch the back of your head, his fingers tangled in your hair as he pulled your face to his. He began kissing you again, not rough this time but incredibly wet, desperate and open mouthed, his tongue lazily sliding against yours, tasting you and your shared heat.
You kissed him back just as hard, your lips slippery against his, small whines escaping you every time his pulsing length twitched deep inside your stretched out core.
"Mmm... you're so mean to me," you whimpered tiredly against his lips, completely out of it as you loosely wrapped your arms around his neck. "You were taking so long... I was almost ready to give up and let someone else do it.โ
"You think I'll let anyone else touch you?" He whispered roughly against your lips, his free hand tracing a slow heavy line over your hip and thigh, his touch making your internal muscles squeeze him so tightly that his thick length twitched hard deep inside you.
You just giggled as you pulled him back to kiss him deep. He let out a dark needy growl into your mouth, his hands gripping your waist to anchor you down.
"You're mine," he rasped, breaking the kiss just enough to look at you, his thumb sweeping across your bottom lip. "Every single inch of you is mine and nobody else is ever getting near you."
"Mhmmโฆ I'm yours baby," you whined back, your lips slippery against his as you kissed him more, your hips trembling around his thick length. "I'm all yours... can we please go take a shower?"
"Oh, you think we're done?" Spencer let out a low gravelly chuckle, his eyes darkening as his fingers dug punishingly into your waist. "We're not going anywhere until you can barely stand up, let alone walk to the bathroom."
He was angry at how easily you had undone him, angry that he had spent weeks agonizing in silence while you possessed this total absolute power over his body.
Before you could even process the words, Spencer gripped your thighs tightly and shifted his weight, flipping you beneath him as he drove his body forward. He didn't pull out to move you, he kept himself buried to the hilt as he forced your body backward onto the sofa.
The sudden change in position made him shift inside you, his thick length grinding hard against a dangerously sensitive spot. You let out a sharp breathless gasp, your hands flying to his bare shoulders. "Spencerโฆ waitโฆ I'mโฆ"
"No," he cut you off, his tone flat, unyielding and downright mean. He didn't want to wait, he didn't want to be clinical or polite. "You don't get to tell me to wait, not after making me wait for months.โ
He leaned down, his mouth crashing onto yours to stifle your protests and immediately began to move. The pace had changed, it wasn't the frantic rushing scramble from before, it was a heavy, deliberate and deeply punishing rhythm.
He pulled back until he was almost entirely out, letting you feel the full agonizing width of him stretching your dripping entrance wide before slamming back down to the hilt with a loud wet slap of his pelvis, using his weight to pin your hips into the couch cushions.
"Spencerโฆ AHH!~... Pleaseโฆ" You screamed into his mouth, your hands clawing at his back.
He didn't stop, he didn't even slow down. His jaw remained locked as he used his hands to angle your hips up, slamming directly into your sweet spot with a blunt heavy thud.
The sheer force shattered your control, sending a sudden blinding second orgasm rolling through your entire body.
"S-stop... please... Spencerโฆ itโs too... too much!" You sobbed out, your voice breaking as you blindly tried to push at his chest, but even as the word left your lips, your hips instinctively rolled up to meet him, your voice turning into a desperate shriek. "Harder!... Please... harder... fuck... ah-ahh!~... I can't..."
"Make up your fuckin mind," Spencer growled, his breathing loud and completely unhinged as he pushed right through your climax. He maintained his hard unforgiving pace, anchoring your thighs to keep you pinned. "You want me to stop? Youโre literally sobbing while your pathetic cunt is begging me for more."
"I'm sorry... ah!~... Spencer please!" You wailed, completely helpless as the pleasure held you under. Your hyper sensitized walls convulsed violently around him in erratic desperate waves, overflowing and coating his length.
He was pounding into you with a steady relentless force, his bare chest grinding roughly against your sensitive wet nipples with every single thrust, smearing your shared sweat between you.
The friction was too intense, your nerve endings -already raw and hyper sensitized- began to scream as a tight electric coil snapped awake in your lower stomach almost instantly. Your breath hitched before you started moaning incredibly loud, your voice echoing off the walls as your entire body shivered.
Feeling how close you already were again, Spencer let out a ragged groan, his mouth crashing back down onto yours to swallow your loud cries as he praised you.
"Good girl, such a needy little whore for me," he mumbled dirty and wet against your lips. "You're close yeah? I can feel you baby come on."
"Ah!~... Spencer... stop... I'm gonna..." You tore your mouth away from his, your head tossing violently against the couch cushion as your hands tried to push against his shoulders.
He didn't stop, he didn't even slow down. His jaw remained locked as he drove himself deeper, using his hands to angle your hips up so he could slam directly into your g-spot with a blunt heavy thud.
The sheer force of the impact shattered your control. Your overstimulated walls convulsed violently, clamping down around his cock like a vice as a sudden blinding second orgasm took over your entire body.
Your back arched completely off the couch, your toes curling as a loud high pitched sob ripped from your throat. Your internal muscles squeezed him in erratic desperate waves that had him groaning out loud against your lips, your cunt overflowing and soaking the cushions beneath you.
Spencer didn't give you a second to breathe. He felt your walls contract, felt the hot slick gush of your cum coating him and it only seemed to make him meaner. Instead of riding out your climax, he pushed right through it, maintaining his hard unforgiving pace and slamming into you while you were still actively cumming.
The friction of his thighs against yours, the heavy pressure of his chest, the relentless deep stretching of his length was an absolute sensory overload.
Your brain was screaming that it was too sensitive, that you couldn't take another friction rub without snapping, yet as your hands frantically gripped his wrists, you weren't pushing him away. Your fingers were clawing into his skin, your hips instinctively tilting upward to meet every punishing downstroke.
You were terrified of the intensity, but the primal desperate part of your brain was utterly addicted to it. You didn't want him to stop, you wanted him to destroy you with it.
โYouโฆ you can't get enough of it too yeah?โ He whispered in your ear, his voice a dark rough taunt. He bit down on your skin hard enough to leave a deep bruise, his teeth scraping over your pulse point as he kept delivering bruising thrusts that squelched loudly against your overflowing wetness. "Don't tell me to stop when you're moaning and begging for more like a greedy little bitch."
He captured your lips again, his kiss much sloppier and wetter than before, his tongue sliding against yours with a bruising desperate hunger that tasted like your shared breath and sweat. He swallowed your whimpers, turning them into shared groans as he kept up the relentless punishing pace.
He was intentionally rubbing his pubic bone against your overstimulated clit with every single hard drive, driving you absolutely insane.
You let out a broken breathless wail, your hands flying up to grip the back of the couch as your vision went completely white. The overstimulation crossed a dangerous line, turning the excess of sensation into pure unadulterated ecstasy.
Before your body could even fully recover from the last climax, the violent rhythmic pounding dragged you right over the cliff again. This one was deeper, a total full body convulsion that made your hips shudder violently against his.
You went completely limp beneath him, your chest heaving as you cried out his name, your body totally wrecked and still shaking from the climax that wouldn't stop.
โYou're so fuckin hot, you're destroying me," Spencer growled, his voice completely raw. He slowed his pace down to a brutal agonizingly slow crawl, dragging his thick length out to the very tip before buried it back in, deliberately making your orgasm last as long as possible. "You're such a good obedient whoreโฆ taking it so deep."
"Spencer... please... stop... too far... ah~..." you whimpered, your arms feeling like lead as you weakly tried to push at his chest. You were trying to tell him how good it felt but you were so exhausted that the words just came out as an incoherent slurred mess. "Moreโฆ p-pleaseโฆโ
Spencer easily caught both of your wrists in one hand, bringing them up to his mouth to press a kiss against your pulsing skin. With a violent jerk, he pinned your hands flat against the cushions directly above your head. He didn't stop that slow torturing friction for a single second, leaning all his heavy weight down to kiss you again.
โYou think this is over?โ He growled darkly against your lips. "Iโm going to ruin you for anyone else tonightโฆ youโre gonna remember exactly who owns this body."
Before you could say a word, he shifted his body, crowding you completely on the narrow couch. He slid his forearm under your right thigh, roughly yanking it upward. The position forced your hips to tilt upward at an extreme, completely exposed angle, tightening your core until it felt like a vice around him.
"Iโฆ I can'tโฆ Spencer... pleaseโฆ I'm tooโฆ sensitive," you sobbed, your head tossing against the cushions, your pinned wrists twisting weakly in his iron grip. "It's too muchโฆ nghh~... I'mโฆ I'm gonnaโฆ"
"Good," he cut you off brutally, not giving you a single second to adjust to the stretch, he accelerated instantly, unleashing a hard, fast and completely merciless pace.
The friction was monstrous, he was deliberately grinding against your hyper sensitized walls, completely deaf to the way you were weeping, entirely consumed by the primitive need to claim you completely.
He slammed his hips against yours over and over, his heavy weight pinning you down as his cock tore through your slick heat. He leaned down and crashed his mouth back onto yours, his tongue driving inside with heavy rhythmic force that matched his pelvis, swallowing your loud messy sobs.
The room filled with the loud wet slapping sound of his skin punishing yours, the pace so frantic it felt like he was trying to drill right through you. He kept that solid bruising rhythm going, letting the friction build heavily between you until your bodies were slick with sweat.
Gradually, Spencer let out a sharp ragged gasp into your mouth. He felt his own length swelling to the absolute limit, his balls tightening as the climax began to rush up on him.
He ripped his mouth away, his breathing completely unhinged as he grabbed your thighs, hoisting your legs way up over his shoulders. The new angle shifted his cock perfectly and when he slammed back down, he hit your g-spot with a blunt crushing thud.
"Ahhh!~... Spencer!" You shrieked, your eyes rolling back as the direct hit shattered you instantly. Your walls clamped around him like a violent vice, milking him in frantic desperate waves as a new hard orgasm tore through your body, soaking his thighs in a hot gush of your cum.
"Yeahโฆ take itโฆ fuckin cum for me baby," Spencer growled, his voice completely wrecked. Your tight convulsing walls were too much for him to hold back. He groaned out loud, his body going dead rigid as he came deep inside you. A massive thick release pulsing hard into your contracting core.
Instead of stopping, Spencer kept his hips grinding, forcing himself to keep moving in slow heavy friction filled thrusts. He dragged his length back and forth through your pulsing walls, intentionally prolonging the agonizing pleasure for both of you until your bodies were trembling uncontrollably.
Finally, his strength gave out. He collapsed completely over you, his heavy chest heaving violently against your breasts as he buried his face in your neck.
Using the absolute last bit of energy you had left, you weakly wrapped your arms around his broad back, holding him close as he moved to press slow lazy wet kisses against your lips, both of you tasting your shared heat.
When he finally shifted to pull out, a soft pathetic whimper escaped your throat at the cold ache of him leaving you empty. Your overstimulated muscles twitched in protest at the sudden loss of his thickness.
"I got you," Spencer murmured roughly, his voice soft now as he planted a gentle kiss on your forehead. He lingered there for a second, his thumb tenderly wiping away the tears on your cheek while his other hand stroked your tangled hair. "Don't move alright? Just rest... I'm right here."
He sat up on the edge of the sofa, panting heavily as he tiredly pulled his pants back up and fastened them, his shoulders still rising and falling as he tried to catch his breath. He didn't even care about his shirt, leaving his bare chest exposed as he leaned back over you, his arms sliding under your back and knees.
Spencer lifted you into his arms, your legs were so weak they felt like jelly, dropping helplessly over his forearms as he carried you out of the living room and into the small dimly lit bathroom.
He gently hoisted you up, setting you down on the cool smooth surface of the sink counter. The sudden contact with the porcelain made you shiver, your thighs parting slightly.
Spencer immediately stepped between your knees, crowding your space again but this time his movements were hyper gentle, almost reverent.
He reached over and grabbed a soft washcloth, turning on the faucet until the water ran warm. As he soaked the cloth, he leaned in, his lips pressing softly and repeatedly against your jawline and the sensitive skin of your neck.
"I'm so sorry," he murmured against your skin, his breath hitching. "I was just... I was so angry at myself and I lost controlโฆ I've never lost control like that. Did I hurt you? Please tell me I didn't hurt you."
You reached out, your trembling hands finding his bare shoulders, your fingers digging softly into his skin to pull him closer.
"Spencer, look at me," you whispered, your voice raspy and broken from screaming his name.
He looked up, his eyes wide, swimming with anxiety and regret.
You didn't let him speak, you leaned forward and captured his lips in a slow deep reassuring kiss. It was completely different from the bruising chaos on the couch, it was soft, wet and filled with a quiet reassurance.
You parted your lips, letting your tongue slide against his, tasting him, showing him with the gentle friction of your mouth that you weren't angry.
"You didn't hurt me," you breathed, a small exhausted smile tugging at the corner of your lips. "I loved itโฆ every single second of it. Stop overthinking Spencer."
A shaky breathless laugh escaped his throat, the tension in his broad shoulders finally melting away as he pressed another soft kiss to your lips.
"I'm just an idiot who was terrified you'd never look at me," he mumbled, his voice dropping into a soft quiet tone before he caught himself. "But mostly... I just thought I lost you before I even really had you."
"Well, I'm here with you now," you murmured.
Spencer smiled, a genuine soft expression that reached his eyes. He squeezed the excess water from the warm cloth and with agonizing gentleness, he began to clean you. He wiped the dried sweat from your stomach, his hand slow and steady before moving between your thighs.
Every stroke of the warm cloth was tender, soothing the hyper sensitive throbbing ache between your legs with a care that made your heart swell.
As he cleaned you, he couldn't seem to stop touching you. His free hand rested firmly on your hip, his thumb rubbing small soothing circles into your skin right over the faint red marks his fingers had left earlier.
Every few seconds, he would lean up to plant a soft lingering kiss on your lips, your nose or your forehead as if he needed to constantly remind himself that you were actually here, holding onto him.
You leaned back against the bathroom mirror, your hands sliding up from his shoulders to tangle loosely in his messy hair.
"What are we going to do on Monday?" You asked softly -teasingly- as he tossed the cloth into the sink and wrapped his arms completely around your waist, burying his face in your chest.
Spencer groaned into your skin, his grip tightening possessively around you. "According to section 4, paragraph B of the FBI employee handbook, undisclosed romantic relationships between active field agents can result in reassignment," he muttered, his voice muffled against your skin before he looked up, a fierce unyielding look in his eyes. "But I don't careโฆ I'll transfer to a different unit if I have to. I'm not letting you go."
You laughed softly, leaning down to press one final long kiss to his mouth. "Let's figure that out later, right nowโฆ carry me to bed.โ
Tag list: @maxsaturdayhatesnarwhals @hiddentattooodyssey
summary: a wrong assumption lands you in a holding cell, and you come face to face with the one man you didn't read right
includes: smut (MDNI), technically has a plot but not really, no use of y/n, dom!spencer, reader giving brat/switch energy (me again?), power imbalance, reader was arrested (but like it wasn't her fault tho), unresolved feelings, mutual frustration, teasing leads to escalation, car sex, oral (m receiving), fingering (f receiving), unprotected sex, praise kink hehehe, power and control dynamics, professional lines getting absolutely obliterated, morally gray behavior, not enemies or lovers but a third (worse) thing, technically he's at work but once again... priorities
The room is uncomfortable.
The metal of the bench bites through the thin layer of your stockings. Fluorescent lights buzz overhead, one bulb flickering every so often. No velvet. No shadows. No places to hide.
You sit with your arms crossed, spine pressed back against the wall like youโre daring it to push first.
You're freezing.
You're still in your โuniformโโlace, straps, barely-there fabric that was never meant for fluorescent lighting or cold metal benches. The stockings are slightly torn at the knee, a ladder running just enough to catch your eye every time you shift. Your heels are gone, lost somewhere between the squad car and booking, leaving your feet flat against the floor.
Disgusting.
One of the deputies had muttered something about โa statementโ before disappearing.
You havenโt been told anything since.
Typical.
Your jaw tightens as you replay it againโhis hand, the way it grabbed, entitled and careless. The slap that followed, sharp enough to turn heads. The way his expression twisted after, ego bruised deeper than his cheek.
Assault, heโd said.
Like you were the problem.
You huff under your breath, shifting slightly on the bench, the movement making your left stocking slide down your thigh slightly. You tug it back up without thinking, irritation prickling under your skin like static.
โComfortable?โ
The voice cuts through the room cleanly.
You look up prepared to snap at another officer, then freeze when you see him.
For a second, your brain doesnโt quite catch up. Itโs like seeing him out of context has knocked something loose. No low lighting. No quiet room. No heat curling between you.
Just Spencer.
Your lips part before you can stop yourself. โYouโve got to be kidding me.โ
Itโs the lighting, you think distantly. Thatโs what makes it feel wrong. He doesnโt belong under fluorescent buzz and chipped paint, doesnโt fit between scuffed floors and holding cells. The last time you saw him, everything had been gold and shadow and heatโsomething soft-edged and dangerous.
This isโฆ sharp. Real.
And itโs been weeks.
Not a few days. Not a blur you could brush off as a one-night lapse in judgment.
Weeks.
Long enough for him to settle into memory instead of expectation. Long enough that you stopped glancing at the door during shifts. Long enough that โlaterโ started to feel like a lie you told yourself.
And yetโ
Here he is.
Your gaze drags over him, slower this time, taking him in properly. He's wearing a button-down, sleeves neatly cuffed, a sweater vest pulled over it like something out of a lecture hall, tie slightly loosened at the collar. Dress pants, leather shoes, windbreaker folded over his arm. He looks basically the same as he did that night at your club.
One corner of his mouth liftsโnot amusement, not quiteโbut something close. โNice to see you again, too.โ
You let out a short breath through your nose, still staring at him like if you look long enough he might glitch out of existence.
โDonโt tell me this is your usual hangout,โ you mutter, shifting on the bench. โWhat are you doing hereโare you likeโฆ what, an office assistant or something?โ
Itโs meant to be dismissive. A little sharp. Something to take the edge off the way your pulse picked up the second you recognized him.
Spencerโs brow lifts slightly, like heโs filing the comment away for later.
โOffice assistant,โ he repeats, almost tasting the words. Then, dry, โThatโs new.โ
Your lips twitch despite yourself. โYouโve got the whole academic thing going on,โ you add, gesturing vaguely at his outfit. โThought maybe you alphabetize reports or something.โ
โI donโt,โ he says simply. โI was called in.โ
โCalled in,โ you echo slowly. โToโฆ?โ
"Your case was flagged."ย ย
You just stare at him."I don't know what that means.โ
Spencer shifts his arm slightly, a small, careful motionโlike heโs not trying to draw attention, but refusing to hide it any longer.
The windbreaker slips down his forearm.
And there it is.
A badge. And a holstered weapon at his hip.
Your brain takes a second too long to process it.
Not because you donโt see it. Because you do. Very clearly.
Your gaze drops again, slower this time, like if you look at it from a different angle itโll turn back into something normal. Something explainable. Something that fits the version of him youโve been carrying around in your head for weeks.
It doesnโt.
He's an officer. You flirted with an officer. You were fingered by an officer.
โIโฆ honestly thought you were, like, a doctor or something before,โ you admit.
โI am, technically,โ he says. โDoctor Spencer Reid. Iโm part of the Behavioral Analysis Unit of the FBI. I was investigating your club the night we met.โ
Silence snaps into place. Itโs not loud. Itโs worse than loud.
You let out a short laugh that doesnโt have any humor in it. โOh? You mean the night you fingโ?โ
โIโm not here to discuss that,โ he says evenly.
Your head tilts. Something in your chest tightens, hot and ugly.
โRight,โ you say slowly. โOf course youโre not.โ
You look away from him then, just for a second, because if you keep looking you might do something stupid like remember the way his hands felt instead of the badge you just saw.
The fluorescent light buzzes overhead like itโs laughing at you.
When you speak again, your voice is quieter. Worse somehow.
โSo let me get this straight,โ you say. โYou walk into my workplace undercover, you let me flirt with you, you let me think youโre just some random guy, you donโt tell me youโre FBI, and then I get hauled in here because some cop groped me. And my case was flagged because, what, I work at the club you're investigating?โ
โYes, that exactly,โ he says. โI have some questions to ask you. I'm here to take you to Quantico.โ
โQuantico,โ you repeat flatly.
Spencer doesnโt flinch. Doesnโt soften it. Just holds your gaze like heโs waiting for you to catch up to a reality heโs already standing in.
You exhale through your nose, sharp. Annoyed. A little stunned. A lot of both.
You push yourself off the bench.
The metal complains under your shift in weight, cold peeling away from your thighs as you stand. The windbreaker slides again, too big, too useless, and you tug it down out of pure spite more than modesty.
โAlright,โ you say, like youโre agreeing to a schedule change instead of your entire life tilting sideways. โLetโs go then.โ
Spencerโs gaze drops as you step forward. His expression shifts. โWhere are your shoes?โ
You glance down at your own feet like youโve forgotten they belong to you at all. Bare against the cold floor, toes curling slightly as if that might somehow fix the situation.
