puff’s pride stuff

i dont find my culture influencing my identity as im a white canadian, and thus dont really.. have.. a culture.. but id say the only way it would is my early discovery and labeling of myself? i had the privilege of growing up in a moderately progressive family in a moderately progressive area, so i never struggled with identifying myself from fear of being an "outsider"

Day 3, C, Culture

TW for mention of conservatives/politics and trauma.

This is a little heavy of a topic, but I’m probably gonna skim past the descriptive heavy parts.

This is a mix of multiple headmates, so can’t really say the main writer.

The culture I grew up in was fairly conservative leaning, with the few people who helped me through my trauma generally being more progressive.

I think this meant that the combination of white suburban conservatism being so strongly tied to my lack of freedom and trauma, and the progressivism being tied to my way out, lead to me inevitably being pushed and pulled further into being progressive from both sides.

Aside from this, as a neurodivergent little child in this environment I inevitably felt.. othered. I didn’t understand social cues, I was always anxious, couldn’t handle myself well, and just soon really became uninterested in other people, or at the least, pretended to.

All this surrounding me lead me to, upon finding the LGBTQIA+ community at a young age, grappling onto it immediately. I experimented a lot with identity, all while hiding it anxiously from my family.

MOGAI ABCs EVENT ;; WRITTEN PROMPTS ;; DAY 4

PROMPT ;; Are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity?

Disconnect Are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity?

I know nothing about disconnect <- the disconnected-from-reality-in-several-levels guy.

Jokes aside, this is actually a tricky question for me. I’ll try to answer it in a few parts.

I have a hard time connecting with my transness, but not for the reasons you may be thinking. I see it in a way I’ve never seen other people fully grasp or consider, despite discussing this with other queer folks of different identities. So, to put it simply: I am trans because I am nonbinary. I’m not transgender as an identity on itself, as a standalone. I’m nonbinary first, and consider myself trans because I’m cisn’t. I wasn’t born who I am right now so I’ve transitioned, but I’m ME first and foremost. Not being cis is deeply important to me and being part of the trans umbrella is something I revindicate every day of my life. I however have a hard time considering myself Just Trans. Several parts of my identity are not trans nor cis, are technically cis, or don’t fit usual modalities. To me, the way I’m trans is more important over being trans. Therefore, I’ve always had conflicting feelings about it.

I feel a certain disconnect with my amorous identity as well. I’m Ambiamorous, yet I’ve never been in any configuration of a poly relationship. I know for a fact I’d be happy and content in one, and I’ve discussed it with my mono partners before, but it’s just hasn’t come to fruition. And that’s fine of course ! I’m in a closed mono alterous relationship as of the writing of this post, and I’m not actively interested in dating* other people aside from my boyfriend**. Sometimes I feel like I should though, like we should open the relationship or find other people we could date at the same time simply because it’s something I would like. But I don’t… I don’t feel like it right now, simple as that. We had talked at length about these topics with him, and I can assure you he’s completely alright with the idea; we’re both open to, well, opening or expanding the relationship anytime. He, however, isn’t interested either. No one is forcing anyone to do anything and YET I feel like I’m a fraud for not having a high enough polystic drive to consider myself part of the non-monogamous umbrella. I wish I could talk to more poly folk about this but I don’t know many if any… It’s pretty isolating…

To end on a less confusing and sad-tinted note, I’ve been reevaluating my xeninity. I’ve felt disconnected from my xenogender identity for a long time, to the point it feels like I’m fully opening my heart to it this past year. When I was younger I could not for the life of me understand xenogenders yet I never bashed them nor hated them publicly ever, and funnily enough they were instrumental in my journey of self-discovery. My connection to xeninity has always oscillated, but it feels like no matter what I do or how far I am in my transition I’m always deeply drawn to it. I’m aware a big part of it – my wariness and uncertainty approaching this part of me – stems from internalized xenicphobia / antixeninity, but I’m slowly yet surely bridging the gap, extending an olive branch to myself. That’s what matters the most I think.

* I use “date” to refer to any other kind of Serious Relationship, but it can be any kind of any type of attraction, like a QPR for example /info

** he’s ace, bisexual, and we’re T4T, he’s NOTTTT a cishet man and if you assumed otherwise I’m judging you /hj /lh

Disconnect - are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity?

[PT: Disconnect - are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity? End PT.]

Odd Child answers:

Yeah, our gender. We’re collectively genderless and that of course spreads to me too. I’ll actually talk about myself for this one. I’m a little bit genderless, whatever that means. It’s kind of like instead of a wall my gender is a mesh screen. My semi-genderlessness is neutrality-colored, so I just call myself neutrois and the rest is implied. Or not. I don’t particularly care if it is.

