★ Starchild ★

we want to make one for our youtube channel, but oh my god we cant decide on one.

horns and tail? ears and tail? wolf, cat, fox, bird? human? elf? hybrid? full animal?

we cant ever deicde!!! typically when we draw ourself we either draw our respective sonas or just. straight up how we look.

rn im thinking we go with somewhat how we look + maybe horns & a tail cause...a good majority of us have/like horns on our sonas. we would do wings but. thats annoying to draw over n over. mayyyybe small wings. idk.

GAH NOT TO MENTION

outfits outfits outfits. what to do with the outfit. masc? fem? in between?

cropped? oversized? pants? shorts? skirt? gloves? jacket?

the one. consistant thing is that the main color will be blue.

we’re all so different it’s impossible to pick something that represents all of us

It’s weird being a median system.

We’re parts of one messy girl… but also our own people too kinda…

Just… different ways of being her.

Okay okay okay okay so,

i’m shapeshifter kin.

I can shapeshift into anything i want, and when i do so, my mindset shifts with it to fully be what i turned into. which made me feel like my forms are facets. maybe they are. i don’t know if i can call them that.

my different forms are all me, just with a different mindset, so a different ‘me’. which is awfully similar to how median systems are described.

i hope i explained this correctly. i just needed to have my experience written down.

now, my question is, is there a term for a situation like this? (if not maybe i can coin something myself)

it was actually a shapeshifter headmate that wrote that. and confused the rest of us for their different forms.

we actually are just a median system, not what was described in the previous post. (it might still be a bit accurate to them? i dunno)

Unfortunately I also have deep seated issues with my self worth and personhood.

I am Arran, god of the most important thing

Oh wow. Didn’t see that coming when I picked “the” out of the options given. And lemme just show you what was suggested.

….

I don't think I'm alone in this feeling but I have yet to see anyone specificly express it.

I love covering my face.

I'm not talking about the animal masks as gear (although I love those too), I'm talking simply about obscuring my facial features in general. Shrouds, hannibal-style muzzles, moretta masks, gas masks, etc. Even the face masks from the pandemic made me feel so much more comfortable in my own skin.

Some of the most important features on a human are their face, their expressions, their eyes. I hate being looked at, hate making eye contact, and don't read people's expressions well. Important things a human should do and tolerate are just beyond my reach.

But, masking myself has been a major point of comfort for me. I don't need to worry about making the right expressions because no one will see them. And to an extent, there is a sort of dehumanization (not inherently negative) that comes with covering the face. Perhaps ambiguity is a better word for it.