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I couldn’t have my glasses on for it so I couldn’t see the instructions on the screen because I can’t fuckin see without my glasses & anytime I would put my face closer to the screen to read what it said to do it’d say I was too close & log me out & start over

mind you I’m near sighted lol

I had to call my sister to come over & read the screen for me which took literally 2 seconds but I couldn’t see the fuckin screen

I realized I completely lost my personality & don’t remember how I would react to things because I’ve been sick & isolated so long

& nobody around me would even be able to tell if there was a shift in personality because I’m not around anyone long enough for them to notice

like i used to be so fun at one point & now I don’t even know who I am

I doubled the dose Friday which was 2 weeks since I started

they told me the only specialist in the state is at Stanford & asked if I’d be willing to travel for my appointments or take a chance on a regular neurologist at their hospital & hope they know about dysautonomia & IIH

I will never forget when I was in the hospital the neurologist was being rude & the PT guy told me that while neurologists are very smart theyre usually the worst people in medicine & just bad people in general & he was so right

I saw a new neurosurgeon & he told me that since he didn’t know about any of my diagnosis they couldn’t be real lol just disregarded all the testing I’ve had done that shows I was diagnosed & all the other specialists that I’m seeing that are treating me so I explained to him what my diagnosis was & the treatment plan I was on & then he said I knew way to much about my own medical history so it was obvious my problems were psychological & not medical why the fuck wouldn’t I know about my own diagnosis & treatment??? also I was a fuckin nurse

& then he went on a tangent for 10 minutes about my picc line & how I didn’t need it & it was a placebo effect so I needed it out asap to get better I wasn’t there for my picc line it’s being managed by other specialists who are familiar with my case & cleared it he doesn’t even know the mechanisms of my diagnosis to know why or how the picc line helps me it just bothered him that I had it

he said if I were to ignore my symptoms id get better please tell me how do you ignore passing out lol

I went for neck issues & he didn’t review any of my records regarding that he just said I was young so it should be fine & said that I was a very good teacher since I taught him a lot about my medical history & I should go to school for it

got this lamictal working over time because had it been 2 weeks ago I would have crashed tf out

sincere has been straight dogging out melanie episode after episode now that everyone else is gone he’s talking about marriage & kids after 1 month of knowing each other!!!! & she saw everything in 4k she knows what he did & she’s so happy to be where she’s at 😩