Overall, I think most of us hold some sort of disconnect one way or another (I broke my own rules I’m talking about the collective again yay): for some of us it’s gender disconnect, some of us are aplatonic, asexual, aromantic, other kinds of aspec, a lot of us are low-to-no empathy and/or sympathy. I could probably make a joke about us evening out into being disconnected from everything and not existing if I knew how to word it well. Oops, that’s the joke.

Tags: @radiomogai ; @dragonpride17

Culture - how does your culture influence your identity, if at all?

[PT: Culture - how does your culture influence your identity, if at all? End PT.]

Odd Child answers:

We’re from the New England region of the United States. The area’s coastal, mostly left-wing barring some rural areas, it’s easy for me to be in touch with nature and the like. Being around water and nature has taught us to love both, and we used to have a lot of xenogenders related to the two things before we syscovered. The Roostkeeper, who still exists and was our collective identity until we fell apart, considers himself to have a storm for a soul, and deeply connects with the native biomes to our area. We’re collectively Vast-aligned due to our proximity to clear (night) skies and open ocean.

New England is known for being pretty progressive, and the safety we were able to feel at a young age allowed us to explore our identity at a young age. We first came out as transgender at 11. If we didn’t know we could feel this way, or that it was okay to feel this way, who knows how long it would have taken.

We grew up going to Sunday school at my/our synagogue, and being Jewish has definitely affected the way we identify. I’m pretty sure we might be a condigender-flavoured woman, so only woman in the context of Judaism— for prayers and religious ceremonies and the like.

Tags: @radiomogai ; @dragonpride17

Body - what's your relationship to your body? how does it affect How you identify?

[PT: Body - what's your relationship to your body? How does it affect how you identify? End PT.]

The Sparkler answers:

Besides the skin color of our body, there is nothing it really has in common with me. I’m tall, I have white hair, and I’m more masculine. The body is short, has brown hair, and is quite feminine. This all makes me feel more dysphoric, as compared to the others, who mostly feel complacent with or embrace the body. I make more of an effort to present and dress masculinely. Whereas other headmates may feel a slight disconnect from gender due to our collective gender-incompatibility, I find that my connection to manhood has actually strengthened due to the visual discrepancy between me and the body’s appearances. As far as I’m aware, I’m the only one in the system who feels like this.

Tags: @radiomogai ; @dragonpride17

oh mannnnnn

collective answer: well, yeah.

okay so im euclid. im the fronting console that the capricorn system uses to interface with this world. im not the original, but i knew hxr, ive been here for. forever.

i find it really hard to connect to anything, really. for ages after our syscovery we didnt even know i existed! literally, nearly a year. ive always been the basis for who we are, but i dont really have my own... anything.

so while im connected to things in this world, im not connected to tarithor or kolisoe in any way. im the basis for our other half, being our fictotype, but the way the systems interact... that has nothing to do with me at all.

and tarithor/kolisoe.... i can feel it, when it connects to me. its connection to those planets, to its/my other half. so while its apart of our collective identity, i am not. connected to it. despite being that identity. i guess.

this got sad. sorry. lol.

🌀 regretevator merchentation — an umbrella term for queer beings who present themself through regretevator merchandise.

coined by felix. tagging @radiomogai, @goatgai, @io-archival, and @enderluna

day 5 of @dragonpride17's MOGAI ABCs event: expression!

already coined? consider this the ranqai version, not an alt flag. 🌀

Culture How does your culture influence your identity, if at all?

It’s engrained in me. It’s entirely infused into my identity in all levels and layers. I know for a fact I would not be the same person if I had been born or lived somewhere else.

For context, I’m latino. I’m from Argentina, born, raised, resident. I live here and will continue to do so for as long as I can, as I genuinely unironically love to be here. In fact, when it comes to queer and/or trans rights, we have more laws in place in comparison to several first-world countries, with one of the best laws for the protection of trans identities in the continent. We were even the first country in latam with an X sex marker for our IDs (something the current right-wing president wants to delete, mind you). The queer community here is large and strong, and its history can be traced back even before Stonewall, and even further back if we count the indigenous communities that live here to this day. Everything I have today I owe to travestis, and I cannot take it for granted. Once you learn about those who came before you, it’s impossible to let go.