For a second, you just stare. Then you shrug.
โI donโt know.โ
It comes out simple. Almost bored. Like youโre talking about a missing pen instead of your entire dignity.
Spencer doesnโt respond immediately.
Thatโs worse.
He looks past the bars, briefly, toward the hallway where the deputies had brought you in. His jaw tightens by a fraction, so small you almost miss it.
Then his attention comes back to you.
Still calm. Still composed. But sharper now.
โDid they remove them when you were booked?โ
You lean your weight onto one hip, arms folding again like you can physically hold yourself together through sheer irritation.
โI guess?โ you say. โEverything happened kind of fast.โ
A beat.
Another.
His eyes flick down again, slower this time, taking inventory without lingering where it doesnโt belong. Stockings. Torn knee. Bare feet on institutional tile.
Then back to your face.
โI brought this for you,โ he says, holding out the windbreaker tucked over his arm.
You glance down at it like it mightโve grown teeth since you last looked at it. โI didnโt ask for it.โ
โI know.โ
That, somehow, makes you bristle more.
You shift your weight, arms still folded tight across your chest like you can physically out-stubborn the situation. โI donโt want it.โ
Spencer doesnโt react right away. He just looks at you.
Not the kind of look that slides over skin or lingers in the wrong places. Something steadier. Heโs not evaluating your body, your outfit, your attitude.
Heโs waiting you out. Like he has time.
The silence stretches.
Fluorescent light hums. Somewhere down the hallway, a radio crackles and dies again.
You tilt your chin slightly, daring him to break first.
He doesnโt.
Of course he doesnโt.
Your jaw tightens. โAre you always this annoying when youโre working?โ
โIโm not being annoying,โ he says calmly. โIโm being patient.โ
โSame thing.โ
A faint flicker crosses his mouth. Not quite a smile. More like the idea of one, carefully restrained.
Then he lifts the windbreaker slightly.
โI brought it because itโs cold,โ he says. โAnd youโre clearly underdressed.โ
โWhat the fuck is that supposed to mean?โ
Spencer doesnโt even blink at your tone.
Itโs almost worse that he doesnโt. Like youโre the only one in the room reacting to anything at all.
His grip tightens slightly on the windbreaker, just enough to crease the fabric.
โIt means,โ he says evenly, โstop being difficult and put on the jacket so I can get you out of this damn holding cell and out of being arrested for an act of self-defense.โ
The words land clean. Too clean.
Like heโs already said them in his head a dozen times before ever walking in here.
You stare at him. Then at the jacket. Then back at him again, incredulous.
โSelf-defense,โ you repeat slowly, like the concept itself is insulting. โSo you do know what happened.โ
โI do,โ he says.
โAnd Iโm still in here.โ
โYou don't have to be.โ
Your jaw tightens. You hate that your body is cold enough to make this even remotely persuasive. You hate more that he noticed before you even said anything.
With a sharp, irritated exhale, you snatch it from him.
โFine,โ you mutter. โHappy?โ
โI will be when youโre warm,โ he replies.
That earns him a look so sharp it couldโve cut glass.
You turn your back to him just enough to shrug into it, the oversized fabric swallowing your arms first, then your shoulders. It smells like him in a way thatโs annoyingly subtleโlike sage and old books, something that makes your brain misfire for half a second before you can stop it.
You refuse to acknowledge that.
Absolutely refuse.
You adjust it roughly, yanking it the rest of the way on like itโs guilty of something. It hangs long, brushing mid-thigh, covering more than you expected and somehow still not enough.
Spencer watches the whole thing without comment.
When you finish, you cross your arms immediately over your chest.
โIโm not zipping it,โ you say.
โI didnโt ask you to.โ
You narrow your eyes. โGood.โ
The hallway is worse than the cell. Too bright, too open, too aware. Everything echoes hereโyour heels wouldโve clicked if you had them, but now itโs just the soft, slightly uneven sound of your bare feet against the floor.
You reach the front desk. The officer there straightens slightly when he sees Spencer, posture shifting into something more attentive.
โDoctor Reid,โ he says.
โIs she cleared for release into federal custody?โ Spencer asks.
The words are calm. Professional.
A pause. A glance at you. Then back to him. โYeah. Sheโs yours.โ
Yours.
You hate the way that lands in your chest, like it shouldnโt fit there but does anyway.
Spencer doesnโt react to it. Just nods once. โAnd her personal effects?โ
The officer doesnโt answer right awayโjust blinks, like heโs been pulled out of autopilot.
โOhโright. Yeah. Iโll grab it.โ
He disappears down the hall with a kind of hurried eagerness that wasnโt there a second ago, like Spencerโs presence alone rewrote the tempo of the room.
When he comes back a moment later, he's carrying a clear evidence bag, the plastic crinkling softly with each step. โHere we go,โ he says, holding it out toward Spencer first, then adjusting mid-motion and offering it to you instead.
Inside: your shoes, slightly scuffed. A thick wad of cash, folded tight with a rubber band. Your lipstick, cap a little loose like youโd shoved it in a hurry.
You take it without a word. The plastic is cold in your hands.
โSign here,โ the officer adds, sliding a clipboard across the counter.
You shift the bag to one hand, scribbling your name with the other. Itโs messier than usual. You donโt care.
โThanks,โ you mutter, already stepping back.
You donโt bother stepping aside.
You just hook your fingers into the straps of your heels, lift your foot slightly off the ground, and slide them onโone, then the other. Smooth. Balanced. Like youโve done it a thousand times without thinking.
Because you have.
The leather settles against your skin like something familiar, something that belongs to you in a way none of this does. The extra height shifts your posture instantlyโshoulders back, chin up, weight redistributing like a switch flipping back into place.
Armor, in its own way.
When your heel clicks softly against the floor again, you straighten fully.
Better.
You adjust the windbreaker once more, tugging it into place like youโre negotiating with it instead of wearing it, then glance up at him.
โHappy now?โ you ask, tone dry.
Spencerโs gaze lingers for half a secondโtaking in the shift, the regained composure, the way youโve rebuilt yourself piece by piece in under ten seconds.
Then he nods once. โThatโs more practical.โ
โThrilling answer,โ you mutter.
He doesnโt rise to it. Of course he doesnโt.
Instead, he gestures subtly toward the exit. โWe should go.โ
Outside, the air hits different. Cooler. Cleaner. Real in a way the station wasnโt.
It slips under the edges of the windbreaker, brushes your bare thighs, makes you more aware of your body than youโd like to be. The night is quieter here, stretched thin beneath a half-moon that hangs low and watchful above the parking lot.
Spencer walks beside you without touching you.
Not guiding. Not hovering. Justโฆ there.
Itโs strange. After everything, you almost expect his hand at your elbow, his voice telling you where to go next. But he doesnโt. He lets you walk at your own pace, heels clicking steadily against the pavement, each step grounding you back into something familiar.
Then you see it.
All black. Clean lines. Government-issued, but polished enough to feel intentional.
He steps ahead of you just slightly, reaching for the passenger door and pulling it open.
You pause, one brow lifting as you glance between him and the SUV.
โFancy,โ you say, the word dipped in sarcasm, like youโre testing how it sounds in your mouth.
Spencer doesnโt take the bait. He just stands there, one hand on the door, waiting.
You hold his gaze for a second longer than necessary, like maybe you can force a reaction out of him through sheer stubbornness.
Nothing.
Your lips press together, something like a huff slipping through your nose before you slide into the seat.
The leather is cold. Smooth. Too nice for the kind of night you just had. He shuts the door behind you with a quiet, solid click.
A moment later, the driverโs side opens. Closes. The engine turns over, low and steady, like it knows exactly what itโs doing.
Figures.
The ride is quiet.
You sit with your arms crossed, angled slightly toward the window, watching the world slip by in streaks of dim streetlights and empty roads. The half-moon follows, or maybe youโre following itโhard to tell.
Your reflection stares back at you faintly in the glass.
Windbreaker too big. Hair slightly out of place. Lipstick faded at the edges.
You lookโฆ off.
Not wrong. Justโฆ not put together the way you like.
You hate that he saw you like that. You hate more that he didnโt say anything about it.
The silence stretches.
Five minutes. Maybe ten.
You lose count somewhere between one streetlight and the next.
Spencerโs voice finally cuts through the quiet, measured but softer than before.
โYou seem upset.โ
You donโt turn right away.
You let the words sit there for a second, like youโre deciding whether they even deserve a response. Then your eyes flick toward him, flat, unimpressed.
โI am,โ you say. โThanks for noticing.โ
โCan I ask why?โ
โCan I ask why you're taking me to Quantico?โ
โYou owe me.โ
The words land cleanly. Like a fact. Like something already filed away in his head.
You blink once, then turn toward him slowly.
โOh, I owe you now?โ you repeat, voice raising in disbelief.โDo you think you did me some amazing favor?โ
His brow lifts slightly, like heโs genuinely trying to understand where youโve lost him.
โUhโyes,โ he says.
That gets a sharp laugh out of you. Not warm. Not amused. Something edged.
โOf course an FBI agent would think he did me a favor,โ you say, leaning back into the seat. โBy, what? Taking advantage of me while I was at work?โ
Spencerโs hands tighten on the wheel.
โWhat? No.โ The words come out too fast for his usual control, clipped by something sharper underneath. โI got you out of an assault on an officer charge.โ
You tilt your head, watching him now like heโs suddenly more interesting than the road.
โWow, thanks,โ you say slowly. Then you glance at him, eyes narrowing slightly. โWhat do you want in return? A blowjob?โ
The SUV swerves half a fraction before Spencer corrects it immediately. His head snaps toward you.
โCould you stop being so dramatic?โ he says, incredulous. โI want information.โ
โInformation.โ
โYes.โ
You study him for a moment. His jaw is set, his attention never fully leaving the roadโeven when heโs speaking to you, like control is something he refuses to loosen even for a second.
โAnd if I donโt have any?โ you ask.
Spencerโs gaze flicks to you briefly. Then back forward.
โThen after the interview, Iโll take you home,โ he says, voice leveling out again, โYour home.โ
Your lips twitch before you can stop them.
โGenerous,โ you murmur.
The silence in the SUV thickens after that, like the air itself has decided to stop pretending this is professional.
Outside, the road unspools in pale ribbons of streetlight. Inside, everything feels too contained. Too aware. The kind of quiet that starts listening back.
You shift slightly in the seat, one leg crossing over the other with slow intention, the hem of the windbreaker sliding higher up your thigh again. You donโt fix it this time.
His eyes stay forward, hands steady on the wheel, but thereโs a subtle tightening in his grip. A small betrayal of composure.
โYouโre doing that on purpose,โ he says after a beat.
You hum lightly. โDoing what?โ
โThat.โ
You glance at him, feigning innocence. โIโm sitting?โ
His jaw ticks once, barely there. โAdjusting your posture.โ
A pause.
Then, quieter, โAnd the jacket.โ
A soft smile tugs at your mouth before you can stop it. โMaybe Iโm just cold.โ
โYouโre not cold.โ
That lands sharper than it should.
โAnd you're not telling me the full truth.โ
He hesitates. Just for a fraction of a second. โItโs complicated.โ
You laugh under your breath. โThatโs FBI for โI donโt want to explain it.โโ
Spencer glances at you, quick and sharp this time. โIt means thereโs an ongoing investigation, and youโre connected to it whether you like it or not.โ
โCharming,โ you say. โSo you show up, you take me out of a holding cell, you put me in your car, and suddenly Iโm whatโฆ evidence?โ
โYouโre not evidence,โ he says immediately.
The speed of it catches you slightly off guard.
You watch him for a second longer. โThen what am I?โ
โA lead.โ
You lean back into the seat, letting that settle.
โA lead,โ you repeat slowly. โThat sounds less flattering than I think you meant it to.โ
โItโs not about flattery.โ
โNo,โ you agree softly. โIt never is with you, is it?โ
That earns you a glance. Longer this time. A little less controlled.
โYouโre upset,โ he says again, like heโs circling the same conclusion from a different angle.
You sigh, tipping your head back against the seat. โObservant again. Give the man a medal.โ
โIs it because I didnโt come back?โ
You blink once.
Then again.
Your first instinct is to laugh it off. To turn it into something sharp, something light, something that doesnโt stick to your ribs on impact.
โNot everything is about you,โ you snap.
The words land sharp, like you meant them to cut and not just deflect. The inside of the SUV feels smaller immediately, air tightening in a way that has nothing to do with physics and everything to do with him suddenly going very still beside you.
Spencer doesnโt answer. No correction. No rebuttal. No gentle unpacking of your tone.
Just silence. Spreading over the next minute.
Until, finally, you give up.
A small, irritated exhale slips out of you as you lean back harder into the seat, staring at the ceiling like it personally offended you.
โFine,โ you snap, the word sharper than you intend. โYes.โ
Spencer glances at youโtoo long, just a fraction past whatโs safeโand then forces his attention back to the road. The car stays steady anyway.
โWhat can I do,โ he asks quietly, โto make up for it?โ
You stare at him for a moment.
At the way his hands are still fixed at ten and two, knuckles just a shade too tight against the wheel. At the way his jaw has that quiet tension in it again, like heโs holding himself in place piece by piece. At the way he asked thatโwhat can I doโlike he actually meant it.
Like he doesnโt already regret it.
So, naturally, you go for the worst possible answer.
Your lips curve, slow and deliberate, something sharp-edged and a little reckless. โLet me give you that blowjob.โ
Spencer doesnโt even blink.
โIโm getting the impression,โ he says, eyes fixed on the road ahead, โthat youโre used to getting what you want by saying things like that.โ
The response lands softer than a rejectionโand somehow cuts deeper for it.
Your smile falters.
Just for a second.
You recover quickly, of course. You always do. Your chin tilts, your expression sliding back into something sharper, more practiced.
โIs that a no?โ you ask innocently, batting your lashes.
Spencer doesnโt answer.
Not a word. Not even a glance.
Itโs almost impressive, the way he justโฆ absorbs it. Like you tossed something sharp at him and he decided it wasnโt worth catching.
Your smile lingers anyway, a little tighter now, a little more deliberate.
Fine.
You shift in your seat, slow, testing. Then you lean toward him.
Not all the way. Just enough that your shoulder angles in his direction, your body turning slightly, like curiosity instead of intent.
Nothing.
His eyes stay on the road. Hands steady. Posture unchanged.
If anything, he looks more focused.
Your tongue presses briefly against the inside of your cheek.
Alright.
You move closer.
The seat creaks faintly under the shift, your thigh brushing the center console this time, your space bleeding into his. The windbreaker slips again, fabric dragging higher, exposing more skin than it covers. The seatbelt tugs against your shoulder, resisting the movement like it knows better. Your breath is closer now, your presence impossible to ignore.
And stillโ
Nothing.
Something in your chest tightens. Annoyance. Challenge. Something sharper hiding underneath both.
So you push.
Slowly, deliberately, you lift your hand. You donโt rush it. Donโt make it sudden. You let it happen in stages.ย
Your palm settles against his thigh. Warm through the fabric of his slacks. Solid. Real.
His leg goes rigid under your hand, the muscle locking like a reflex he refuses to follow through on.
You shift your wrist just slightly, letting your touch travel higher along his thigh. Not rushing. Not forcing. Just testing the line heโs drawn like youโre seeing how much ink will smudge before the page gives out.
Still no glance your way.
You tilt your head, watching him from the corner of your eye like this is all still a game youโre meant to win.
โStill focused on the road?โ you murmur softly.
His jaw tightens.
โYes,โ he says, clipped. Controlled.
It makes something in you flare hotter. Your hand continues upward.
The car feels smaller with every inch. The space between you and him no longer behaves like space at all. It behaves like pressure.
Your fingertips brush him through the fabric again, firmer this time, and thatโs when everything changes.
Spencer inhales sharply through his teeth.
A clean break in his composure.
His grip tightens on the steering wheel, knuckles whitening in an instant. The car stays steady, but only because he forces it to.
โYouโre going to get us killed,โ he says, voice lower now, rougher at the edges.
โSeems dramatic,โ you tease. โDo you want me to stop?โ
Spencer goes very still. His eyes stay on the road. Hands locked at ten and two. Jaw set like heโs holding something back by force alone.
Then, quieter than before, he says, โNo.โ
The smile on your face is immediate.
You don't wait for permission or a second warning; your hands move with practiced efficiency, undoing his belt with a metallic click that sounds deafening in the quiet cabin. You tug his fly down and reach in to pull him free without a hint of hesitation.
You waste no time on theatrics or teasing. You unbuckle your seatbelt, lean over the center console, and take him into your mouth in one smooth, deliberate motion. The heat of him against your tongue is immediate and overwhelming, and you hear the air leave his lungs in a harsh, stuttering gasp.
"Fuckโ"
The curse is barely out before the SUV lurches to the right.
The vehicle grinds to a halt on the shoulder of the road, throwing you forward slightly, but you don't pull away. Instead, you moan around him, the vibration drawing a ragged sound from deep in his chest that is half-groan, half-desperate warning.
His hand is in your hair immediately, fingers tangling into the strands.
You donโt let up. If anything, the sudden stop and his reaction just spur you on.
You flatten your tongue against the underside of him, dragging it up slowly, deliberately, relishing the weight of him on your tongue before taking him deep again.
His hips jerk involuntarily, followed by a ragged groan.ย Itโs a raw, unfiltered noiseโcompletely different from the composed, clinical agent persona heโs been projecting.
You hum around him again, a low, satisfied sound, and feel his fingers tighten in your hair to the point of pain.
Heโs trying to hold back, trying to keep some modicum of control, but the way his breathing has turned into shallow, desperate hitches tells you heโs already losing the battle.
You pull back just enough to swirl your tongue over the head, teasing the sensitive slit before sinking down again.
The response is immediateโhis head falls back against the headrest, his eyes squeezing shut as a string of curses escapes his lips, quiet and harsh in the confined space.ย
Itโs intoxicating, him coming undone like this, stripped of his composure and reduced to nothing but sensation.
You hollow your cheeks, sucking harder, and listen to the way his breath catches, the wet heat of your mouth drowning out everything else.
You can feel the tension coiling in his thighs, the way his entire body is drawn tight like a bowstring. You double your efforts, bobbing your head faster, letting your teeth graze him just enough to elicit a sharp hiss.ย
The sounds he's making now are unrestrainedโbroken moans and harsh exhales that he can't seem to swallow, and you know you've won.
The rush of power is intoxicatingโa heady, electric surge that makes your blood hum. You hollow your cheeks, taking him deeper, ready to push him right over that edge, ready to finally crack him wide open.
But then his hand in your hair changes.
It stops cradling the back of your head and tightensโsharp, sudden, insistent. The sting radiates across your scalp, enough to make your eyes water, just enough to make you freeze.
"Stop," he breathes out, the word ragged but absolute.
He doesn't give you a chance to argue or tease, just applies firm, upward pressure with his fist tangled in your hair. The message is clear, stripping away the power play in an instant and replacing it with an undeniable command.
You pull back, the suction breaking with a loud, wet pop that seems obscenely loud in the sudden, heavy stillness of the car.
You sit up, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand, your breathing uneven. You look at him, expecting to see bliss or surrender, but what you find is even better.
Heโs wreckedโface flushed, chest heaving, eyes wide and glassy.
"Get in the back," he says, his voice rough, stripping away the last veneer of the composed FBI agent.
You blink, stunned for half a second by the sheer authority in his tone. Itโs not a request. Itโs a command.
Your heart hammers against your ribs as you scramble to obey, clambering over the center console with clumsy haste.ย
You barely have time to find your balance before Spencer is there, crowding into the space after you with a frantic lack of grace that makes your breath catch.
He doesn't give you a moment to recover or to regain the upper handโhis hands are on you immediately, gripping your hips to pull you flush against him while his knees hit the floor mats with a dull thud.
The windbreaker is shoved off your shoulders without ceremony, left to pool forgotten on the seat as he looms over you, his gaze dark and heavy enough to pin you in place without him even touching you.
He kisses you then, and itโs nothing like the careful, composed man youโve been dealing with all night. Itโs messy and desperate, teeth clicking together as he pours every ounce of his fractured control into the slide of his mouth against yours.
One hand tangles back into your hair, tilting your head to deepen the kiss, while the other slides down your body, skimming over your waist to grab the back of your thigh, hitching your leg up and over his hip.
The movement presses him flush against your core, the rough fabric of his slacks and your torn stockings dragging together in a way that makes you gasp into his mouth.
"God," he mutters against your lips, the word muffled and wrecked. "Do you have any idea what you do to me?โ
โNo idea,โ you gasp against his mouth, the words breathless and ragged. โShow me.โ
He lets out a low, ragged groan that vibrates against your mouth, pure frustration finally snapping its leash. Thereโs no hesitation left in him, no careful testing of the waters.
His hand slides from your hip and dips straight under the lace covering you.
