solaris

wishing i could wear heels so bad ugh i feel so uggo wearing sneakers all the time... osteoarthritis is such a bitch

i'm so nervous for pride yall omg i rly wanna make some friends i just gotta be brave which can be quite hard

wanting a hobby when current life is work-chores-sleep ... very hard ... but they do oft say the hardest part is getting started. i think maybe i could revive some of my old hobbies. i used to draw a lot and write lots of poems but i just haven't rlly had the inclination to lately bc life has been so non-creative. hmmmm. sometimes though i want to pick up a completely new hobby but i can never choose one and i get stressed about it not being a natural interest in that it starts to feel like an assignment ive given myself... i am trying lately to rebuild my inner self after an event from a few years ago that left me a little bit of a blank slate of a human so trying to figure out who i am versus who i want to be and which is more true has been real difficult and my hobbies and interests are a big part of it... hmmmm much to think about

love tumblr but sometimes wonder if lesbians here even see butches as people the way they're so commodified as sex objects and rarities you want to catch... truly i don't know how butches deal with the excess of expectations people have of them

dyeing my hair blonde with pink highlights on monday.... huge if true

i haven't played deltarune since chapter 2 can someone tell me if suselle is real yet