↟ Just Some Wolf ↟

I already felt isolated in my every day life, but now I feel even more isolated in this community.

I don’t understand how we can have infighting about policing others identities when we identify as ANIMALS.

“But therians inherently know they’re human-“ not all of us.

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Really quickly I’m going to define gear for those who don’t know too much about it. Gear in the therian community is defined as anything that can aid an individual in connecting/expressing with their nonhuman identity. It does not need to be wearable.

With that out of the way- let’s get into the gist of this post!

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My journey with gear has been a very long and complicated one. I’ve always been fascinated and enamored by gear, and it already incorporated pretty well into my fashion sense. So it just made sense to me to wear it. I bought a theta delta necklace back in 2019 (which is the one I still wear to this day), and never looked back.

However, back then, gear was just on the rise. So for a creator to succeed, to stand out, they had to have it. It made me turn more towards gear and using it as a crutch rather than expression. I felt obligated to wear gear when I was presenting myself as a therian. So I bought masks and tails hoping that I’d feel better about myself from that. But turns out I didn’t.

I started to somewhat resent “traditional” therian gear. I sold the masks I had bought and worn as well as a lot of my tails because I felt it didn’t actually represent me; that I was pretending to be someone I wasn’t. Which in reality, at that time, I was. So I started to wear less and less, and felt myself using different kinds of gear (and other ways) to express myself. I got permanent gear (tattoos). I only wore my necklace and a few of my tails. I felt such a disconnect from the community and in turn my identity because of this. Because the community was/is so focused on gear, I felt I didn’t belong. So I distanced myself.

In that time I did more introspective work into my identities. I firmly believe that this time offline and away from the community helped me become my true and best self. It made me more confident and know who I truly am. I will ALWAYS push for having time to yourself offline as to not be influenced by outside perspectives. Get to know yourself without the aid of others.

Over my time of being offline I had started to incorporate gear into my expression again. Mostly tails, keychains, and jewelry. I stayed being more true to myself and my expression everywhere, not just in the comfort of my own home. I became more confident and happier knowing that I was still me, whether I wore/had gear or not.

And that brings us to now. I’m much more comfortable with my identities and expression of them. With that, I’m able to understand how to express myself more through gear. Do what’s comfortable for me and not care what others think. I don’t wear gear 24/7 (besides my permanent gear) but that still makes me as much as a therian as when I do wear gear. The reason a lot of therians and myself wear gear is to feel more comfortable with themselves in these bodies that are inherently not true to ourselves. But some therians don’t want to wear gear, can’t, or don’t have any, and that is entirely okay. Not everyone will express themselves in the same way, but that’s doesn’t make them any less valid.

In a community so focused on appearances and gear, no one should feel forced by social media to express themselves in a way that’s not true to them. You don’t need gear to be a therian, it’s an identity, not an outfit or items. I think we forget that a lot.

My journey was a long and complicated one, and of course still ongoing. I recently got a mask after not thinking one would suit my expression. However, I adore seeing my true face looking back at me whenever I wear it. So I’m still learning new things about myself. We grow and change and with that, so does our expression and identity. It’s completely normal.

I hope this more personal experience was fun and interesting to read. I love talking about things like this and helping others on their journeys with my own. So I hope this did just that! I also hope all you creatures have been doing well, and as always, thank you for the continued support.

Have you seen the world we live in? It is not my choice as to why I reject it, but at this point in time, I welcome it.

Humans are beings of destruction. It runs in their blood to hate, to mock, to jeer, to be afraid, and to judge. Humans are beings of hate, made from the remnants of that damned box Pandora opened eons ago.

So why? Why may you ask?

A glance in a wolf’s eyes, a paw print on my doorstep. The sound of rain landing on fur and the feeling of grass on my back.

I am much more than my Therianthropy but at the same time it is in every aspect of me.

Put the phone down and listen to your mind and body.

Be with yourself for a little bit.