He doesnโt give you a second to adjust, to breathe, to regain any semblance of the upper hand you thought you held. His fingers slide up the inside of your thigh, blunt and demanding, tracing the wet heat there with a kind of intent focus that feels more like an interrogation than foreplay.
When he finally pushes two fingers inside you, itโs sudden and unrelenting, forcing a cry out of you that he swallows immediately with his mouth, kissing you deeply to stifle the sound.
The angle is awkward, the space too cramped, but he makes it work with a desperate kind of efficiency.
He curls his fingers, and you shudder violently, your head falling back against the headrest.ย
The heel of his hand presses firmly against your clit, grinding down in a way that makes your vision go white at the edges. You gasp, your hips bucking up against him involuntarily, desperate for more friction, more anything to ease the ache heโs building inside you.
He slows his paceโjust enough to be tormentingโdragging his fingers out almost to the knuckle before pumping them back in, slow and deliberate.
He pulls his mouth back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your lips, his voice a low, rough scrape that sounds more like a challenge than a question.
"Did you miss this?"
He punctuates the question with a deliberate curl of his fingers, finding that spot inside you that makes your whole body jerk. His eyes are locked on yours, dark and heavy, drinking in every gasp and tremor like data he needs to collect.
"Is this what youโve been thinking of all night?" he murmurs, his tone shifting, dropping into something lower, almost mocking. "While you were dancing on that stage? While you were in that holding cell? Is this the scenario you were hoping for when you decided to test my limits in the front seat?โ
"Fuck you," you gasp, the words scraping out of your throat, jagged and breathless. You try to inject it with venom, try to make it sound like an insult, but it comes out wreckedโpunctuated by a sharp cry as his fingers crook inside you again.
His mouth ticks up at the corner. Itโs not a kind smileโitโs sharp, knowing, and entirely too pleased with himself. "So close to asking for what you want."
A high, broken noise tears out of your throat as his fingers curl again.
Your hips jerk up off the seat, chasing the friction, chasing the pressure, your body entirely betraying the sharp retort dying on your tongue. The heel of his hand grinds down against your clit in slow, deliberate circles that are just shy of enough, keeping you suspended on that agonizing edge where every nerve ending feels raw and exposed.
"God," you gasp, your head falling back against the headrest, your eyes squeezing shut as your hands fist desperately in the fabric of his shirt. "Pleaseโ"
"Please what?" he asks. He doesn't stop the movement of his wrist, but he slows it, dragging his fingers against that sensitive spot with maddening precision until your thighs are trembling around his hand. "Youโre a smart girl. You know how to use your words. Ask me for what you want."
"Fuck me," you breathe out, the words ragged and scraped raw from your throat. Itโs not a request; itโs a demand, a desperate, breathless command born of frustration and a need so deep it feels like itโs eating you alive from the inside out. "Hell, Spencer, just fuck me."
The composure heโd been clinging to shatters instantly. He doesn't hesitate, doesn't teaseโhe just moves with a sudden, frantic efficiency. He grips himself, lines up, and pushes into you in one hard, deep thrust that punches the air out of your lungs.
The stretch is sudden, a sharp, stinging burn that fades immediately into a deep, overwhelming ache. You cry out, your head falling back against the leather as your body struggles to adjust to the sudden intrusion.
Itโs too much, too fast, and for a second, you can't breathe, can't think, can't do anything but cling to his shoulders and ride out the shock of it.
Spencer stills.
He buries his face in the crook of your neck, his breathing ragged and hot against your skin, but he doesn't move. He holds himself there, giving you a moment to catch up, his hand shifting from your hip to cradle the back of your head almost gently.
"Need you to breathe for me, sweetheart." His hand strokes through your hair, soothing where his grip had been demanding only moments before, the contrast making your head spin.
Slowly, almost agonizingly, he starts to move. He pulls back just an inch, then presses forward again, testing your give, watching your face with an intensity that feels like heโs cataloging your every reaction.
"That's it," he breathes, his voice dropping into a warm, approving tone that makes your chest tighten. "You take it so well. Look at you, being so good for me now." He rocks deeper, the slow drag forcing a broken whimper from your lips, and he rewards you with another kiss, this one lingering and impossibly tender. "So beautiful when you let go."
The deliberate pace is a torture of its own design. He keeps his thrusts measured and deep, hitting that spot inside you that makes your vision blur, but he never rushes, never lets the rhythm fracture into something messy. Heโs holding all the strings, orchestrating every gasp and shudder with a terrifying, gentle precision.
When your nails dig into his shoulders, desperate for more friction, he just captures your mouth in a kiss that swallows the sound, murmuring, "I know, I know. You can handle it. You're doing so good, just a little more for me, okay?"
He shifts the angle of his hips slightly, grinding into you rather than thrusting, and the change in pressure makes your back arch off the seat. A breathless moan tears from your throat, and instead of silencing you, he catches your earlobe between his teeth, nipping gently before soothing the sting with his tongue.
"Perfect," he breathes, the word sinking into your skin like a brand. "Look at youโso beautiful. Not arguing, not fighting me. Just taking exactly what I give you."
The praise wraps around your senses, warm and dizzying, effectively blurring the sharp edges of your own defiance until there's nothing left but the friction of his body against yours and the overwhelming need to please him. Every time your internal muscles flutter around him, he lets out a low, hum of approval, rewarding your surrender with deeper, harder strokes that make it impossible to think.
The coil inside you tightens to a breaking point, a trembling inevitability that steals the air from your lungs. "Spencer, please," you gasp, the words tumbling out without permission, stripped of any demand and left as pure, desperate pleading. "I needโ"
"I know," he cuts in softly, not unkindly, but with that same quiet authority that makes your bones feel like water. "I've got you. Let go for me." His rhythm never falters, driving into you with a deep, rolling precision that feels less like he's chasing his own end and more like he's guiding you inevitably toward yours. "Come on, sweetheart. Be good and let me feel you."
The command snaps the last thread of your control.
The pleasure crests and breaks, a white-hot wave that tears the air from your lungs. Your body seizes, back bowing off the seat, and in that moment of absolute unraveling, your legs clamp around his waist, heels digging into the small of his back to pull him impossibly deeper.
Itโs the involuntary lock of your thighs around his hips that finally does something.
His rhythmโwhich has been so measured, so controlled, so agonizingly perfectโstutters. A sharp, ragged gasp tears from his throat, his composure fracturing instantly under the sudden, tight heat of your release. He tries to hold back, you can feel the way his muscles lock up, the strain radiating through his shoulders as he fights to keep from taking you too hard, but it's a losing battle with you.
"Spencer, pleaseโdon't hold back," you gasp, your voice wrecked and trembling, barely recognizable as your own. The desperation claws at your throat, making each plea jagged and raw. "Fuck me like you mean it, let goโplease, I can take it, I promise, just let go for me."
The words seem to snap the last tether of his restraint. A low, guttural sound tears from his chest, something between a groan and a growl, and the careful, measured rhythm shatters entirely. He pulls back, hands gripping your hips with an almost bruising force, and then drives into you with a deep, punishing thrust that knocks the air out of your lungs.
The control is gone, replaced by a frantic, desperate rhythm as he finally takes exactly what he needs. He fucks you into the seat with hard, relentless strokes, the leather creaking beneath you, the world narrowing down to the friction and the heat and the overwhelming feel of him losing himself inside you. "You feel so good," he grits out, his voice ragged and breathless, dropping the praise into your ear like a confession. "Taking me so wellโgod, I'm gonnaโ"
Itโs not a graceful ending. Itโs a chaotic, messy collision, the last of his discipline dissolving entirely under the force of his release. He buries himself to the hilt with a hoarse, broken shout that he tries unsuccessfully to muffle against your jaw, his whole body seizing up as he spills inside you.
The rhythm fractures into short, shallow jolts, his grip on your hips turning desperate and bruising as he rides out the shockwaves, anchoring himself to you like youโre the only thing keeping him from flying apart.
For a long moment, the only sound in the car is the harsh, uneven synchrony of your breathing, the air thick and humid with the scent of sex and heat.ย
Spencer collapses against you, his face buried in the curve of your neck, his weight solid and grounding. You can feel the frantic thud of his heart against your ribs, beating a frantic rhythm that matches your own. His hands slowly loosen their hold, one coming up to cradle the back of your head again, with a tenderness that makes your chest ache.
Gradually, the reality of the cramped backseat starts to intrudeโthe awkward angle of your legs, the leather sticking to the cooling sweat on your skin.
He shifts slightly, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to the pulse point below your ear before pulling back just enough to look at you. The dark intensity is gone from his eyes, replaced by a soft, slightly unfocused haziness that makes him look younger, stripped of his defenses.
He reaches out, tucking a strand of sweat-dampened hair behind your ear, his thumb lingering on your cheekbone. "You okay?" he asks softly, his voice raspy and wrecked, sounding less like a question and more like a need to reassure himself.
A breathless laugh escapes you, bubbling up from somewhere deep in your chest, light and dizzying. "Yeah," you manage, your voice sounding scratchy and used. "I'm... I'm good. So good."
Spencer huffs a quiet laugh against your skin, the vibration humming through you both, before he pulls away.
He shifts carefully, bracing one hand beside your head so he doesnโt crush you with his weight, his other hand already moving with quiet purpose.
You feel it before you fully register what heโs doing.
The brush of his fingers at your hip. The gentle tug of lace back into place where itโs twisted wrong. The slow, deliberate smoothing of fabric over your thigh, thumb grazing just a second longer than necessary before moving on.
Just like before. Like this is justโฆ something he does, putting you back together.
You watch him as he works, your head still tipped back against the seat, your body loose and heavy in a way youโre not used to. He doesnโt look at you right away. His attention stays on his hands, on the small, precise adjustmentsโfixing a strap, pulling the windbreaker back up over your shoulders, tugging it closed just enough to cover you.
โI'm sorry,โ he says once he's done.ย โFor not coming back.โ
You look at him properly now, and itโs disorienting in a way that has nothing to do with what just happened in the backseat. His hair is a mess, his tie half undone, his lips still flushed, but his eyes are steady.
Too steady.
โI meant to,โ he continues, voice low, rough around the edges but controlled in a way that feels deliberate. โThat night wasnโtโฆ it wasnโt supposed to happen like that. I was there to work. I shouldnโt haveโโ
โYou did,โ you cut in.
He stops.
You swallow, your throat tight in a way that has nothing to do with earlier.
โYou did,โ you repeat, softer this time. โAnd then you justโฆ disappeared.โ
Thereโs no bite in it now. No edge to hide behind.
Spencerโs jaw tightens slightly, like heโs absorbing that instead of arguing it.
โI know,โ he says. โAnd I should have handled it differently.โ
A humorless breath leaves you, something that almost turns into a laugh but doesnโt quite make it.
โThatโs one way to put it.โ
The words hang there for a second, not sharp enough to cut, not soft enough to soothe. Justโฆ there. Like something set down between you that neither of you feels like picking back up.
Spencer watches you for half a beat longer, like he might say something else. Like thereโs a version of this conversation where he explains, where he untangles all the threads he left knotted.
But he doesnโt.
Instead, he exhales quietly, the sound controlled, deliberate. A reset.
โWe should get going,โ he says, voice steadier now, slipping back into something more structured, more familiar. โWeโve been here longer than I planned.โ
You blink at him, the shift almost jarring in its normalcy. โYouโve got a curfew?โ
โNot exactly,โ he replies, already reaching for the door, pushing himself back toward the front seat with a kind of quiet efficiency. โBut my team will start asking questions if Iโm gone much longer.โ
You sit up slowly, adjusting the windbreaker around yourself again, fingers smoothing the fabric like it matters more than it does.
You sit there a second longer after he moves, the backseat still warm, still holding the ghost of everything that just happened like it doesnโt quite know how to let go.
The door opens. Shuts. The soft thud feels louder than it should.
Then the faint shift of weight as Spencer settles back into the driverโs seat. Fabric rustling. The quiet click of his seatbelt. The small, controlled exhale he gives like heโs putting himself back into a shape he recognizes.
You donโt follow.
You could. It would be easy. Slide forward, reclaim the passenger seat, rebuild that thin line of normalcy heโs clearly trying to restore.
But you donโt.
Instead, you lean back into the leather, one leg stretching out across the seat, the other bent slightly, your heel tapping once against the floor before going still.
Spencer doesnโt look at you directly. Just a flick of his eyes, quick and measured, through the rear view.
summary: you're good at reading the men in the room, telling who is easy prey and who isn't. this time, your assumptions are off, but you're never one to pass on a little fun
includes: no use of y/n, smut (MDNI), soft dom!spencer, reader lowkey giving switch energy (is that just me? idk), club setting, fingering (f receiving), mutual teasing... mutual undoing, technically you're at work but like... priorities
based on the above gif by @reidgif, requested by @esote-rika i hope you like it!!
The lounge is low-lit, gold lamps spilling lazy light across velvet and smoke. Youโve been in this job long enough to spot the typesโsuits who think money is power, bachelors with grabby hands, couples testing boundaries. You move between tables with a practiced smile, already knowing which men will melt, which will leer, which will pay too much for too little.
And then thereโs him.
He sits apart from the crowd, posture too perfect for the velvet chair. He doesnโt sip a drink or pretend to watch the stage. He just studies, eyes steady behind long lashes. You decide heโll be your fun for the nightโeasy prey.
You saunter up, hips swaying with the kind of confidence that always earns attention, though his eyes are already on you. You stop near his chair, lean just close enough that the lamplight paints your skin in gold, and tilt your head.
โWhatโs your name?โ you ask, voice syrupy-smooth.
For a moment, he hesitates. His lips part, then press together again like heโs weighing the consequences of answering. Finally, he says, โSpencer.โ
The name fits himโprecise, deliberate. You let it roll around your tongue like a secret as you perch on the arm of his chair, legs crossing slow, deliberate. From here, you can feel the heat radiating off him, though he doesnโt flinch.
โYou donโt look the type to be here,โ you murmur, fingertips skimming the gaudy fabric of his chair before brushing, ever so slightly, against his shoulder.ย
He glances up at you, the barest flicker of amusement breaking his otherwise still expression. โAnd what type is that?โ
โThe kind that blushes when a girl sits too close,โ you tease, leaning in until your perfume lingers between you. โThe kind that doesnโt know where to put his hands.โ
For just a second, you think youโve caught himโhis throat bobs, his lashes flutter in a blink too slow to hideโbut then he exhales, steady as stone.
โMaybe Iโm just good at pretending,โ he says softly, his voice low enough that only you can hear.
You smile at his words, unexpected warmth tugging at the corner of your mouth. Pleased, maybe, that he isnโt crumbling under your touch, that he isnโt one of the usual types who fold in seconds.
You hum, a low sound in your throat, as your fingers dip down to his tie. The fabric is cool beneath your touch, smooth as you trace the neat line downward, just brushing against his shirt buttons. His pulse is steadyโannoyingly steadyโunderneath all that composure.
โSo youโre pretending,โ you say, your voice lilting, playful. โWhatโs the act, then? The quiet intellectual in the corner? The mysterious stranger no one can read?โ
Spencerโs gaze flicks to your hand, following the lazy drag of your fingers, then rises back to meet your eyes. He doesnโt move away, doesnโt stop you. โI donโt have to pretend to be mysterious,โ he says simply. โThatโs just your projection.โ
Your lips part, ready to toss back another teasing line, but it stalls on your tongue. Because he isnโt wrongโand you donโt like the way it feels when he turns your own game back on you so neatly.
โAnd what is it you think Iโm projecting?โ you ask, chin tilted, a smile sharp enough to hide the sudden hitch in your chest.
His mouth curvesโalmost a smirk, but not quite. Controlled. Careful. โThat you came over here because you wanted to fluster me. And now youโre not sure if you want to keep tryingโฆ or if you want to find out what happens when you fail.โ
The words hum against your skin, low and devastating. You hadnโt planned for this. For him. For the way his voice slips under your defenses like silk and steel at once.
And suddenly, youโre not sure if this is still just the job.
You laugh softly, covering the way his words nip at your pride. โConfident,โ you say, dragging a nail lightly down the length of his tie. โI like that.โ
His eyes follow the motion but his body doesnโt shift, his posture as perfect as it was when you first spotted him. It unsettles you. Most men lean forward, eager. He doesnโt. He just sits there, letting you close the distance, letting you think youโre leading.
โSo tell me, Spencerโฆโ You let the syllables linger, honey-slow. โDo you want a private dance?โ
This time, thereโs the faintest pause. Not long enough to read as hesitation, not long enough to satisfy your need to see him flusteredโbut itโs there. A beat where you think you mightโve cracked the shell.
Then he exhales, steady again. โIโm not here for that,โ he says, voice level, low. โIโm here on business.โ
You arch a brow, lips curving in a smile meant to tease, even as your fingers tug idly at the edge of his tie.
โBusiness?โ The word drips with mockery, but he doesnโt bite.
You arch a brow, waiting for him to elaborate. When he doesnโt, the silence stretches, humming between you like static. Finally, you shift where you sit on the arm of his chair, the motion smooth, practiced. Your legs slip over his thighs, draped across him like an offering.
He shifts immediately to accommodate youโso natural, so instinctive itโs almost disarming. His hand doesnโt move, his posture doesnโt falter, but his body adjusts all the same, like heโd expected it.
You wait for the tell. For his eyes to flicker downward, for his gaze to skim bare skin, linger where it shouldnโt. Thatโs what they all do, in the end. Thatโs what you count on.
But Spencer doesnโt.
His eyes stay fixed on your face, unwavering, sharp in the low light. Itโs not nerves, not shyness. Itโs control. And it rattles you, because you canโt tell if itโs intentional restraint or something deeper, something heโs holding back just to see how long it takes you to notice.
โCome on, Spencer,โ you tease, your voice dropping into a low purr. โGive me something to work with.โ
Nothing. Not a twitch, not a tell. His gaze stays locked on yours, unflinching, and the silence drapes over your shoulders heavier than velvet.
You tilt your head, lips curving with feigned exasperation. โCanโt you tell Iโm desperate here?โ
That earns you the smallest reactionโa flicker at the corner of his mouth, the ghost of a smile tugging before he reins it back. His eyes dip then, finally, sliding down to the smooth line of your legs sprawled across his lap. But the movement isnโt hungry or careless. Itโs precise. Deliberate. He lets you see it, lets you know heโs looking only because heโs chosen to.
When his eyes rise back to yours, his voice is velvet-low, steady as a knife balanced on a fingertip. โYou donโt seem very desperate at all.โ
The words catch you off guard, tugging a breath from your throat you hadnโt meant to give away. You can't tell if he's teasing or simply telling the truth.
You lean forward, closing the space until your lips hover just above his ear. Your voice dips softer, silkier, meant only for him. โDo I have to beg?โ
His brows tick upward, the barest flicker of surprise, but he doesnโt answer. Doesnโt move. Just holds that maddeningly steady gaze.
So you shift tactics. Flutter your lashes, tilt your chin down, let your mouth soften around the word. โPlease.โ
It lands between you like a spark. For the first time, his composure faltersโnot much, not enough to satisfy the craving youโve been nursing all nightโbut enough. He exhales sharply, a huff of air that could be a laugh, could be surrender.
โAlright,โ he says finally, quiet but decisive. โPrivate room.โ
The victory tastes sweeter than champagne. You smile slow, triumphant, and slip gracefully off the arm of his chair. Your hand brushes his tie one last time before you rise to your feet, letting the touch linger as a promise.
โFollow me, then,โ you murmur, hips swaying as you lead the way through the haze of smoke and low light. You donโt have to look back to know heโs watchingโyou can feel it, steady and unshaken, like heโs already planned every step of this game.
And still, the thrill buzzes through you. Because for all his restraint, for all his control, he said yes.
The private rooms are quieter, tucked away from the bass and smoke of the lounge. The walls are padded in dark velvet, the air scented faintly of expensive liquor and too much perfume. It feels smaller here, more intimateโjust the two of you and the hum of your own heartbeat.
You gesture toward the couch in the center, plush and gaudy, and glance at him over your shoulder. โMake yourself comfortable.โ
He doesnโt move right away. He studies the room first, gaze flicking across every detail like heโs cataloging it, committing it all to memory. Only then does he sitโperfect posture, long legs spreading just enough to take up space without apology.
You slip into the role as easily as a second skin, swaying closer, letting your hands trail along your thighs, your waist, your curves. But the usual rhythm feels off. Wrong. Because Spencer doesnโt drink you in the way the others doโhis eyes donโt wander, donโt flicker greedily from skin to silk.
He watches your face. Only your face.
You circle him slowly, brushing your fingers along the back of his chair, your breath ghosting over his shoulder. โYouโre supposed to enjoy yourself, you know,โ you tease, though it comes out thinner than you intend. โThatโs the whole point.โ
His lips twitch, a flash of amusement before it steadies again. โMaybe Iโm already enjoying myself,โ he says softly.
