⋆.˚ somebody ⋆⭒˚

(might update sometimes)

please read my byf

I'm using this account to explore my alterhuman identity, but also just to explore myself & express myself in general. I might post/reblog fandom stuff too.

I'm bodily 18, alterhuman & fictionkin

random about MEs:

I really like kombucha

I actually don't really have a favorite color, it depends on my mood. if I had to assign myself a color it'd be orange or green.

I have a pretty bad sense of self, I'll know about certain things I like, and maybe some parts of my personality but they often change.

I know i love music

I have way too many favorite foods but one of them is crepes

BYF:

● proshippers and darkshippers are not allowed here. I believe you shouldn't just go around harassing them since some could be kids, but i don't agree with them and I prefer that none of them follow me.

● I might talk about suggestive stuff or sexuality, i usually tag it but I prefer others around my age following me since I'm not sure what I'll want to talk about, so if you're under 18 pls don't follow me.

● I prefer to be endo-neutral. I am not a system but I believe that we don't know everything about the brain yet. and i have no right to tell someone that what they experience isn't real. we don't know what's going on in somebody's brain so we shouldn't fakeclam them at all (my opinion might change on this as I learn more and I still love to learn about other perspectives)

● I support people who use harmless neo pronouns, xenogenders, microlabels etc. I believe everyone should express themselves freely as long as it's not something harmful.

● I can be very awkward.

● like I mentioned I have a very bad sense of self, this means my layout, interests, and the way I might see myself can change randomly.

a sexuality where you feel like you have two seperate sexualities, and you might use different labels to describe both. (this is different from labels like bisexual)

I hate it because I constantly feel like my internal self doesn't match my external self, and sometimes I feel like the way I act doesn't match up with how i view myself either. it feels like my personality (the way i act) is something I obtained growing up based on things that have happened, but it isn't me.

it's worse that I also don't feel human sometimes, so not only do I feel like the "style" of the world is wrong, and the way people express themselves, and my body and gender, but I also feel like I'm trapped as a human.

then there's also the fact I'm uncomfortable with doubles of this one character I kin.

I had a fictional crush that lasted a year when I was 12 and I'm still surprised that even happened.

even my sexuality is confusing and makes almost no fucking sense, so i have to just use novisexual as a label. I wish I wasn't conscious of how confusing my sexuality, romantic orientation, gender, and existence in general is.

my whole life makes no sense at this point and I think too much about it.