The words graze your skin like a touch. You falter for half a step, then recover, sliding onto his lap in one smooth motion. Your knees bracket his hips, your hands braced lightly on his shoulders. You lean close enough that your hair brushes his cheek, your smile wicked. โThen prove it.โ
For the first time, his composure shifts. Not much, not enough to strip him of controlโbut enough. His hands lift, slow, deliberate, settling at your waist. Not pulling, not groping. Just holding. His thumbs press in, a subtle anchor that steadies you, grounds you.
He leans in, his voice barely above a whisper, curling into your ear like smoke. โYou begged me to come back here.โ
You shift against him, a practiced arch of your spine, but it feels different under his hands. Theyโre steady, almost clinical, but not cold. Like heโs letting you move while reminding you that heโs the one keeping you there.
โBegged is a strong word,โ you murmur, tilting your head just enough to meet his eyes again.
โNot really,โ he says, voice low, deliberate. โYou said please.โ
Heat flickers in your chestโannoyance or excitement, you canโt tell. You flutter your lashes, leaning close enough your lips nearly brush his jaw. โAnd you finally said yes. Thatโs the deal, isnโt it?โ
His mouth curves, faint but sharp, like he knows exactly what heโs doing. โI said yes to a dance.โ
Your fingers toy with the knot of his tie, tugging it just enough to feel resistance. โThen maybe you should stop analyzing me and enjoy the performance.โ
Spencerโs eyes dipโnot low, not hungry, but just to your lips. Intentional, precise. His gaze drags back up, pinning you in place. โMaybe I already am.โ
Something in your stomach twists, unsteady, because it feels less like youโre leading him through a dance and more like heโs letting you perform just to see what youโll do next.
You roll your hips once more, testing him, daring him to show somethingโanythingโthat betrays the perfect stillness heโs been keeping.
โWhat does it take,โ you murmur, your breath skating over his jaw, โto make you lose that careful composure? To lose control?โ
The question hangs heavy, molten. His thumbs shift at your waistโbarely, almost imperceptibleโbut you feel it like a spark.
Then he smiles. Just a sliver, crooked enough to make your pulse skip. โI could ask you the same.โ
Your laugh catches low in your throat, more breath than sound. โI like to be in control,โ you murmur, the words drawn out like a tease, meant to sound effortless.
But Spencer tilts his head, studying you like heโs peeling back layers. โDo you?โ
It shouldnโt rattle you. Shouldnโt make the words stick somewhere between your chest and your tongue. But it does. Because thereโs something in the way he asksโnot mocking, not disbelieving, but testing. Measuring.
You hesitate. Just long enough. The silence stretches, and you realize that in not answering, youโve already given him the truth.
His lips curve, faint and knowing, before he exhales. โCome here.โ
The command is quiet. Unadorned. And still, it pulls you forward before youโve thought it through. You lean in, close enough to catch the faintest trace of his cologne, warm and subtle against the musk of the room.
Then his mouth finds yours.
Itโs nothing like you expectโnot controlled, not calculated. The kiss is messy, heated, a rush of want that crashes through all his composure. His hand slides up your back, pulling you closer with sudden, startling urgency, and you nearly melt, losing the careful rhythm youโd built.
Your fingers tangle in his hair, tugging, grasping, as his tongue parts your lips and claims, demands. The air between you disappears, and the taste of him fills youโclean, warm, and dizzying.
His thumbs move along your hips in slow circles, mapping you with a touch that is intimate and deliberate. He keeps you anchored while his other hand slides up, fingers threading into your hair at the nape of your neck.
โYou taste different than I expected,โ he says against your mouth, a private confession. His lips find yours again, this time deeper, and the kiss is a study in contrastโferal and gentle at once, practiced restraint cracking open into heat. You answer with the same small ferocity, letting yourself fall into the rough poetry of it.
When you try to shift, to grind that practiced sway that usually gets hearts and bills to flip, he catches your chin with a finger and lifts your face so you have to meet him fully. The motion is slow, ceremonialโhis soft-dom signature. โLook at me,โ he breathes. You obey. You see the intelligence there, the attention that catalogues every shiver and every breath. Itโs not objectifying; itโs focused care.
โTell me,โ he whispers, thumb tracing the hollow just above your collarbone, โwhat do you want right now?โ His voice is low, coaxing, but thereโs no hurry. He is giving you the space to say yesโor notโwhile owning the room with the way he waits.
You could lie. Youโve lied before to get tips, to keep distance, to play a role. But thisโthis isnโt the club anymore. The velvet walls absorb the bass; the world narrows until itโs his voice and the heat between your bodies. You let honesty slide out on a breath. โMore,โ you say, small and reckless.
A faint, almost approving smile ghosts his mouth. He doesnโt push; he negotiates with touch. He rises, careful, palms still steady at your waist, and guides you back until the couch swallows you both. He props one knee beside you, anchoring himself, the small movements precise as a scientist charting an experiment. Everything about him is calibratedโgentle pressure, timed releases, the artful pause that makes the next touch mean more.
His lips brush yours once more, softer this time, and then trail down, grazing the corner of your jaw, the sensitive skin just beneath your ear. You gasp before you can catch it, and his mouth curves faintly against your throat, satisfied.
โGood,โ he murmurs, voice low, soothing. โI want every sound.โ
The lace of your bodice catches his gaze only for a heartbeat before it returns to your face, as if heโs cataloging but refusing to indulge too quickly. His hand slides up the line of your fishnets, fingertips dragging across garter straps, the lace of your panties, until he presses the heel of his palm against your cunt. The pressure is steady, teasing, enough to make your hips jerk.
โYouโre soaked already,โ he murmurs, and itโs not a questionโitโs fact, observed like data. His thumb strokes lazily over the damp patch, circling right where you need him. โAll from a kiss.โ
Your laugh shatters into a gasp when he pushes the lace aside, sliding two fingers through your slick folds. He groans softly at the feel, as if he wasnโt expecting you to be this ready. โChrist. Youโre dripping for me.โ
Then he sinks inside. Slow, unhurried, stretching you around the length of his fingers. His palm grinds against your clit as his knuckles curl, and the sound you make borders on desperate.
โEyes on me,โ Spencer says, voice low, coaxing but firm. His free hand catches your jaw, thumb stroking your cheek as his fingers fuck into you, curling just right, hitting that spot with clinical precision. โI want to see you when it hits.โ
You tryโyou really doโbut your lashes flutter, mouth parting on broken whimpers as he builds you up. The fishnets bite into the backs of your thighs as you arch, his hand anchoring you at the waist. Every drag of his fingers is measured, perfect, relentless.
โGood girl,โ he whispers when you finally meet his gaze again. His mouth curves into the faintest smirk. โLook how well you take me. Tight and perfect around my fingers.โ
Your hips grind into his palm, chasing the pressure on your clit. โSpencerโโ
โThatโs it,โ he says, cutting you off with a kiss, messy and heated, tongue sliding against yours while his fingers curl harder, faster. He swallows your moans, his breath hot against your lips as he fucks you through each wave of tension building in your belly.
You break the kiss with a cry when his thumb circles your clit, merciless now, slick from your arousal. โPleaseโfuck, please, donโt stop.โ
His voice is velvet, dangerous in its calm. โDo you want to come for me?โ
โYesโyes, God, yesโโ The words detonate in your chest, scattering what little control you had left. Your thighs tremble around his wrist, nails raking his shoulders. โPlease, Spencer. N-need it.โ
That earns you a satisfied hum, almost approving, and his pace sharpensโfingers curling deeper, thumb rubbing harder, until your back bows off the couch.
โCome for me,โ he breathes against your ear, the command shivering straight through you.
You shatter, clenching tight around his fingers, a choked cry tearing from your throat. The orgasm rips through you fast and hard, your body convulsing under his control, every nerve lit up.
He doesnโt stop. His fingers keep working you, thrusting and curling, drawing every aftershock until youโre shaking, gasping, pushing weakly at his shoulders.
โToo much?โ he murmurs, kissing the corner of your mouth. He slows, not stopping completely, coaxing you down from the peak with gentle strokes. โOr can you give me more?โ
Your gaze slips from his tie down to the gleam of his watch where his wrist braces against the chair. The hour makes your chest tightenโyouโre still on the clock, technicallyโbut your laugh comes out breathy, shaky, curling right up into the space between his mouth and yours.
โAs much as Iโd love to keep this going,โ you murmur, lashes brushing down before you dare look at him again, โI am technically at work.โ
The words are a tease, but your body doesnโt move away. Your heel presses into the floor, hips shifting ever so slightly beneath him, and you feel the way his arm stiffens, steadying himself instead of giving in.
Your fingers trail up his chest, slow and deliberate, until they catch on the lapel of his jacket. โIf you wanted more of me, thoughโฆโ you breathe, tilting your head so your perfume coils between you, โโฆI wouldn't mind continuing off the clock.โ
Your voice is hushed but daring, like youโve just slid a secret into his pocket.
For the first time, he laughsโquiet, quick, almost surprised. The sound breaks through his composure more than anything else has tonight. A small, crooked smile tugs at his mouth before he leans down and kisses you again, firm and warm, as if to mark the words youโve just given him.
When he finally pulls back, he doesnโt let go of you right away. Instead, his hand skims down your ribs, slow and careful, before settling back at your waist. Then, almost clinically precise, he starts smoothing your hair back into place, straightening the strap thatโs shifted on your shoulder, brushing his thumb across your swollen lower lip to wipe away the faintest smudge of gloss.
Itโs oddly tenderโan undoing of the chaos he just drew out of you. โYou should go,โ he murmurs, though his thumb lingers at your jaw a beat too long. โBefore someone comes looking.โ
He helps you sit up, fingers brushing wrinkles from your outfit like itโs second nature, every movement neat and meticulous. You catch him glancing once more at his watch, then back at you, eyes sharper than they should be after what just happened.
โLater,โ you whisper, half-question, half-promise.
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i wouldn't fall for someone i thought couldn't misbehave
Spencer Reid intercepts one of your kills, leading to a late-night surprise visit in his apartment.
Pairing: afab!unsub!reader x unsub!Spencerย
Contents: smut, 2.6k words, DDDNE, brief blood play, they threaten each other with a gun, post prison unsub!Spencer, unsub!reader, brief mentions of violence, fingering, hand job, unprotected penetrative sex.ย ย
Notes: Combined this request with this, although I took some liberties. This is not part of the Marionette, Unbound series, but it is post prison Spencerโturned unsub. The plot is mostly vibes, please donโt look too deeply into it.
He meets you officially, for the first time, in a museum. Of course itโs a museum, like some fucked up cliche. Life has been known to play games with him. Attending an exhibit on Renaissance anatomical sketchesโthe artistry of dissectionโwhere he senses your presence like itโs in his blood, instinct sharpened by years of both survival and training.ย
Four feet to his left, there you are, studying a rendering of a heart. He inches closer, casual and aloof, wondering if his eventual proximity will get a reaction.ย
You remain calm. A beat passes. Two, and then,
โYouโre standing too close.โ
Spencer tilts his head, but refuses to turn and look. โThe average personal space boundary in North America between two adults having a conversation is approximately eighteen inches. Iโm at twenty-seven.โ
โMaybe between friends.โ From his periphery, your lips lift into a ghost of a smile. โWeโre strangers.โ
โAre we?โ He holds out a wooden chess pieceโa pawn, common and nondescript, if it isnโt for the four tipped star engraved at the bottom. Youโd left it in the hands of the last victim. Gloating. A signal, telling him I was here first, youโre too slow. He has two others hidden in a hollow book, from the two other times youโd been faster than him.ย
Spencer knows what trophies mean, has spent years learning and studying the type of individual sick enough to collect them. Told himself once he started taking matters into his own hands that he'd never imitate that. Wouldn't keep mementos and collect them, foolishly believing it would set him apart from the rest.
Somehow, when it comes to your tokens, he tells himself they don't count.
You turn then, finally, eyes exaggerated and wide to convey innocence, but he sees the sharpness twinkling just beneath the surface.ย
He waits for you to deny. To call him crazy. Threaten to call security. He hopes, for a singular moment, to see a flicker of panic, any hint of fear. Anger at being bestedโhe did find you, after all, no matter how embarrassing the resources he'd had to use.
Instead, you smile. "I see you got my gift."
โYouโre escalating,โ he says simply.
"Oh? And what makes you say that?"
"The overkill from the last victim."
"I'm offended you're calling that an escalation, I did that for you." you bat your lashes at him, sweet as honey. "Misterโฆ?"
"Spencer Reid." he reliquishes his name without hesitation. After all, he knows nearly everything about you at this point. It only seems fair.
"Spencer Reid." you repeat, lips curling as you introduce yourself.
"I know."
"So you've looked into me."
"As I'm sure you've done with me."
You laugh, light and airy. To onlookers, the two of you must seem like you're flirting. Maybe you are. He certainly gets a reaction from that laugh, like something pulling in his stomach.
"But I didn't get as far as your name." you say finally, smirking at him.
They stand there, two ghosts in a building dedicated to preserved bodies.
โYouโre going to get caught,โ Spencer murmurs, slipping the pawn back in his pocket.
"Why? Are you turning me in?"
He shakes his head. "You're growing reckless. People are onto you."
"There's an easy fix to thatโI'll pin it on you."
Something in him flashes, quick as a whip, memories of prison. Of Cat Adams. His posture straightens, carefully neutral and forcefully serene, but you catch it. The shift, the discomfort. You've hit a nerve.
"Ah," you smirk, "Touchy subject?"
He doesn't answer, lets you mull over and make whatever conclusions you wished. Despite the years, the framed murder still makes his jaw tick.
You step back, clearly pleased. "I won't get caught, Spencer Reid. If you aren't fast enough to keep up with me, then I doubt they will." You brush past his shoulder as you walk away, smelling of camellias and, if you lingered too close, the underlying rust of blood.
โ
Six months. Two more kills, both of whom you got to before he does. Spencer isn't that miffed anymore, finds himself chuckling when he finds the crime scene and rummages for the chess piece he knows is waiting for him.
He can't quite decide if this twisting of your paths is fate, or coincedence, or something you'd orchestrated without his knowledge. At some point, his work must have reached youโhe had been targetting the same type of men you had. Rich, lonely men who abuse their money and influence, but irrelevant enough to avoid suspicion.
Spencer still remembers the first time he'd found his target already dead. You'd used poison then. Left the chess piece for him. That pawn is the only confirmation of your presenceโyou never use the same method twice. You're smart, effective, but you're growing bold. Showing off. Bleeding out victims, leaving more mementos that investigators could potentially trace back to you.
Thus, his planning shifts from getting to the targets before you out of the spirit of competition, to getting there to make sure he kills them first and somehow cease your streak.
So far, he's been unsuccessful.
Until today. He's let the last two victims go, a necessary sacrifice to his ego, in order to study your habits.
You blend in. That's your advantage. Beautiful in that nondescript way, adjusting your appearance to fit the setting, that's how you're able to slip in and out of situations.
His advantage is this: he's trained to catch people like you. By tracking your patterns, he comes to the conclusion that you'll be at a gala that Trevor Parker is attending. He doesn't know what your disguise will be, only that he wants to get to this target before you.
So he attends. Dons a pressed shirt and tie, mingles with the crowd, disappearing under the revered title of Doctor Spencer Reid abd pretending everything is all right.
He tries to scope the crowd for you, to no avail. Once the night slows, and Trevor Parker leaves, Spencer tails him discreetly, wondering when you'll show up.
You don't.
Or, you do. But only when he's in the comfort of his own home, stumbling his way to the bathroom. Trevor Parker had been surprisingly stubborn, forcing Spencer closer. He'd planned a quick slit to the throat, but Trevor Parker's life ended with multiple stab wounds, bleeding on his bedroom floor.
"You're hurt."
Spencer jumps, gun immediately drawn, cocked and ready. You laugh, perched on his window sillโis that how you got in?โdressed in the pressed black uniform that the servers from the gala had been wearing. So that's why he couldn't find you within the guests.
"I'm not." he says, gun still held up, "This is all his."
You raise your hands in defeat, head tilted to the side. "You sure?"
Spencer watches you take a step, and then another, keeping his gun in the air. You stop only when the barrel hits your chest, eyes softening in the dim room.
"Let me see."
"I told you, I'm not hurt." Spencer says, eyes dragging over your form. He debates for a moment, before finally lowering his weapon. "You were there. You didn't kill him, but you were there. You would've."
"I would've." you admit, taking another step forward now that his defence has lowered. The smell of camellias and blood fill his apartment, heady, slick and addictive.
"But?"
"But I wanted to see what you'd do instead." you grin, sharp with condescension. "You made a mess, doctor. Next time, maybe leave the dirty work to me."
He huffs, embarrassment blooming in his chest from being chastised and something more primal clawing up his gut from your proximity.
"I wasn't expecting him to be so strong even while drunk." Spencer admits.
"Your first mistake was taking him face to face and waiting until he's home."
"How would you have done it?"
"Poison. Administered during the gala, so everyone is a suspect."
Spencer shakes his head. "That would've made a spectacle. I was right to intercept."
"Intercept me?" your eyes flash in the dark. A low, mocking laugh spills from your lips. "Oh, Spencer Reid, do you think yourself my savior? Look at you."
"He's dead, and I left no trace. You would've done something stupid, like leave another pawn on the crime scene."
"Mhm, and imagine what they'd think when the investigators find your suspicious collection of pawns engraved with a four tipped star."
At that, Spencer backs away again. Gun drawn, leveled at your chest.
You laugh. "Relax, that was hypothetical. And it's not nice to point a gun at an unarmed lady."
"What do you want? Why are you here? To gloat and tell me you'd do a better job?" he says, voice dangerously calm, "You already did that."
Your smile melts, turns syrupy. "I did. Why do you have a gun pointed at me? I told you I'm unarmed."
"Forgive me, but I don't trust that."
"Oh, then allow me to prove it."
Before he can blink, you're already unbuttoning your blouse, revealing bare skin, the lace of your bra. The shirt falls to the floor, and you make a show of turning around. "See? No hidden guns. Or do you want me to strip naked just to beโ"
He silences you with a kiss, blood stirring hot and insistent in his veins. You laugh into his mouth, arms wrapping tight around his neck and tugging him to the floor. He follows, hisses when you bite at his lower lip so hard the metallic taste laves over his tongue.
You giggle, lapping up the trickling blood eagerly, hands traveling down to unbutton his pants.
Spencer groans, cock stirring from the high of the kill, your pliant body beneath his, squirming and arching into his with a softness he hasn't felt in a while. A softness he didn't think possible, not from you. Your cold hands shoving past his boxers to squeeze and stroke over his cock.
He feels another nip, lip you're trying to get more blood from his lips, and he pulls back, large hands framing your face. He gets a good look at you then, the feral grin stretching your lips, his blood smeared over them. The soft pad of his thumb presses into the plush.
Your mouth parts, sucking the digit between them. A hum vibrates around his thumb as your tongue swirls over each crevice.
His spine tingles when he realizes you're licking Trevor Parker's dried blood off. Everything is forgotten with that realization, only heat and desire and you, right there, on his floor.
"Fuck," Spencer hisses. His thumb slips out, now clean, and he replaces them with his index and middle finger, watching you suck them clean with undivided intensity. Your hand on his cock moves faster, trying to find a sloppy rhythm to sync with how his hips are rutting forward.
He groans, his body shuddering into yours, pressing you into the carpet. One arm braced by your head, the other slides his fingers out of your lips to undo your pants, tugging them down just enough to slip his fingers, still slick and slippery with your saliva, into the throbbing heat of your cunt. Soft, warm walls accept those digits, clench around them when he curls up.
Spencer pumps those fingers in and out of your cunt, making sure to hit that spongy part that has you baring your neck to him. He bends to kiss at that stretch of skin, licking and biting, wondering if he's got it in him to break your skin the way you did his.
"Oh," you sigh, leaning back on one elbow. You continue stroking his cock with one hand, spreading slick precum all down the shaft. His legs shimmy clumsily to ease the rest of his pants off.
As if you've read his mind, you tug your own bottoms off, knees knocking accidentally into his side, until finally, you've freed yourself from the confines of your clothes and are able to wrap your legs around his waist. Moving as one now, Spencer slides his fingers out with a wet pop, smearing the slickness against your lips.
You laugh, and he swears the world tilts.
Another shift, hands arranging thighs, spreading you open, and then, finally, a push. Into your heat, stretching the entrance slowly. His cock glides in with ease once your body accepts the broad tip, bottoming out in one thrust.
Your elbow buckles. Land flat on the floor. He moves one hand to the back of your had, eases it up and cradles it like you're precious, just so you aren't lying straight on the hardwood floor.
"This what you wanted?" he groans, thrusting shallowly. "What you came for?"
"Mhm," you moan, dragging him down for another kiss. Your tongue laves over his bleeding lip insistently, shamelessly. He moves in earnest now. Sharp, quick thrusts of his hips, ones that make your nails dig into his scalp until he's hissing, until he's convinced you're still trying to draw blood.
He pulls almost all the way out and slams roughly in retaliation.
"Fuck!"
"That's it." he pants, repeating the action, watching your face twist, sweat slick and pretty in the darkness, as he pounds into your cunt. "Let me hear you."
You lean into it with glee, moaning and cursing into the dark room. His name, pleas to go harder, please, yes right there, over and over until he's fucking you hard and fast, your slick bodies inching slowly across the floor from the impact. You take all of it with glee, walls fluttering around his length, soft and perfect.
"I'mโahโclose, please, I'm so close!"
"Yeah?" he hikes your leg higher over his waist, before rubbing quick circles over your sensitive bud with his thumb. He feels it before you could even make a sound, the sudden tightness, the rush of wetness pulsing around his cock. Your face scrunches, pleasure thrumming all through your body and making you squirm. Beautiful.
Spencer gasps, eyes clenched tight as he fucks you through your orgasm and chases his own.
And thenโ
The click of a gun.
"Get off."
His eyes fly open, disoriented and dazed, meeting your blissed out gaze beneath him. At his temple, the cold press of the barrel. His gun, discarded carelessly when you both fell to the floor, now in your hands. His gun which he'd tried to use to physically keep you away, now aimed at his own head.
Spencer blinks. Pulls out of you carefully, panting, clearing his throat. Stands up, slow and steady, unsure about everything.
You grin, bright and sweet. Keep the gun trained at him while you tug your pants back on, not bothering with your panties. Your shirt is askew, only half buttoned.
"I came here to tell you to never steal my target again." you say, stepping backward, moving toward the window where he assumes you'd used to break in the first time. "Or I won't hesitate to pull this trigger."
Spencer watches you, half undressed, his cock still twitching and erect. He nods, once. "I won't interfere again."
You grin. Set his gun down on a nearby desk, before pushing his window open.
"Good. You do that." you duck and slip out through the small space. "Oh, and thanks for the orgasm. We should do that again sometime."
You're gone without another glance. Spencer stands there, covered in dried blood, his ears ringing. A million things run through his head. He needs better security. Take a shower. Burn these clothes.
But first, he wraps his fist around his weeping, needy cock and recalls the look on your face when you came apart.
part of my BLOODY VALENTINE MARATHON | Main masterlist.
Pairing:ย Spencer Reid x Forensic Researcher!Female!Reader
Word Count:ย ~2.1k
Warnings:ย just a lot of fluff
Summary: Spencer accidentally sends an email to the wrong person, but itโs not a mistake when you give him insight into the case heโs actively working on. From there, you and Spencer engage in an online friendship that turns into more when you finally meet face-to-face.
Square Filled:ย blind date for 2023 @criminalmindsbingo (previously @spencerreidbingo)
Authorโs Note:ย Any and all comments are greatly appreciated <3
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The second floor of the FBI isnโt as glamorous as the BAUโs floor, but you like your little corner of nowhere. Thatโs not to say youโd rather be here above anywhere else. No, you wish you were part of the BAU. Youโve admired what they do since joining the FBI, and youโve been studying your ass off with practice tests and classes to get whatโs necessary to join the team.
In the meantime, youโll bide your time by working as a Forensics Researcher. You specialize in improvising techniques in DNA analysis, examining weapons and other evidence, and analyzing handwriting. Just to name a few.
Some of your coworkers are already in when you arrive, and you greet them with smiles on the way to your desk. After getting settled in for the morning, you log into your computer and open your email. By passing the normal shit you get every day, you notice an email thatโs from someone you donโt know. He works in this building, but not on this floor.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Y/N,ย
Can you send over the paperwork from the Anderson case? I need to add it to the case file by the end of the day. Also, can you tell me what you think about these photos? Iโd really appreciate your input. We think this unsub is disorganized, antisocial, and without a job.
Sincerely,
Dr. Spencer Reid
Spencer Reid. Heโs part of the BAU, but you have no clue what heโs talking about. Attached to the email is a bunch of photos of crime scenes that youโre pretty sure arenโt meant for you. He must have intended to send this to someone with the same name as you. At least, you hope thatโs the case. Youโve never met anyone from the BAU team except for Hotch and Penelope.
Should you reply to this? You have enough knowledge on forensics to be able to give him what heโs asking you, but will you get in trouble? Maybe this is your in. Maybe this is how you prove that youโre BAU material.
Before you can talk yourself out of it, you study the crime scene photos and type out a reply.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Spencer,ย
I believe this email was sent to the wrong person. Unfortunately, I am unable to send you the documents you requested.
If I may, and I hope Iโm not overstepping, but I believe I can provide some insight into the crime scene photos.
I donโt believe the unsub is disorganized at all. In fact, I think heโs trying to throw you off by pretending to be. Look at the cuts made on the victimโs body. They look jagged and rushed at first glance, but the cuts are clean. The cuts look like the unsub intentionally tried to make them look jagged.
Also, I donโt believe that heโs antisocial or unemployed. In the background of the bedroom, there is a stack of papers next to a stack of books. Books that are textbooks. Now, I donโt know about you, but I donโt keep textbooks lying around unless Iโm studying them. I made the picture clearer, and the top page of the stack is an essay on medicine. Again, I donโt keep essays around unless Iโve written them for a class.
As for him being antisocial, he might have trouble making new connections, but heโs very smart. Heโs very organized, and he knows enough not to let something as being antisocial tip anyone off.
Please let me know if I can be of further use,
Y/N
Spencer is about to log off his computer and join the team in the briefing room when he gets a response from Y/N. His eyes widen when he realizes he sent it to the wrong person, but the shock melts when he reads further.
How can he be so stupid? Youโre absolutely right. The missing piece finally clicks in his mind, making him see the entire puzzle. He quickly sends the first email to the right person without the crime scene photos, and he rushes to the briefing room.
โI think we have this unsub all wrong,โ he announces to his team.
Spencer goes over what you said in your email, and the team agrees that itโs what theyโve been missing. They now have a better profile of the unsub that they can work with.
Since sending that reply, youโve been waiting for an email back. Hours pass without one, and you worry that youโve crossed the line by stepping into something you have no business being in. Fuck, Iโm going to get fired, and I will never be on the BAU team. Iโm going to have to go back to college for a new degree, and I wonโt ever be half as happy as I am now. Stupid, Y/N, stuโ
Your computer dings with a new email, stopping your thoughts from running into each other.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Y/N,
Thank you for your insight. You didnโt have to do that, but I appreciate it. If youโre curious, your thoughts are exactly what we needed to move the case along.
As a forensic researcher, you know quite a bit about profiling.
Sincerely,
Dr. Spencer Reid
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Spencer,
As much as I love being a forensic researcher, my dream is to be on the BAU team. I went to college for both degrees at the same time. To be honest, Iโve studied the cases your team has solved just to get some practice on building a profile.
Y/N
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
If you continue down this road, Iโd say you have a pretty good shot of joining this team in the future.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
A compliment? I might swoon. Iโve read about the members on the team, and you stuck out to me the most. Iโm impressed with what youโve accomplished so far.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Well, I do have an IQ of 187. I am a certified genius.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
I was going to comment on how cocky you just sounded, but if I had your IQ, Iโd be doing the same thing. What drew you to the BAU?
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
All I want to do is help people. I want to be able to bring people to justice for their crimes, and I want to rid the world of criminals. Logically, I know itโs impossible, but that wonโt stop me from trying. It doesnโt hurt that Iโm smarter than most.
His responses make you smile. Throughout the day, you two talk through emails, just getting to know each other through your passions and goals in life. Emily and JJ notice that Spencer is clinging to his computer more than normal. Heโs either doing extensive research or he's filling out documents for a case file.
Emily and JJ frown at each other. Spencer doesn't use the computer for either of those things. He prefers to read books and newspapers for research, and he handwrites all of his documents.
โHey, what are you doing?โ JJ asks when they approach his desk.
โWhat?โ Spencer quickly closes out of his email. โNothing.โ
โWhy so secretive?โ Emily chuckles.
โIโm not being secretive.โ
โYes, you are. Youโre never on your computer for long. Who are you emailing?โ
JJ and Emily are only going to keep hounding him with questions if he doesnโt answer them. โFine. I didnโt come up with that realization on my own this morning. I sent an email to the wrong person with the crime scene photos attached to it. Sheโs the one who came up with the unsub pretending to be disorganized to throw us off. Iโve been emailing with her back and forth.โ
โThatโs so cute,โ JJ smiles.
โWe totally need to set him up,โ Emily gasps.
โThis is why I donโt tell you guys anything.โ
โWeโre teasing,โ JJ smirks. โWeโll let you get back to it, then.โ
Spencer waits until theyโre gone to pull his email back up and resume talking to you. This goes on for days. Spencer is glued to his computer whenever he can, seeking out emails from you. JJ and Emily watch from the shadows, placing bets on when Spencer will have the courage to go down to the 2nd floor to talk to you in person.
Spencer and the team are called away on a case halfway across the country, but that doesnโt stop the emails from transpiring.
A few weeks go by when Spencer has a moment at his desk. His hands shake nervously as he types the email. So far, emails have been pretty tame, but youโve amped up the flirting a bit, and heโs not sure how to go about this. Heโs never flirted with anyone before.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
How was your weekend? Were you able to get that stuff moved out of your house? My offer still stands to help if you need it.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Spencer, the first time you come to my house wonโt be because I need your help moving boxes.
Spencer frowns as he rereads your email.
โSheโs flirting with you,โ JJ says close to Spencerโs ear.
He jumps out of his skin and rears back. โWhat? Why would you do that to me?โ
JJ laughs and steps back from him. โSorry, I couldnโt resist. Flirt back.โ
Shame shadows over Spencerโs face. โWhat should I say? Iโm not very good at it.โ
โHere, let me.โ Spencer moves out of the way so that JJ can type a response. Once sheโs done, she steps back again. โWhat do you think?โ
Spencer presses send before he can talk himself out of it.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Bold assumption. Are you inviting me to your house? I can think of a few things better than moving boxes.
TO: [email protected]
FROM: [email protected]
Is that right? Well, I guess youโll have to come over and find out. Consider this your formal invite.
Spencer smiles widely at your email. โShe wants me to come over.โ
โShouldnโt you go down there and talk to her in person? Or do you plan on talking to her through email the whole time?โ Spencer stiffens, and JJ immediately notices. โWhatโs that for?โ
โI donโt know what she looks like.โ
โYou donโt know what she looks like?โ JJ asks in shock. โArenโt you curious?โ
โI donโt have to know what she looks like to know sheโs already the most beautiful girl in the world.โ
โSpencer, you should go down there, find her, and ask her out. She clearly likes you.โ
Spencer perks up a bit. โYou think so?โ
โYes,โ she chuckles.
Spencer logs off his computer and stands up. JJ watches with a smile as he half-jogs over to the elevators. Spencer doesnโt know what you look like, and heโs kind of nervous to ask around for you. What if he asks you where you are?
The second floor is just as busy as the sixth floor, and he studies everyone in the room. No one looks in his direction, even as they pass by him. Would you have looked up his name and picture in the directory? What if youโre disappointed?
Spencer walks further into the room and kind of slowly hugs the wall. He walks closer to a cluster of cubicles, and he can hear laughter coming from the other side of it. The laughter warms his skin as if heโs standing out in the sun. That laugh brings a smile to his face because whoever laughed gives a quiet snort at the end.
Thatโs you. He already knows.
He walks around the cubicles and stops short when he sees the owner of that infectious laugh. Damn it. Sheโs gorgeous. He never looked you up, but he knows this woman is you. Everything about you is better than anything he could ever imagine. He looks down and smooths down his tie, suddenly super nervous. What if you donโt like him?
โWeโll have to get together this weekend. I gotta get back to work. See you, Y/N!โ
โSee ya!โ Okay, now he knows this is you. He nervously clears his throat and steps up to your cubicle. Her eyes are even more gorgeous up close. โHi, can I help you?โ
โUmโฆ Iโm Spencerโฆโ Immediately, your features soften. โSpencer Reid.โ
โSpencer,โ you whisper. Fuck, heโs gorgeous. I have never seen brown eyes that bright before. You stand as you try to fight the blush you know wants to come. โHi. Iโm Y/N.โ
โI know,โ he smiles.
Fuck, even his smile is gorgeous. โWhat are you doing here?โ
โI wanted to see if that invitation was good enough in person.โ
You grin and bite your lower lip. โYeah, it is.โ
โIโm free this Friday if you want to get some coffee or something.โ
Something mischievous glints in your eyes. โOr something.โ
You canโt ignore the zing between you two. Knowing that Spencer is on the BAU team gives you one more reason to fight for a spot by his side.
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summary: you have to go undercover as your rivalโs girlfriend.
relationship: spencer reid x rival!fem!reader
genre: smut - MDNI!
word count: 6.3k
tags: definitely unrealistic undercover proceedings, banter about virginity & sex, idiots in love, dom!spencer, sub!reader, explicit sexual content - MDNI!, kissing, making out, oral (reader receiving), degradation ? (dumbification of reader), edging, thick fucking, more edging, implication of further intimacy
authorโs note: feeding into the post-prison dom!spencer delusions here even though i am a firm sub believerโฆ hope yโall enjoy these freaks
based on requests one & two
If it were up to you, youโd be on an actual date tonight. Unfortunately for you, being a member of the BAU entails surrendering control of your schedule; day in and day out, youโre forced to drop everything at a momentโs notice to pursue a case. While you love your job and being on-call is rarely more than a nuisance, itโs turned into quite the headache tonight, namely because youโre currently undercover with your least favorite teammate.
Okay, that might be a bit of an exaggeration. You donโt actually dislike Spencer Reidโquite the opposite, actually. Heโs more of a frenemy than an outright nemesis, and you genuinely find engaging in sharp-tongued banter with him to be quite entertaining.ย
Your rivalry started practically the minute you joined the BAU; the day you arrived, you had proudly announced that your favorite book was some shitty, slutty romance novel. You had seen the stack of Penguin classics on Spencerโs desk and plucked the arbitrary title from the depths of your mind solely because you knew a fan of real literature would be insulted by your choice. Of course, he had fallen for it. You were one hundred percent bullshitting him, yet he took personal offense to your self-proclaimed favorite. Predictably, heโs been determined to prove his intellectual superiority ever since, and your apparent indifference while he does so grates his nerves to no end. Honestly, you find it hilarious that youโve been on the team for nearly a year at this point, and he still insists that your โchildish preferences are a reflection of your greater incompetence.โ
Just the thought of him saying so has you threatening to giggle.ย
โHere.โ Spencerโs voice snaps you out of your thoughts. You tear your eyes from their absentminded stare as he slaps a tall glass onto the table, a rivulet of clear liquid dribbling over the lip. Your brow furrows as you assess the cup with an unimpressed glare.
โWhat the hell is this?โ you ask as Spencer slides into the booth. He opts to sit on the same side as you, trapping you between him and the wall, sliding the glass closer to you. You lean forward, cautiously sniffing its contents.
โSprite,โ he answers, rolling his eyes. โJesus, relax.โ
โExcuse me,โ you retort sharply, lifting the glass to your lips and taking a dainty sip. The soda fizzes pleasantly as you swallow, warmth sliding down your throat. You shoot a sidelong glance at Spencer and murmur, โI wouldnโt put it past you to get me drunk so you can take all the credit when we catch this guy.โ
The rest of the team is stationed outside, ready to intervene once the unsub arrives. Heโs a sexual sadist whoโs been targeting women in the area. More specifically, women he deems guilty of infidelity. Itโs an easy enough setup; fawn all over Spencer before approaching the unsub, and youโre sure to piss him off. The most fallible aspect of the plan isnโt even luring the unsub outside; itโs playing a convincing couple. While you find Spencer ridiculously attractive, itโs become second nature at this point to tease him until heโs red in the faceโfrom either embarrassment or blatant irritation.ย
Spencer snorts. โI donโt need to get you drunk to do that.โ
According to Garcia, the unsub is en route to the bar, but wonโt arrive for another several minutes. Essentially, this information translates to: you still have a few minutes to go tรชte ร tรชte without having to monitor your facial expressions. You say pointedly, โSo you admit that youโd step on everyone on your way to the top?โ You offer Spencer a smug smirk over the lip of your glass.ย
โNot everyone, just you,โ he replies flatly. You huff with amusement, gaping at him with faux indignance.ย
โAw, is that any way to talk to the only girlfriend youโll ever have?โ you coo, a disappointed pout downturning your lips.ย
โFake girlfriend,โ Spencer tersely responds, as if the thought of verifiably dating you horrifies him. A glint of mischief flits in his eyes as he mocks, โOr are you so obsessed with me that you forgot?โ
โYouโre not my type,โ you lie easily. The two of you have fallen into this sort of flirtatious teasing so many times, youโve almost convinced yourself that youโre telling the truth. Almost.
Spencer sighs dramatically, his lips twitching into the smallest smile. โWell, thatโs a relief.โ
โYes, your virginity lives to see another day,โ you deadpan. Blinking harshly at him, you add, โPhew.โ
Narrowing his eyes, his smile looks downright feline. โAt least look like youโre enjoying yourself while you spit unoriginal insults at me.โ
โI am enjoying myself,โ you boast gleefully. โItโs actually pretty cathartic toโโ
โShut up and get your ass over here,โ Spencer whispers, words laced with a frantic yet insistent energy.ย
โI beg yourโโ you scoff, but before you can finish vocalizing your thought, heโs grabbing you by the hips and planting you firmly in his lap. Not only are you in his lapโyouโre straddling it. Your dress is riding up your thighs, and youโre very thankful that you had the foresight to wear some spandex shorts beneath the skirt. You gape at him, simultaneously shocked and turned on by how easily heโs thrown you over his thighs.ย
The movement jostled a curl from behind your ear, and Spencer reaches up to tenderly tuck the hair back into place. With one hand cupping the back of your neck and the other gripping your hip, he leans toward you. Your breath hitches, and for a brief moment, you allow yourself to indulge in the delusion that this is real. Spencer angles his lips toward your ear and murmurs, โHeโs here. Just do your job.โ
His words course through your veins like icy water, effectively cooling the heat in your core. Refusing to let any disappointment show, you plaster on a joyous smile, which isnโt all that much of a challenge when the hottest man you know is smirking at you like youโre the prettiest little thing heโs ever seen.ย
โBossy,โ you tease through your teeth. Your hands lift to his shoulders, fingers fiddling with the collar of his dress shirt. Just playing the part, you tell yourself. Another plus of those spandex? He canโt tell how wet youโre getting. Weakly, you taunt, โAdmit it, you just wanted an excuse to put me in your lap.โ
โYou are soโโ
โLovely?โ you interrupt, injecting as much sweetness into your smile as possible. Spencer squints at you, and you sigh, โCome on. If youโre gonna manhandle me like a caveman, the least you can do is call me pretty or something. I get enough denigration from you on a daily basis.โ
Your hands fall to his chest. You try to make the motions appear absentminded, like youโve touched him a thousand times, but youโre relishing the feeling. On one hand, youโre tempted to look over your shoulder, curious if the unsub is buying your little show, but on the other, youโd like to pretend that itโs just the two of you here.ย
โYou poor thing,โ Spencer croons, his hand trailing from the back of your neck to cup your jawline. โFragile ego?โ
You laugh like heโs just referenced some kind of inside joke as opposed to insulting you, exaggerating your amusement for anyone whoโs watching. You sigh, meeting his eyes as you answer, โAw, itโs so cute how you think your words have any power over me.โ
โIf they donโt, what do you need the praise for?โ Spencer quickly retorts.ย
โBecause your job tonight is to be a convincing boyfriend, and right now, youโre not making me wanna date you,โ you chide quietly. In a combination of self-indulgence and an attempt to get under Spencerโs skin, you lean closer. With the way Spencerโs thumb has been stroking your cheek, it probably appears to anyone watching that heโs preparing to kiss you. Your eyes flit between his as you tut in mock disappointment, โWe might have to break up.โ
You donโt miss the strain in his eyes, the way he appears to be refraining from looking at your lips. Then again, he can probably still see them in his periphery. Your own gaze falls to his mouth as the corners of his lips twitch into a small smile. โAre you saying you normally wanna date me?โ
โOnly in your most unrealistic, most horny dreams, Reid,โ you purr, lying straight through your teeth. You sit back in his lap, finding the position quite comfortable. His hand falls away from your face, settling back on your hip.ย
Spencer rolls his eyes, though thereโs a fondness in the motion that only comes from months of familiar bickering. โSo charming.โ His voice is flatโunimpressedโbut thereโs a gravely quality to his low tone that has your stomach pitching as if he had sounded even the slightest bit flirtatious.ย
โI know,โ you hum. โMust be why Iโm the star of all your fantasies.โ
Spencer barks out a laugh at that. The sound is sharp, edged with surprise; almost like youโve struck a chord, appealed to some truth heโs not yet willing to admit. He huffs, โYou seem awfully interested in my fantasies for someone who says Iโm not their type.โ
โIโm just worried about your health,โ you assure him, voice dripping with feigned concern. โAll that pent-up sexual frustration cannot be good for you.โย
โNeither is being stuck on a case with you,โ Spencer quips, though he doesnโt really sound that broken up about it.ย
โSo you admit that youโre sexuallyโโ
โJust go talk to him,โ he interrupts, unwilling to concede your point.ย
โYes, sir,โ you oblige, softly patting his chest before you slide off his lap, heels practically sticking to the dirty bar floor. Before Spencer can offer a witty retort, you amend, โOh, sorry. Iโll try to keep things vanilla for your sensitive soul.โ Blowing him a kiss, you mouth, โLater, loser.โ
Spencer looks like he might try to fit in a final word, but he clamps his mouth shut and you look away, focusing on the objective ahead of you.
Youโve just emerged from your hotel suiteโs bathroom when a firm knock sounds on your door. Instinctively, your gaze shoots to the clock on the nightstand; its bright red digits confirm your suspicions. Itโs late, late enough that thereโs no reasonable explanation for someone to be bothering you.ย
Youโre exhausted after this eveningโs events. Between the emotional turmoil of being around Spencerโof sitting in his lap, for Christโs sakeโand the stress of closing a case, youโre determined to sleep for at least the next ten hours. Itโs no surprise when your voice comes out as a disappointed groan. โWho is it?โ
โOpen the door and find out, smartass,โ Spencer retorts, the amusement in his tone evident even from the other side of the door.ย
โTempting, but I think Iโll just keep pricking your voodoo doll,โ you quip. Youโre debating just flopping into bed and ignoring him; youโre so exhausted, even incessant knocking probably wouldnโt keep you from a heavy slumber, at this point. Yet, that stupid little sliver of your mindโthe horny part, that isโwants to see him.ย
โFunny,โ he says flatly.ย
โMaybe, but the chest pain youโre about to feel isnโt.โ Youโve never given much thought to voodoo, but thereโs something tantalizing about the thought of stabbing a little needle right through Spencerโs plush heart after his aggravating behavior earlier. You huff to yourself.
โOpen the door,โ he commands, sounding wholly unimpressed by your witticism.ย
Relenting with a dramatic sigh, you pad across the drab carpet and unlock your door. As soon as Spencer catches sight of you, his eyes are trailing down your body, seemingly admiring the oversized t-shirt and baggy shorts currently serving as your pajamas. You wouldnโt think that there would be much of interest to admire, but Spencerโs gaze lingers on your bare legs just the same.ย
โItโs late,โ you mutter, pretending for all the world like youโre not also drinking in his appearance. Since you last saw him, heโs changed into loungewear of his ownโa worn tee and flannel pants. Clearing your suddenly dry throat, you arch a brow and ask, โShouldnโt you be jerking off?โ
Spencerโs gaze snaps back to your face, and he shoots you a withering glare. โYouโre exhausting. Donโt you ever get tired of yourself?โ
Not dignifying his snippiness with a response, you taunt, โIf you came here to steal some panties, Iโd rather you just be honest.โ You look over your shoulder, gesturing vaguely to your neatly-packed suitcase, propped in the corner of the room. โSee, โcause I have this lace pair I really donโtโโ
โShut up. For once, stop talking.โ Spencer steps into your room, crowding you against the door as it clicks shut behind you. You tilt your head to look up at him as he murmurs, โYou think youโre so smart, huh? You think you have me all figured out?โ He pauses, and youโre tempted to cut in with a sharp retort, but then heโs diving back into his rant. โWell, youโre a shittier profiler than you think. All this talk about me being a virgin, all this teasing me about being sexually frustratedโโ he jabs a finger into his chest, and then redirects his pointing to you, โโwhen youโre the one who was about to get yourself off thinking about me.โ
โDonโt flatter yourself,โ you chide, scrunching your nose in distaste as if the thought has never crossed your mind. You fold your arms across your chest, elbow almost poking him in the process with how close heโs hovering. โWhy are you here, Reid?โ
โI thought Iโd offer you some help,โ he says simply, not bothering to be remotely subtle as he ogles your chest, crossed arms pushing your breasts together, even under your loose shirt.ย
โWith what?โ you ask, though youโre sure you know what heโs implying. With a mock gasp, you joke, โOh. Cute. No. I donโt do that kind of charity work.โ
Spencerโs eyes drag up the column of your throat, landing back on your face after a tense moment. He shrugs and takes a step back, moving like heโs waiting for you to step away from the door so he can leave. โSuit yourself.โ
โYou idiot,โ you scowl. โYou think you can just show up at my door and Iโll drop my pants? You think Iโm some kind of slut?โ
โNo, but I do think youโre desperate,โ he replies instantly.ย
โWow,โ you scoff. โYou sure know how to charm a lady.โ
โLook me in the eyes and tell me Iโm wrong,โ Spencer challenges. You roll your eyes at his self-assured tone, leveling him with an annoyed look.ย
โYouโre wrong,โ you state, heat creeping up your neck at the realization that itโs more difficult to lie to him than usual.
Perhaps youโre just tired of lying to yourself.
The corners of Spencerโs lips twitch into an irritatingly charming smirk. He croons, โThat was a good try, but I said my eyes, not my lips.โ
โFuck you,โ you hiss.
โYeah, youโd like that, wouldnโt you?โ he replies smoothly.ย
โYouโre goddamn annoying,โ you complain, uncrossing your arms and grabbing the door handle. Admittedly, your heartโs not completely into the notion of kicking him out, but youโll do it to avoid him having the upper hand. โHow about instead of assuming Iโm so obsessed with you, you ask yourself this: why would anyone want to be with someone whoโs so abrasive, and haughty, and authoritarianโโ
โBecause you like when Iโm authoritarian,โ Spencer confidently interrupts. For a moment, he waits for a response, likely expecting you to counter his statement with a petty argument. When you remain silent, glowering at himโthough itโs unclear whether youโre more pissed at him or yourselfโhe sighs and says, โFine, you donโt wanna admit it? I can go first. Iโve been crazy about you for a long time. The only reason I put up with your ginormous goddamn attitude is because I canโt stop thinking about kissing you to make you shut up.โ Your stomach drops at his confession, a flicker of heat sparking in your abdomen. Itโs been obvious that the two of you have been dancing around these feelings for some time now, but to hear him say so has your insides twisting with desire. โYou think Iโm abrasive? Well, Iโm not the one constantly degrading you because Iโm too much of a coward to admit that I actually like you.โ
Damn. It doesnโt necessarily feel good to be called out so explicitly, but heโs not wrong, per se. You have been a bit of a coward, using humor as a defense mechanism when youโve been sure that Spencer would reject you if you made your interest overt.ย
โThatโs some grand speech for a hookup,โ you mumble, still unwilling to drop your bravado.ย
โI donโt just want a hookup, but Iโll settle if thatโs what youโre into,โ Spencer admits. His face is, shockingly, a mask of cool indifference; while itโs usually so easy to fluster him, to get under his skin, he seems perfectly comfortable right now, like he hasnโt just been utterly vulnerable with you. Oh, how the tables have turned.ย
โIsnโt it kind of backwards to fuck and then go out to dinner?โ you question pointedly, quirking a brow.ย
โI did take you out for drinks earlier,โ Spencer responds easily. At this point, youโre still cornered against the door, and you lean against the wood for support. After all, his confession has you slightly winded, and you donโt trust your wobbly legs to keep you upright all on their own.ย
โFor a job,โ you argue.
โSemantics,โ he says dismissively.
โI knew you liked me,โ you answer, speaking more to yourself than to him.ย
โAnd I knew you were massively overcompensating with all your teasing,โ he replies, his unimpressed expression morphing into that familiar, smug countenance.ย
โTeasing?โ you repeat, brow furrowing as you innocently pout. โIโm not a tease.โ
Spencer takes a step closer once more, towering over you. He huffs with amusement, and his breath puffs across your face. Cracking an amused smile, he goads, โProve it.โ
You cock your head. โArenโt you gonna make me, Spence?โ
The bright grin drops off his face as he solemnly responds, โOnly if you call me โsirโ again.โ
Your heart stutters. You have half a mind to laugh, to write off what heโs just said as sarcasm, but something in his dark eyes gives you pause. โOh,โ you gasp, โare you serious?โ
He breaks character, devolving into a low chuckle. โFuck no.โ
Without further ado, his hands are cupping your jaw, and heโs tilting your face toward his. Your arms have been hanging limply at your sides since you uncrossed them, but they instinctively loop over his shoulders as he pulls you into a deep kiss. His movements are fiery and tender all at once, like heโs been fantasizing about this moment for far too long, but doesnโt want to rush things. His lips insistently press against yours, mouth moving in an expert rhythm.ย
His fingers trail your throat, falling to the nape of your neck as he pulls you impossibly closer. His thumbs are pressed against your pulse point, and youโre vaguely aware that he knows how rapidly your heart is racingโhow affected you are by his touch. The thought should embarrass you, but youโre too delighted by the feel of his body molding to the contours of your own to think twice about it.ย
While he had initially inched you closer to him, heโs now backing you against the door, seeking leverage as he continues to ravish you. Before you hit the wood, one of his hands tangles in your hair, simultaneously protecting your head from a blow while he holds you in place. The duality of his intentionsโthe combined need to protect you and consume youโdoesnโt go unnoticed as you continue to reciprocate his kiss.ย
Eventually, Spencerโs lips part from yours, and a breathy sigh escapes your lips before you can contain it. As he works to catch his own breath, he mutters, โYou know, thereโs something you said earlier that I canโt stop thinking about.โ
โI know, Iโm hilarious,โ you smirk, somehow able to feign confidence while your head is spinning, dizzy with the thought of surrendering control to him. โWhat in particular amused you?โ
โHow wrong you are about me,โ he answers, busying himself with peppering kisses across your jaw and down your neck. Between pecks, he clarifies, โHow you think Iโmโฆ vanilla?โ
โYou didnโt come here to ask me to join some sort of BDSM cult, did you?โ you attempt to tease, but your voice comes out breathy and very blatantly aroused.
โNo, nothing like that,โ he replies, huffing against your throat. Lifting his head to shoot you an amused glance, he teases, โWhy? Would that interest you?โ
โThatโs a good question,โ you shamelessly admit, unable to deny your fascination with the idea.ย
โHuh,โ Spencer hums, ducking his head again to continue laving at the junction of your neck and shoulder. He starts to lightly suck at the sensitive skin, and the pleasurable sting is enough to make you gasp, your grip tightening on his shoulders.ย
โIs Twenty Questions your idea of foreplay or something?โ you joke half-heartedly, cheeks burning as your arousal builds. With a mildly embarrassing whine in your tone, you complain, โI thought you said you wanted to help.โ
โOh, I do,โ Spencer promises, lifting his head to assess you through half-lidded eyes. โI was just curious.โ His gaze falls to your shirt, the material practically swallowing you. He drags a finger across the embroidery right above your sternum, smiling delightedly to himself. โThis is cute.โ
โI feel like youโre stalling. Trying to prepare a good line, are we?โ you taunt, though your chest is rapidly rising and falling beneath his touch. Youโre not fooling anyone, and you know it, but youโre stubborn as all hell.ย
โNot at all,โ Spencer denies with a minute shake of his head. His curls flop around, and youโre struck with an overwhelming temptation to run a hand through them. At the rate things are going, though, youโre guessing you have a good chance of doing so by the time the nightโs over. โIt looks good on you. Of course, it would look better on the floor, though.โ
โThere it is,โ you say flatly, pretending like his words donโt have you wanting to strip naked right then and there. Spencer hums knowingly, stepping away from you. Immediately, you crave his proximity, missing the warmth of his body against yours.ย
He nods over his shoulder, gesturing to your bed. โGo sit down.โ
Your mind fumbles to produce a witty response. You should tell him not to boss you around, that you wonโt listen to any man, that he can go to hell, butโฆย
Your feet carry you across the room, and youโre plopping down on the edge of the bed. You watch him expectantly; he hovers by the door for a mere second before following you, stopping right in front of you. Your knees are tightly pressed together, and your hands are clasped in your lap as you look up at him. The air feels dense with tension. Despite having already kissed him, you want so much more, that the desire threatens to suffocate you.ย
โI donโt want to fuck you,โ Spencer murmurs, and you practically hear a record scratch echo through the room. Your immense disappointment must show on your face, because he quickly amends, โI donโt want to fuck you tonight. But I do want to make you feel good.โ
One of his hands falls to your knee, gently coaxing your legs apart. He steps closer, slotting himself between your legs. You swallow thickly as you silently watch him, as his slender fingers drag up your barely-covered thighs and begin fiddling with the hem of your shirt.ย
โIโm gonna take this off now,โ he declares in a low voice. Despite his commanding tone, his brows lift in a concerned expression, seeking your agreement. โOkay?โ
Your heart lurches at the realization that youโre about to be half-naked in front of him, yet the thought is exceedingly exhilarating. You feel kind of pathetic for bowing to his whims so easily, but his promise has you slowly nodding your consent.
He lifts your shirt, slowly revealing your bare skin. Youโre so absurdly turned on by this entire ordeal that even the tiniest shift of fabric against your chest has your nipples hardening. Naturally, Spencerโs gaze flits to your breasts, his pupils blowing wide at the sight.ย
Then, he kneels between your legs, his hands settling on your waist. More specifically, the waistband of your shorts. You sit back on the heels of your palms, lifting your hips for him before he even has to askโor tell. While he had removed your shirt with a languid fluidity, he wastes no time tugging both your shorts and your underwear down your legs.
Your cheeks flush with heat once youโre bare before him. He takes a generous moment to stare at your glistening folds before dragging his attention back to your face. Seeing your evident embarrassment, he leans forward, pressing a gentle kiss to the inside of one thigh. The sensitive skin prickles under his touch.ย
His strong hands grip your hips, digging into the flesh as he guides you closer to the edge of the mattress. Once heโs satisfied with your position, he returns his focus back to the junction of your thighs.ย
He inches closer, nipping at the skin just beside your core. You jump at the sensation, but quickly relax as he soothes the spot with his tongue. He seems like heโs debating teasing you further, but he takes one look at your glistening folds, and heโs lapping at your arousal, dragging his tongue from your entrance to your clit in one smooth motion. You jolt, a hand instinctively clutching his hair for leverage as he starts to devour you.ย
His tongue swirls your clit, a light stimulation that sends electricity coursing through your abdomen. As a pleasured sigh escapes you, Spencer encircles your clit with his mouth, sucking on the sensitive bud.ย
His hands, which had been resting on your hips, keeping your legs spread for him, start to wander. One hand travels up your waist, cupping your tit and squeezing gently. You think you may come just from his ministrations thus far, but then his other hand snakes between your legs, and your heart skips a beat.ย
Collecting your arousal on his fingers, he prods at your entrance. It doesnโt take much effort to slip one digit into your sopping pussy; it quickly sinks inside of you, and you moan at the drag of his finger inside of you. He hums his approval against your clit, and the vibration only furthers your pleasure.
He crooks his finger against a spongy spot deep within you at the same time as his other hand toys with your nipple, the pinch going straight to your core. You feel yourself growing wetter around Spencerโs finger, and he must notice, too, because he carefully inches another one inside of you. While his fingers are slim, theyโre still thicker than yours, and thereโs a dull ache as he stretches you open. You try not to think about how many times he must have done this with other women in order to know just how long to give you to adjust to the feeling. After a short time, he crooks his fingers and begins pumping them in and out of your pussy, hand moving in time with his mouth.
You mewl, a pathetic little whimper that has him huffing against your core. You would be indignant at his response if you werenโt so fucking lost in arousal right now. Your thighs begin to tremble as he continues to lick and suck and fuck you open; his hand that had been fondling your breast moves to grip your thigh, holding you in place.
You moan, your breaths devolving into shaky little pants. Youโre helplessly gasping and whining as Spencer expertly works you toward your climax.ย
โSpence, fuckโโ you cry, stomach tightening as you race toward release. Heโs unrelenting, mouth practically attached to your pussy.
Like a taut rubber band, the pressure in your core threatens to snap. Youโre so close that tears are starting to burn in your eyes as you approach that intense pleasure. Your body tingles with the anticipation of it, but right when you feel yourself creeping over the edge, Spencer pulls back.ย
Cool air hits your core like a bucket of water dousing an inferno. Your hazy eyes snap to his as he retracts his fingers from inside of you.ย
โN-no,โ you whine, voice no more than a breath.
He sits back on his heels before rising from the floor, looking down at you with a devious glint in his eyes. Your mind runs through a list of the most insulting expletives you can conjure, and youโre about to unleash a snappy complaint when you stop yourself.
As promised, he had made you feel goodโbetter than good. Fucking incredible. Youโll be damned if you ruin this for yourself by telling him off. You can handle a little bit of edging. Itโs not ideal, but you can play this game how he clearly wants you to.ย
โP-please,โ you beg.ย
โAw, you sound so sweet,โ Spencer coos, settling onto the mattress. You glower at his mocking tone, but your face is bright red with a combination of arousal andโฆ something at his demeaning statement. He cracks a cheeky grin, tapping the tip of your nose as he says, โDonโt be embarrassed, baby. Please what?โ
You grit your teeth, admitting, โI wantโฆ more.โ
โYeah?โ he asks. Surely, heโs just feeling cocky and wants to hear once more how badly you want him. Asshole.
โMhm,โ you nod weakly.ย
Spencer leans toward you, brushing a sweaty strand of hair away from your ear as he murmurs, โThen stand up for me.โ
Your brow furrows in confusion at his command. Youโre not sure what to expect next, but youโre far too invested in the situation to refuse. You oblige, shakily rising from your seat and angling your body toward him, awaiting further instruction.
Spencer pats his clothed thigh and purrs, โSit right here.โ
You blink harshly, wondering what sort of gratification he would possibly get from you doing so. Youโre positively soaked, and you would only ruin his pants. You try to vocalize this thought, yet all that comes out is a soft, โButโฆโ
โWhat? You donโt wanna make a mess?โ he croons, clearly reveling in your suddenly shy demeanor. You jerkily shake your head, but your gaze darts to his lap, to his spread legs. He waits until your focus returns to his face before asking, โEven if I want you to?โ
You consider this for a moment. It would be super hot. โWellโฆโ
โOh, come on,โ he coaxes. โBe good.โ
You had told him earlier tonight that you didnโt like constantly being teased by him, but thereโs something so attractive about his mock praise in this context that has you wanting to do whatever he asks. So, after a minuscule internal debate, you step toward him, sinking onto his thigh. His hands immediately fall to your hips, holding you in place as you straddle his leg.
Heโs gotten you so damn worked up that the mere feeling of his flannel pants pressing against your clit has you holding back a shiver. Youโre desperate for friction, but youโre well aware that doing this means that things will change between youโmore than they already have, that isโand that you can never go back.ย
โAtta girl,โ Spencer praises, thumbs brushing against your bare hips. His fingers are dangerously close to kneading your ass, and you would almost prefer if he would start guiding your movements. Yet, heโs looking at you expectantly, waiting for you to make a move. โWhat?โ
โโS embarrassing,โ you complain in a small whisper, unable to stop a dismayed pout from crossing your face. He grins in response, clearly enjoying finally having reduced you from a confident brat to a submissive little lamb.
โAw, donโt be embarrassed,โ he tuts. โYou wanna come, donโt you?โ
โMhm,โ you hum reluctantly.
โPretty girl, all you have to do is roll your hips,โ he says, patting them in encouragement. As desperate as you are to feel some release, thereโs something vaguely humiliating about getting yourself off in front of him. Your embarrassment is only heightened when he teasingly instructs, โCโmon, put on a little show for me.โ
You scowl at him, narrowing your eyes at the humorous lilt in his voice. To spite himโor perhaps to tease yourselfโyou shift forward slightly, dragging your core along his thigh. You had meant the motion to be a stubborn display, to appear like youโre not as helplessly interested in him as you are, but the friction is delicious, and the tension in your body starts to melt away.
โThatโs it. Just like that,โ Spencer murmurs, gripping your hips tighter as you resign yourself to grinding against his leg. โThat feel good?โ
โMhm,โ you confirm, quickly losing yourself in the sensation of rocking against him. Once more, your clit catches on the fabric of his pants, and you bite your lip to suppress a satisfied groan.
โYouโre so cute, getting all worked up like this,โ he praises, and his words resonate deep in your stomach, adding to the building tension there.ย
He had brought you so close to orgasm moments ago that itโs not long at all before youโre rutting in his lap with fervor, abdomen tightly coiled with your impending climax. Once more, little whimpers and moans tumble from your lips, and their increased volume indicates that youโre close to coming.
โStop,โ Spencer commands, his fingers digging into your hips as he holds you in place. Heโs not gripping you tight enough to truly prevent you from continuing to grind on him, but that submissive part of your brain obediently freezes.
โNo, Spence, pleaseโโ you whine.
โHey, itโs okay,โ he promises, lifting one hand to card his fingers through your damp hair. He meets your gaze with dark, lust-filled eyes. โJust for a second, alright?โ
โMm, wannaโฆโ you whimper.ย
โI know, baby. I know,โ he coos, smoothing your tousled hair.ย
โPlease, can Iโฆ?โ you plead.ย
โYou gonna make yourself come all over my thigh?โ he asks, a satisfied smirk tugging at his lips. You hang your head, panting at the sight of his clothed erection just inches away from the mess youโve made on his thigh.
โMhm,โ you hum.
โGo ahead,โ he permits, loosening his hold on your hips just enough so that you can move freely again.ย
โThank youโฆโ you breathe, instantly returning to your desperate pace. As you continue to rut against him, dragging your pussy along his thigh, he grips your neck, pulling you into a searing kiss. His tongue delves into your mouth, and you can taste your arousal on his lips.
Youโre so worked up, you think you may sob as your orgasm begins to wash over you in an all-consuming wave. You unseal your lips from his, huffing against his mouth, โGod, โm gonnaโฆ ahโฆ.โ
โI got you,โ he assures you. โGo ahead, baby.โ
โMmโฆ ahโฆโ you moan, riding his thigh for all youโre worth. Mercifully, you finally come, and the sensation causes your vision to dance with dark spots and your body to erupt in a pleasant tingle. You yelp, biting your lip to hold back a scream. All of Spencerโs teasing has only ensured that when you finally reach the precipice, you have the most intense orgasm of your life.ย
Your hips still to a halt as you tremble on top of him. Youโre left feeling absolutely boneless, a satisfying warmth blooming in your abdomen. As you puff and gasp for air, Spencer peppers your face with tender kisses.
โSo good,โ he murmurs. โYouโre so good.โ
For a moment, you allow yourself to be the recipient of his unadulterated affection. Once the initial wave of bliss passes, however, the reality of the situation comes crashing down on you, and you bury your face in your hands.ย
โOh God,โ you groan. โOh my God, that was so embarrassing.โ
โIf by โembarrassingโ, you mean ridiculously fucking hot,โ Spencer quips. When a moment passes and you still havenโt met his eyes, he starts pressing a kiss to each knuckle on your fingers. His gentle touch is enough to have you lowering your hands and glancing at him with a worried look.
โThere was one thing you were right about earlier, by the way,โ he notes.
โYeah?โ you ask nervously. โWhatโs that?โ
โThis is like my horny dreams,โ he replies lightheartedly, though his expression suggests that he is anything but joking.ย
You huff, smiling sheepishly as you mutter, โFuck off.โ
โWhat?โ he squawks, slapping a hand to his chest in an offended gesture. โI mean, sure, I can go handle this myself, but Iโd much rather stay.โ His gaze falls to the tent in his pants, and then he looks up at you through his lashes, a hopeful sparkle in his eyes.ย
โYouโre not invited,โ you decree, clambering off his lap and standing up.
โAw. Shame,โ he tuts, clearly unconvinced. Then, seeking clarification, he meekly asks, โReally?โ
Echoing his words from earlier, you declare, โFuck no,โ before mimicking his actions and moving to kneel before him.
The two of you have quite the night ahead of you, but youโre going to make the most of it. After all, itโs been a long time coming.
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Being an FBI agent was already time consuming, being a busy female FBI agent with a pretty face? Didn't make finding a partner any easier. Question was, were you really busy or were you waiting for the right man?
wc: 4.8k
tags: fluff! slightly suggestive (?)
author's note: i was so excited to finally attempt this idea, hopefully i executed it well!
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Maintaining a dating life was hard while being an FBI agent. Being an FBI agent and female? Dates could become very entertaining once you revealed your job of choice. Most men were arrogant or didnโt believe you until you pulled the badge out of your purse. Other men were very opinionated at the fact that a woman of all people would be able to join the FBI. All this meant that majority of dates fell flat, and you didnโt even concern yourself about the comments they spilled at the dinner table. You enjoyed your job, you enjoyed helping people, why should it matter what a man who worked in a cubicle crunching numbers said?
Penelope, with the help of Emily, liked to sign you up for dating websites, sometimes with or without your knowledge. Which meant that occasionally after a long day, theyโd be pushing you out the door while telling you all about this โgreat guyโ they knew who was waiting to meet you at a restaurant near by. Now, you were far from desperate for a boyfriend, clearly you were doing fine getting by on your own. Yet, you recognized the way men looked at you, even during cases, no matter what area of the country you were in, a man would always come up to you with a trashy pick up line or an outright vulgar comment.
You were no celebrity, but you were quite the eyesore for someone who belonged to a group of the FBI. But, your job was more important than your dating life, clearly having no time for it anyhow. The rest of the team knew how hardworking you were, always staying later in the office filling in reports or working hard to add more to profiles. So, when they suggested to get drinks on a Friday night, you thought twice about your answer.
โCome on, one drink is not going to kill you,โ Emily nudged as she sat on the edge of your desk, looking down at the way you typed quickly, your eyes still on the computer screen. โWell, that date that you and Pen sent me on last night did, I need to catch up on what I missedโ the constant clacking keyboard at high speed making her ears ring.
She sighed as she looked around the office, โEven Hotch is joining us tonight, he knows we all deserve a break after that last caseโ she said in a persuasive tone, almost trying to inflict some fear of missing out in you. Your typing stopped abruptly, now swivelling your chair towards where she sat. โFine, one night onlyโ you gave in once you saw her pleading eyes, she would have persisted even if you hadnโt agreed. A smile grew on her face immediately, already on her way to go tell the rest of the team you would be joining.
Once work was officially over, you hesitantly got up from your desk and closed your computer, wanting nothing more to stay back and continue. After grabbing your coat and purse, you made your way to the glass doors of the BAU. Half the team were already standing there, laughing away at something said between Penelope and Morgan. โAnd there she is, the busiest lady of the centuryโ Emily bumped your shoulder, to which you rolled your eyes at the comment. โSorry for wanting to get my work done in advance guysโ a small smirk made its way onto your face.
โSheโs not wrong,โ Spencer began as he came up behind you, finally arriving to the group. โTechnically, itโs better to finish everything first so while youโre out, your brain focuses less on what still waits for you once you returnโ he explained, gesturing with his hands as he spoke to which you allowed your eyes to linger on the movement. The whole group was stifling their laughs behind your back, โExactly, thank you for understanding, Spencerโ you threw a smile his way, turning around to the rest of the group once more. โNow, whereโs boss one and two?โ you joked with a hand on your hip.
As if they heard your question, the two finally appeared, hesitancy written all over Hotchnerโs face meanwhile Rossi looked excited to talk over drinks. Finally, you made your way down the building and down the street to the local bar. You were one of the firsts in the booth, sitting in the middle with Spencer squished beside you. โSorry, Penelopeโs a little pushyโ you whispered in his ear, the amount of noise around the two of you increasing. He watched the way you place your hand delicately on his arm as you continued speaking in whispers. โWhat do you want to drink?โ You leaned back now, looking for his reaction to your question. His brows furrowed, eyes averted from your face to which you took as deep in thought.
Yet, the dim lighting was helping his case, the heat rising from his chest and up his neck at the way your hot breath had fanned his ear. He now approached you slowly, steadying himself by placing his hand on the edge of the table, bringing his own mouth to your ear, โWhat are you having?โ You leaned back, yourself now deep in thought, you hadnโt even thought that far, your mind still on the documents that waited on your desk. โI think Iโm just going to have a margarita,โ your hand still rested on his arm as you answered his question straight into his ear.
The rest of the team busy, Penelope joking about doing body shots off of Morgan, JJ waiting to go ask the bartender the order, and the rest trying to convince Penelope to not do body shots off of Morgan. โI think Iโll just have a club soda,โ Spencer approached you once more, knuckles white as he gripped the table, voice practically quivering at the continuous warm breath tickling his neck.
You backed away for the last time, a smile resting on your face as your glance went from him to JJ across the table. Raising slightly, now leaning over the barโs table, your voice louder than the other conversations below you, โa margarita and a club soda!โ JJ gave you a nod, walking off to the bartender to give him the tableโs order.
The team now turned to you, Penelope giving you a knowing smirk with Morganโs arm over her shoulder.โSo, how was last nightโs date?โ She raised her eyebrows suggestively, to which you deadpanned at. โYouโre not serious, that man didnโt even last through dinner! He asked me what I do for a living, I told him I work for a unit in the FBI, he thought I was trying to gaslight him.โ Your brows furrowing the more you spoke, not wanting to willingly recall the previous night. โReallyโฆ?โ Her face fell slightly at your words, she truly thought she had found you a good match.
Spencer beside you now speaking with Hotchner on something work related, ever the over worker, just like yourself. You held an ear out for the conversation, more interesting to you than the men who constantly thought your choice of a job was unsuitable for a woman with your looks. โAnywho, truly stop signing me up for blind dates because if one other man takes up my precious work time, I might have to set fire to your precious computer room, thanks Pen!โ She gasped playfully, knowing thereโs no real malice behind your words.
Thankfully for you, the drinks arrived and you were quick to grab yours. You werenโt an alcohol enjoyer usually, but a few drinks after back to back stressful cases did aid in soothing the mind. But, after shooting down a couple of margaritas, you somehow found yourself on the dance floor of the bar with the ladies of the team.
โGod, do I love this song!โ You said a little too excited as you swayed your hips, hitting every beat to the typical 2000s song that played through the speakers. Dancing in somewhat unison, Morgan was watching from the table with a grin growing on his face. Rossi and Hotch paying less attention, nothing new from you ladies, but would still claim responsibility over all of you like the good father figures they were. Spencer couldnโt keep his eyes off you even if he tried. And oh, did he. Morgan caught this, a deep chuckle erupted from his chest at how lovestruck Spencer seemed as he watched the way you moved.
He couldnโt even recognize the tense woman who was either always glued to her office chair or with files fused in her hand as she now danced with her hair down. Mouth slightly agape as if he couldnโt believe the sight, Morgan scooted closer to Spencer, โyouโre staringโ he teased as he set down his half empty glass. As if he snapped Spencer out of his gaze, he jumped slightly at the sound of the voice beside him. Red ears gave him away, clearly he had been caught as if he thought he wasnโt being obvious.
โWhoever ends up with that one is a lucky man,โ Morgan continued almost to get more of a response out of the man sitting next to him. โIf only sheโd take the time to really find a guy, sheโs always working late. Itโs like that cubicle is her second home.โ He took a swig of his drink, watching the way Spencer seemed to want to speak up on your behalf, almost as if to say โwhatโs so wrong with being dedicated to your work?โ Morgan knew Spencer well enough to know he thought of you as highly intelligent and responsible.
Out of the group, you always gravitated towards the so-called โpretty boyโ of their team. Almost two peas in a pod, you constantly had both your noses buried in files, and got along splendidly as he had observed from the way you spoke together during the plane rides to cases in other states. Penelope and Emily seemed to be in the dark about how he felt about you, Morgan keeping his observations to himself. He wouldโve like to tease Spencer more about it, having the whole team pestering him to the point where he would have had enough and out right tell you how he felt.
โNow, Penelope seems to think sheโs uninterested in dating, but from what Iโve seen, that girlโs waiting for the right man to come alongโ Spencer caught the glimmer in Morganโs eye, almost as if to hint at something the former didnโt know. He cleared his throat, looking into his own glass of clear liquid, gulping at the thoughts that roamed in his brain unwillingly.
Did he wish he had a chance with you? Of course, you were truly a sight for sore eyes and you were such a joy to be around once he finally got past your shyness. He enjoyed nothing more than your talks in the early morning when the office was still somewhat empty, handing over a cup of coffee just the way you liked it that he happened to have time to pick up.
You were always thankful for how observant he was with you. He knew you through and through, the way you took your coffee, the snacks you liked from the vending machine and how you constantly had your files organized in alphabetical order, even as they laid on your desk waiting to be reviewed.
So, now as he sat in the barโs booth looking at the way you enjoyed yourself on the dance floor. Hair flying free, hips swaying, drink still in hand and raised high as you dipped slightly in your kitten heels, he had never seen a more beautiful sight. The song ended too quickly much to his chagrin, now making room for you to sit back down next to him as you approached the table. A stumble in your step and giggles pouring out of your lips indicated the amount of alcohol you had that night, much more than your typical dosage.
โGod, that was so much fun!โ You exclaimed, setting your empty glass down on the table a little too hard. The other ladies also seemed a little dazed, leaning on one another as you now leaned your body towards Spencer. โWhy canโt more men take me out dancing? Now, this is my kind of dateโ you complained in Penelopeโs direction which she answered in a cackle, setting you off to laugh alongside her.
He welcomed the warmth that was now rubbing up against him, the scent of your shampoo still lingering. Hotchner and Rossi had already left due to the late hour, the booth now containing more room than there was initially. Yet, you still kept yourself close to Spencer, like two magnets. Or at least that was what Morgan was thinking as he watched the sight before his eyes. Spencer wanting nothing more than to evaporate into thin air at that very moment due to the way Morgan was staring, almost as if to say โsee? she wants you pretty boy.โ Which meant nothing to him because you were drunk and clearly not in the right state of mind to be intentionally leaning up against him.
And now somehow, you ended up in the passenger seat of Spencerโs car. The radio was playing low, some classical music that must have been coming from a CD he inserted earlier in the day. Almost acting as an anchor for him to keep his head steady on his shoulders and not look at you beside him. As he got in the car earlier, he watched the way the moonlight shined on your face, the way your lips glistened due to the copious amount of chapstick you consistently applied, even while drunk.
The peak of the song brought him back to the road, he was still in the midst of driving after all. Itโs not the first time he had brought you back, the last time after a long case trip where you had forgotten your car keys in the already locked office. You brought him back to the moment as you finally spoke up, the sounds of your shifting in the seat alerting him that you were in fact not sleeping.
โMen truly suck, you know?โ Your words were slurred slightly, head leaning against the rest looking in his direction. Your eyes trailed along his profile, from his forehead to the slope of his nose, to his lip until the tip of his chin. Until now, you never really allowed yourself to look at him so directly. He didnโt answer your question, almost sounding rhetorical because he already knew the answer. Yes.
โEven the ones that I like,โ you paused for a beat, taking a large breath โthey donโt notice that I like them and you would think they would, right? I mean look at me,โ you huffed. He was clearly trying not to. Especially with how you were now crossing your arms over your chest, accentuating your figure and the curve of your breasts in your tight office blouse even in the dim lighting of the night. He cleared his throat, eyes darting back to what mattered. Driving. The road.
You continued to ramble, ignorant to the thoughts swirling in his mind, โbut heโs so completely oblivious and Iโm tired of itโ And he paused at your use of a pronoun, luckily arriving at a stop sign. The street was deserted, so he stayed a second longer than he needed to.
โI didnโt know you had your eye on someone,โ he gulped, swallowing his feelings down. Even if it was obvious through the tone of his voice, you clearly didnโt acknowledge it in your drunken state. Of course you had found someone you liked. Penelope and Emily with their never ending blind dates were bound to work one day. His grip on the steering wheel tightened, reminding him back to how he gripped the table in the bar, ensuring to not lay a hand on you like you had him. He still can feel the ghost of a touch on his arm, the way your hot breath tickled his neck as you whispered ever so gently.
Sadly, he didnโt get an answer in response because he had now arrived at your front door. He quickly parked then ran across to open your door, wanting to help you up out of the passenger seat safely. At all the thoughts that swarmed his head, he attempted to shake them away. He didnโt get jealous. He was calm and cool-headed. As he grabbed your wrists, he pulled you up and out of the car. Took you a few seconds to balance onto your feet, still wobbling as he closed the car door behind you. โWhere are your keys?โ He asked as he kept a close arm on the middle of your back faintly.
You suddenly lifted your arms after walking up the front steps of your home. โSearch meโ he recognized the tone in your voice. You were teasing him even in your drunken stupor. โReal funny,โ your actions enabling a smirk on his face, now illuminated by your porch light. You fluttered your arms, yet he watched the look on your own face. The playful smile that rested on your lips matched the arch of your brow.
He saw you in such a different light earlier, carefree and nowhere near like the overworking girl in the cubicle next to him. But now, at the sight of you being playful with a hint of vulnerability to your actions, he liked this version the most. Clearly showing signs of trust towards him, you wanted him to take the time to search you. He couldnโt tell if you would do this with anyone else, and he knows heโll never know the answer to that question either.
Yet, he followed your instructions regardless, delicate hands passing down your arms through the pockets of your coat. The action itself bringing him closer to you, now looming over you as his fingers dug through the pockets, eyes staring into yours making the process seem more intimate than it truly was.
Before he knew it, you leaned forward just barely and he couldnโt tell if it was due to the moment or the fact that you were still off balance. Yet, he still wouldnโt allow himself for this to be the moment where he met your lips for the first time. He would feel as though he took advantage of you, despite you being the one to approach him first. He just couldnโt do that to you.
He backed away, hands now resting on your shoulders to stop your action before you regretted it the next morning. Well, thatโs if youโd even remember tonight. You narrowed your eyes at the action, not really having any awareness of what youโre doing in the current moment. โDid you find my keys?โ You mumbled, body leaning against the hold he continued to have on you. Freeing one hand, he jingled the keys in front of you with the other, a tight-lipped smile on his face.
He opened your front door, leading you inside safely and then up to your bed. You practically dived into the mess of sheets, heels falling off as you kicked your legs in a childish manner. Spencer had never truly entered your room. Sure, heโs been to your house when you hosted for the group every so often.
You were busy, but you never seemed too busy for your fellow teammates. Somehow always making time to invite them over for holidays, yet still grumbled about all the work the following week would present you with at the dinner table.
He admired the paintings hung on your wall, he didnโt peg you for the art collector type. The faint glow of your bedside lamp illuminated your already sleeping figure, he stared at the way your hair spread across the pillow. Tucking your legs underneath your covers, he then closed the light and stood there for a moment.
Almost as if a thought that he didnโt want to follow through with had occurred in his mind, he quickly glanced away from you. He made his way downstairs and locked the door behind him, driving away with warmth spreading through his chest as he relived the moments of tonight.
The next morning was extremely unpleasant. The drive to the BAU was filled with traffic, the pounding headache had lasted throughout the entire ride, and the sun was too bright for a morning like the one you were having. Grumbling to yourself as you walked to your cubicle, for once you were annoyed with the amount of work that rested on your desk. The other girls of the group were in the kitchen, you could hear the collective groaning from where you put your bag down.
โGreat, so itโs not just me who feels like exploding?โ You voiced as you rubbed your forehead, your free hand grabbing your mug from the cupboard to finally have your morning coffee. In unison, you all winced at how loud the cupboard closed. Morgan walked over from behind, a large grin on his face like he just won the prized pony.
Penelope groaned, โitโs not funny, misterโ then took a sip of her coffee. โOh, but it is babygirl, you shouldโve seen you ladies dancing last nightโ a chuckle left his lips as he held his own warm mug in his hands. Your eyes widened, โthereโs no way thatโs trueโฆโ you stated as you poured milk into your coffee, the dark turning a now milky brown. He gave you a curt nod, that smug smile still on his face.
โPlease tell me we didnโt do anything embarrassingโฆโ you lamented, your head down in defeat as you awaited to hear what he had to say. โYou girls were wild, dancing on tables, twirling around with your fruity drinks in your hands, it was a crazy sightโ he began as Spencer approached. You looked over to him now, eyes practically pleading. โPlease tell me what he just said isnโt true,โ to which Morgan gave Spencer a little nudge.
โIt isnโt true, but there was a lot of dancing involvedโ he answered with his hands in his pockets, unsure why Morgan was now giving him a look. Emily sighed like her dignity was saved, hand on her chest as she held a relieved look on her face. With your mug in hand, you walked over to your cubicle, not wanted to hear more about what happened the previous night.
Spencer eventually arrived back to his own desk which was situated beside yours, his own steaming mug resting on a coaster. Instead of sitting down and getting back to work, he came to stand next to you. โYou stated that you were sick of men,โ he began which startled you, still not fully there mentally.
โExcuse me?โ You raised your brows, not understanding where this was coming from. Not that the words he uttered were shocking, but more the lack of context at his remark. He nervously crossed his arms in front of his chest. โWhen I drove you home, but the whole night if Iโm being honestโ he continued, finally clueing you into what transpired last night.
You shook your head, โwait- you drove me home last night?โ the grip on your mug tightening as you furrowed your brows. His eyes widened, you really didnโt remember much from the previous night. โOhโฆ yeah you said something about some guy you had your eye on not noticing your advancesโ he paused for a second, almost trying to recall your exact words as if he didnโt have an eidetic memory. โYou said that even the ones you want to notice you donโt, you seemed pretty bummedโฆ despite being obviously pretty buzzed.โ
You groaned, head hitting the back of your chair as you looked up to the dull ceiling. โYeahโฆ well, I guess thatโs just menโ the sigh that left you was one of frustration, he watched the way you seemed to be in surrender. โI have no doubt someone will eventually be the right guy, youโre just too good for all of usโ he had let out a small laugh, nervous but coming off as dry. Your eyes trailed to his face, the anxious expression that was written all over it as you studied his features.
Suddenly, you remembered doing the same action the night before in the passenger seat of his car. โI didnโt know you had your eye on someone,โ the words now ringing in your head. Had he truly not noticed the way you acted around him? Sure, you werenโt all over him at every given moment. But he must have noticed how different you were around him than around the others, right?
He continued to talk about the conversations that transpired in the barโs booth, but you began to tune him out as your eyes narrowed. You followed his movements, the way his hands mimicked the words he was saying, and the tilt of his head as he spoke. You gulped, just now getting another flashback to the way his hands searched your jacket prompted by you even though you would never be that forward in a million years.
You always had the mindset of work coming first. If there was free time, there was more work to be done, even if that was outside of the office. So, when Penelope and Emily first approached you with a blind date you begrudgingly gave it a try, already having it in your mind that it was a waste of time. And you were right. But not only because the man was as dull as they came, but you already had your heart set on someone who understood the workload and stress of the job.
Never having the courage to act on it though, the brief moments of your racing heart was the only thing you allowed yourself to enjoy in your few moments of break. You never permitted yourself to more than just those few fleeting seconds, was that why he never noticed? It was an unconventional way, you knew that. But, you had hoped it would seem a little more noticeable than it actually was.
โSpencer,โ you spoke up, stopping him mid sentence. You mustered up the courage to put a hand on his where he sat on the edge of your desk. โYou know,โ you began, slightly tremble in your voice despite the extreme amount of confidence flowing through your system at the very moment. โFor you, Iโm never busyโ you looked up into his eyes, searching for an understanding to what youโre attempting to say. โYouโre the exception from my own rules, got it?โ The slight tilt of your head is when it finally clicked in his head, almost as if it put an emphasis on your words.
Were you actually trying to let him know that youโd rather be with him over engulfing yourself in the multiple files that scattered your desk? Hinting that you would leave the busy life youโve built for yourself to spend time with him? He searched your eyes, noticing the way your brows furrowed and the small smile that appeared on your face as he explored your features. It was like deciphering a code of some sort, trying to understand the meaning behind your wording.
You werenโt one to be outright bold, he knew that. He knew you. Your advances for anything were timid and reserved, just like yourself. So, now that he cracked the code of you, what was he going to respond? He wanted it to be obvious to you in a way that only the two of you would understand.
โYouโre willing to accommodate for me?โ A smirk made its way onto his face, accentuating the weight of his words. The smile on your lips grew at his comprehension. Now placing your hand in his, the same one from moments before, he intertwined your fingers discreetly. โWell, Iโm glad you can make room for me in your busy scheduleโ he voiced, his thumb caressing the back of your hand as if it was already second nature.
You gulped at the gesture, never allowing yourself to feel more than this. Sure, youโve dreamed of it, but only during the allotted hour of break you had scheduled daily during work. Now, those fantasies can be a reality with him at your side, maybe eventually slowly shedding that constantly occupied mindset as time passes on.
โNow, I need you to tell me what other stupid things I did last nightโ you leaned back into your chair as you continued to share warmth through your intertwined hands. โYou sure you have time?โ His own face now concerned, you had just sat down to begin the day. You shrugged, โIโve got timeโ your smile now beaming in his direction, allowing yourself to relax and be in the moment. Those color coded files can wait another fifteen minutes.
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summary: spencer accidentally let it slip that he has a wife, but he thought that they knew
The bullpen is louder than usual.
A case just closed โ messy, exhausting, emotionally draining โ but closed. And that always brings a certain kind of restless energy to the team.
โAlright,โ Derek announces, spinning slightly in his chair. โWe deserve a drink. Real one. Not whateverโs been fermenting in the break room coffee pot.โ
Emily snorts. โSeconded.โ
โThirded,โ JJ adds, already grabbing her bag.
Spencer doesnโt look up at first. Heโs reorganizing his go-bag with that meticulous focus he gets when heโs trying to decompress.
Hotch gives a small nod. โOne hour. Then home.โ
Morgan leans back in his chair and eyes Spencer. โYou in, Pretty Boy?โ
Spencer finally looks up, blinking like he just remembered heโs in a room full of people.
โOh, um.โ He glances at his watch. โI actually should probably head home.โ
Morgan frowns dramatically. โSince when do you skip celebratory drinks?โ
Spencer shrugs. Casual, almost too casual.
โMy wife doesnโt love when I get back too late after a case. It messes with our routine.โ
Silence.
Not the normal end-of-shift shuffle silence.
The kind where the air changes.
Emily freezes mid-zip of her purse. JJ slowly turns around. Morganโs smile drops.
โโฆYour what?โ he asks carefully.
Spencer blinks at him, โMy wife.โ
Morgan stands up fully now. โYour what?โ
Spencer looks genuinely confused. โMy wife? Why are you repeating it like that?โ
โReid,โ Emily says slowly, โyou donโt have a wife.โ
Spencer stares at her, โYes, I do.โ
JJโs eyebrows shoot up. โSince when?โ
Spencerโs forehead creases like theyโre the ones being ridiculous, โSince 2012.โ
Morganโs mouth actually falls open. โTwo thousand andโ Reid that was years ago.โ
โYes,โ Spencer says patiently. โThatโs generally how time works.โ
โSpencer,โ JJ says gently, โwe would know if you were married.โ
Spencerโs lips press together in mild disbelief, โI assumed you did know.โ
โHow?โ Morgan practically shouts.
Spencer gestures vaguely. โI wear a ring?โ
All of them look down. He does. A simple silver band. Always has. They just never clocked it. It blended in with his watch and the ink stains and the everything else that is Spencer Reid.
Emily steps closer. โYouโre serious.โ
Spencer exhales softly. โOf course Iโm serious. Why would I joke about that?โ
Morgan runs a hand over his head. โOkay, okay. Hold up. Youโre married. To who?โ
Emily crosses her arms. โSo let me get this straight. Youโve been married for over a decade and weโve never met her?โ
Spencer blinks. โWellโฆ yes.โ
Morgan points at him. โThatโs insane.โ
Spencer looks offended. โItโs not insane.โ
โItโs a little insane,โ JJ says gently.
Spencer shakes his head, standing now, suddenly protective in a way theyโve never seen before.
โSheโs not a secret,โ he insists. โI justโฆ I donโt bring her into this.โ
Morgan narrows his eyes. โWhy not?โ
Spencer goes quiet for a moment.
And when he speaks again, his voice is softer. Not defensive anymore. Just honest.
โBecause this job takes things.โ
The room stills.
โShe met me when I was just starting at the BAU. Before any of theโฆ really bad stuff.โ He swallows. โSheโs seen what this job does. To all of us.โ
Emilyโs expression softens.
Spencer continues.
โShe was there when I couldnโt sleep after my first execution-style case. She sat with me and read out loud because I couldnโt get the images out of my head.โ
JJโs eyes glisten.
โShe was there when my momโs condition got worse. When I didnโt know how to handle it. She learned about schizophrenia just so she could understand what I grew up with.โ
Morgan shifts, quieter now.
โAnd when Iโโ
Spencer stops.
The prison memory hangs heavy in the air without him even saying it.
His jaw tightens.
โWhen I was in prison,โ he finishes softly, โshe visited every week. Even when I told her not to.โ
Emily inhales slowly.
Spencerโs voice steadies, โShe wrote to me every day. She memorized the visitor protocols. She advocated for me when no one else could. She never once doubted that Iโd come home.โ
Morganโs teasing expression is completely gone now.
โShe kept our apartment exactly the same,โ Spencer continues, almost like heโs replaying it in his mind. โShe said she didnโt want me walking into something unfamiliar.โ
JJ wipes at her eye discreetly.
Spencer looks down at his ring, โSheโs been there for every version of me. The anxious twenty-something. The grieving son. The addict. The inmate. The profiler who canโt always leave work at work.โ
His lips twitch faintly, โSheโs the only constant Iโve ever had.โ
The room is completely silent.
Morgan finally speaks, softer than theyโve ever heard him.
โWhy didnโt you tell us?โ
Spencer hesitates, โBecause this job makes enemies,โ he says quietly. โAnd I could never forgive myself if something happened to her because of me.โ
That lands harder than expected.
Hotch nods once. He understands that logic more than anyone.
Emily steps forward slightly. โSo you justโฆ what? Go home every night and we never knew?โ
Spencer gives a small shrug, โYes.โ
Morgan exhales slowly. โReid, thatโs not something small.โ
Spencer tilts his head, โItโs not small to me.โ
Thereโs no arrogance in it. Just certainty.
โShe makes me dinner when I forget to eat. She leaves sticky notes in my books when she knows Iโll be stressed. She reminds me that Iโm more than my IQ and my trauma.โ
His voice softens again, โShe married me when I was still figuring out how to exist in the world. Thatโs not small.โ
JJ smiles through tears. โDoes she know what you do?โ
โYes.โ
โAnd sheโs okay with it?โ
Spencer nods, โShe worries. But she says sheโd rather love me in a dangerous world than not love me at all.โ
Morgan shakes his head slowly, โReid, thatโs real.โ
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pairing: spencer reid x reader
warnings: none, fluff wc:368
Spencer's breath ghosted over the sensative skin of your neck, and as tempting as it was to cave in to the pleading of his soft brown eyes, you lightly swatted his shoulder mumbling a quiet protest.
The grey-ish green blanket slid down as he rolled onto his side of the bed, grumbling under his breathโnot actually annoyned, but rather to make his discontentment with your decisions known.
"Just five more minutes," he whined, looking up at you with the best puppy-dog eyes he could master at such an ungodly hour/through a thick fog of sleep.
"Nope," you chuckled, playfully pinching his side. Spencer bucked away with a startled laugh, but before you could go in for more, his hand shot out. His fingers clamped around your wrist, yanking you flush against him.
"Noโ" you protested, feet kicking as you tried to wiggle out of his reach. It was no use, you were alredy a tangled mess. With your back pressed to his chest, his arms locked you and a leg hooked over your hipโyou were trapped. "No, Spenceโ"
"Hey," he hummed, seemingly unfazed by your whining. His lips trailed down the side of your face, peppering your skin with soft, lazily kisses. Any protest you could possibly have died in your throat. You made another weak attempt to break free, unwilling to give him the satisfaction of knowing that he won just yet.
But the way you melted further into him with every gentle press of his lips was a clear giveaway.
You let out a small huff, rolling your eyes, but when you muttured a quiet "Hey," under you breath, any trace of real annoynce had already vanishedโnot that there was much to begin with.
"Five more minutes," Spencer pleaded in such a sweet tone of voice, you stood no chance. With a groan so heavy one could think think you were making a great sacrifice, you slumped back against him, tugging the duvet higher around you both.
"Just five more," you warned, but your eyelids were already growing heavier.
"Mhm," his nose brushed against your hair, inhaling the sweet strawberry scent of your shampoo as he tried to suspend a smirk. "that's all I'm asking for."
a/n: this is @mariposaylโs coffee order for my 100 follower special and i looooove!!! tysm for the request!! your receipt is at the bottom :))
summary: you want spencer to show you how much he wants you, and accidentally push it too far.
content warnings: spencer reid x fem!reader, drinking, alcohol, intoxication, reader is kinda flirting on purpose, jealousyyyy, maybe a lil eensy weensy suggestive at the end if you squint
Spencer Reid does not get jealous. Like, ever.
For a long time, it hadnโt bothered you. In fact, it was the oppositeโ you spent time bragging to your friends about how he wasnโt controlling like most men, how he didnโt care what you wore or who you went out with. It was freeing. It was healthy.
Recently, however, Spencer had become a lot busier. Cases were constantly stealing him away from you. His phone ringing had become regular background noise to your time spent together. He wasnโt necessarily distant, but less time together sure made it feel that way.
When he invited you out to drinks with the team one night, you happily accepted. You enjoyed his coworkers, and his company. You put on one of your favorite outfits, the kind that always got you compliments from the drunk girls in the bathroom.
โYou look great,โ Spencer smiled when you greeted him at the door.
โThanks!โ You grinned, giving a little twirl so he could appreciate the whole outfit.
He drove you to the bar, asking about your day on the ride there. He likely wouldnโt be drinking, so he always offered to serve as a designated driver for you.
His teammates greeted you as you arrived. They appeared to have started without the both of you, with Garcia nearly knocking you over as she ran to embrace you.
โHello, my darling angel!โ She gushed, pulling you into a hug once she got her footing back. โOh, I have missed you! Iโm so glad youโre hanging out with us tonight!โ
โI missed you guys too.โ You laughed. โIโm gonna grab a drink.โ
โOh, we already ordered you one!โ Garcia smiled, pulling you over to the table with Spencer in tow. โYou ordered it last time and said you loved it, so I figured weโd start you off!โ
โYou didnโt have to do that. Thank you.โ You took your seat, taking a sip of your drink.
It was easy to lose track of time when talking to them, and before you knew it, Emily was presenting you with a tray of shots.
โWhoa, what is this?โ You asked, eyeing the liquid warily.
โTequila.โ Emily said with terrifying calm.
โOh, I donโt do tequila.โ You waved a hand in dismissal.
โYou do tonight!โ She placed a shot in front of everyone (including you), and with a quick clink and a โcheersโ from the group, you knocked back the burning liquid.
โUgh,โ you groaned after, wiping your mouth. โIโm definitely going to feel this tomorrow.โ
โGood thing itโs Saturday.โ Morgan replied, grinning.
A few more drinks (and potentially a few shots) later, you were really feeling it. Enough that when a really good song came on and Garcia gasped, you followed her to the dance floor with little to no hesitation.
You look over your shoulder as you go, wanting to shoot a smile at your boyfriend. He isnโt even watching you walk away. Rather, he seems deeply absorbed in a conversation with Rossi.
You feel the ghost of a frown cross your face. You felt really pretty tonight. You had done your makeup, fixed your hair up. Not wanting to look like you were trying too hard but still feeling beautiful. Spencer just seemedโฆ comfortable. Like he was too used to you.
Thatโs probably why when a man sidled up beside you on the dance floor, you didnโt move away.
You were watching Emily and Garcia belt the lyrics of the newest song and dance at each other, throwing your head back in laughter when you noticed him. Not touching you, just standing beside you. Casual. Friendly.
โYouโre way too pretty to be standing on the edge.โ He says offhandedly.
You still for a moment. But youโre just warm enough from the tequila, and Spencer still isnโt looking at you, and for once, just for a second, you feel admired. Pretty.
โIs that so?โ You respond, your words slurring just slightly.
He grins. Not sleazy. Justโฆ interested. โDefinitely.โ
Spencer isnโt watching at first. Heโs still deep in a one-sided conversation about the effects of alcohol on the autonomic nervous system when Morgan nudges him. โUh, Reid.โ
Spencer looks up.
He sees you, looking radiant as ever, laughing and smiling at another man on the dance floor. He watches you push your hair back.
He watches.
Because he trusts you. Heโs waiting for you to shut it down. But after the third time the man leans in just a little too close to shout over the music and you let him, he feels heat flare in his gut.
His eyes never leave you the entire time heโs walking over. You turn over your shoulder mid-laugh and see him, and your smile drops.
He settles a hand on your waist. โSheโs with me.โ
You can feel how bluntly he says it. He canโt even be angry with the guy. You never told him otherwise.
โSorry, man. Didnโt know.โ The guy backs off.
You canโt exactly read his expression. Is he angry? Disappointed? Annoyed?
โI think youโve had enough. We should get you home.โ He says, his voice steady. Neutral.
You donโt object. You feel shame forming deep in the pit of your stomach.
You wave a quick goodbye to his coworkers, forcing a small smile as you walk out into the cool night air. You keep looking at Spencer, trying to gauge him. You canโt.
The drive home is miserable. You feel bad. Spencer isnโt talking, which is unusual for him. The road is blurry and your body feels like itโs suspended in the air when you hit bumps in the road, the alcohol weighing on you in the stillness.
Spencer walks you to your door, ever the gentleman. You pause with your hand on the doorknob, turning to look up at him. โSpenceโฆโ
He finally looks at you, and now you can see it. Heโs hurt.
โGo inside. Get some rest. We can talk when youโre sober.โ
โSpencer.โ
โDonโt.โ Thereโs a sharpness in his voice that makes you pull back a little.
You blink at him. The alcohol makes everything slower, heavier, but not enough to dull the look on his face.
โYouโre mad at me,โ you say quietly.
โIโm not mad.โ Too quick.
You swallow. โThen what are you?โ
He exhales through his nose. Looks away. Looks back at you.
โYou didnโt tell him.โ
The words are simple. Controlled. Thatโs what makes them land so hard.
โIโโ You frown. โI was going to.โ
โBut you didnโt.โ
The silence between you stretches.
You hate that heโs being calm. You almost wish he would yell. This careful precision feels worse.
โIt was just talking,โ you say. Defensive now. โHe didnโt evenโโ
โHe was flirting with you.โ
Your breath catches.
Spencer steps back half an inch, like even standing close to you right now is too much.
โI waited,โ he says quietly. โI didnโt interrupt. I trusted that you would handle it.โ
โI didnโt do anything,โ you insist. And you didnโt. You know you didnโt.
He nods once. โI know.โ
Thatโs the worst part. He believes you.
โI justโฆ donโt understand why you let him think he had a chance.โ He pauses, and you can see something flicker underneath the disappointment. โDid you want him to?โ
There it is.
Not jealousy. Confusion. Hurt.
โNo.โ You say quietly.
โThen why?โ
The alcohol loosens your tongue before your pride can stop you.
โBecause you never care.โ
The words hang between you.
Spencer stills completely. โWhat?โ
โYou never care,โ you repeat, softer now, tears threatening for reasons you donโt fully understand. โYou never get jealous. You never look at me like youโre afraid someone might take me.โ
His jaw tightens. โI trust you.โ
โI know,โ you say quickly. โI know that. And I love that about you. But sometimes I want you toโโ You stop, frustrated. โI donโt know. Want me.โ
The vulnerability sobers you more than the cold air.
โYou barely looked at me tonight.โ You continue, voice trembling. โAnd I justโฆ I felt invisible.โ
The hurt on his face shifts into something deeper. Realization. Guilt.
โYou think I donโt want you?โ His voice is lower now. Not sharp. Not defensive. Justโฆ raw.
You shake your head helplessly. โI donโt know what you feel anymore. Youโre always gone. Your phone is always ringing. I feel like Iโm justโฆ slotted in when thereโs space.โ
Spencer runs a hand through his hairโ a tell. Heโs unraveling.
โI know Iโve been really busy at work,โ he admits quietly. โAnd I thought bringing you tonight was me choosing you. I thought being there was enough.โ
โIt was,โ you say quickly. โI justโฆ I wanted you to look at me like you couldnโt stand the idea of someone else touching me.โ
Thereโs a long silence. Youโre suddenly all too aware that youโre having this conversation outside your door, where others could hear. You have goosebumps from the cool air.
โYou think I could stand it?โ His voice cracks just slightly. โYou have no idea how difficult it was to stay at that table.โ
Your breath stutters.
โI didnโt want to be possessive,โ he continues. โI didnโt want to embarrass you. I didnโt want to be the kind of man who assumes you need defending.โ
โI donโt,โ you say immediately.
โI know,โ he says. โBut that doesnโt mean I donโt feel it.โ
The air shifts. Itโs less tense now. Moreโฆ charged.
He steps closer. โI donโt get jealous because I respect you. Because I trust you. But that doesnโt mean I donโt feel when someone looks at you like that.โ
Your heart is pounding.
โI waited for you to shut it down,โ he says quietly. โAnd when you didnโt, I started wondering why.โ
You think somewhere in the back of your head, through the thick fog, that you may just be the worst girlfriend there ever was.
โIโm sorry,โ you whisper. And you mean it. Not because you danced. Not because you spoke to someone. But because you underestimated how much he feels.
He studies your face for a long moment.
โI love you. But I wish you wouldโve just told me youโve been feeling neglected.โ
You chew your lip. โI just needed to know you stillโโ
He steps into you fully now. Hands finding your waist again. Firmer than before. Not angry. Grounded.
โAnd for the record,โ he adds, thumb pressing into your hip slightly, โif he had touched you, I would not have stayed calm.โ
Your stomach flips.
You pull back just enough to look at him. โThat almost sounds like jealousy.โ
He huffs the faintest laugh.
โItโs not jealousy,โ he says. โItโs that I am very aware of what I have.โ A pause. โAnd I donโt take that lightly.โ
He kisses your forehead first. Gentle.
Then your mouthโ slower, deeper, and very, very intentional.
Not to prove anything.
Just to remind you.
And when he finally pulls away, his forehead rests against yours.
โIโm sorry I made you feel unwanted.โ He murmurs.
โIโm sorry I didnโt shut that guy down.โ You reply.
You grin in spite of yourself, the heaviness lifting.
โNow, letโs get you in bed. You are going to need some rest and recovery from all that tequila.โ He reaches around you, opening the door and ushering you inside.
โDonโt be dramatic.โ You roll your eyes.
โYou had four shots.โ
โDid not!โ
โYeah, and you did the fourth one off of Emily.โ