I’ve studied English all my life because it’s a language I’ve always liked, but also because here it’s seen as mandatory. You NEED to know English for a chance at a “better life”; I was raised believing at some point I had to move abroad or else I wouldn’t succeed. I even thought, for the longest time, that I could only study my career in the US (newsflash: that’s a lie). Why am I sharing all this? Well, when I first learnt about the word “nonbinary”, I thought it only existed in English. Not only the term itself, but also the concept, the identity. I thought my only chance to be myself fully was in another language, another country, another culture entirely.

It wasn’t until the last few years of high school that I found queer people from Argentina on social media, some of which I ended up crossing paths with in real life. I was lucky to meet trans and nonbinary people in spaces I frequented related to my interests, and as I got older I was able to hang out at queer spaces and events here in my city more and more often. Turns out they were always there, as they had been before me. They were only waiting to be found. All throughout these aforementioned years I took the time to learn about queer Argentinian history, about the community I thought wasn’t fully for me. I realized then and realize now how similar we are. I have to bring up travestis again here. They were for the longest time the closest to a transgender person that the general public could understand, and it’s because of them that here in Argentina so many people know what a trans woman is. Despite being criminalized and killed by police for years, they’ve stayed strong and are the unwavering pillar of the Argentinian queer community.

Whether you’re against it or support it, queerness is a fact of life here. One of the most respected children’s book writers in the entire country is María Elena Walsh, who was a lesbian. I grew up with her stories and songs, as many (If not all) Argentinian kids of my generation did. In 2018, there was a prime time comedy-telenovela called "100 Dias Para Enamorarse" (which I highly recommend) where one of the most important plotlines is the story of a trans man character, including his transition. Even when I was little I knew what being transgender is thanks to an incredibly accomplished trans woman called Florencia de La V; she’s an important figure in Argentina’s pop culture to this day. It’s this experience of “normalcy” despite the push back, of standing your ground and existing, that in my opinion has shaped who I am since forever. Growing up, you learn that you just have to Be You, no matter if they beat you or take you to jail. You just have to fight back.

This has become too lengthy and wordy, and I apologize. I had the utmost pleasure of meeting and chatting in person with a 50-year-old nonbinary person the other day, and it moved me deeply how we both had the same mentality of “I exist, and I’m willing to die for my existence”, which is something so culturally Argentinian. After all, never forget the infamous coup d’état was launched to persecute and kill anyone who opposed the regime, especially leftist activists, or the fact we became a nation by fighting Spain. Being Argentinian feels like a constant fight for existence and survival, in one way or another, and it is part of who I am. Specially as a queer trans leftist being.

Last note, I know most links are Wikipedia. This is entirely for simplicity's sake. I encourage any readers to seek out further information if interested in such topics. My inbox is open as well.

flag id: a flag made of 5 concentric circles. each circle has a thin ring through it. the center circle has a symbol of two beamed eighth notes. the flag's background is grey; its circles, from outer to inner, are near-black, dark red, golden yellow, dark faded red, and dark dull brown; its rings, from outer to inner, are very dark red, orange, soft brown, and dull brown; and its symbol is light cool green. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

dragpathsimoncongic: a gender related to the song 'drag path' by twenty one pilots only in the context of simon/the convict from 'iron lung' (2026)

[pt: dragpathsimoncongic: a gender related to the song 'drag path' by twenty one pilots only in the context of simon/the convict from 'iron lung' (2026). end pt]

day 4 of the mogai abcs, based on the letter d!

linking congic. colors representing drag path are from the dragpathlyriden flag!

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @maggore, @dragonpride17

[pt: mogai abcs(link) - day four. end pt.]

disconnect - are you disconnected with any particular aspect of your identity?

rou (mu/mur): mu is disconnected from how people perceive mu ... um ... with mur culture too to be honest. cus mu grew up very american and rejecting mur culture for a while but mu is learning vietnamese and trying to reconnect with that part of mu so mu dunnos if that counts. not a lot to saysies. if you mean like... stuff mu identifies with/as and mu being disconnected from it, then, mu supposes mur sexual orientation? mu ids as pomosexual because it's kinda complicated but mu generally doesn't really care about it in general.

seb (he/him/any): "my polish."

caelan (none; aux. she/it & choco/chocos): "i don't really know if this counts but i'm kind of disconnected from the fact that people refuse to use no pronouns for me. like, i start to forget it and i start to feel awful and then i realize it's because i'm referring to myself with my auxiliaries when i want to be referred to as none."

flag id: two flags made of 5 concentric circles. each circle has a thin ring through it. the center circle has a symbol of two beamed eighth notes. the left flag's background is grey; its circles, from outer to inner, are near-black, dark red, golden yellow, copper brown, and dark faded blue; its rings, from outer to inner, are very dark red, orange, soft brown, and faded blue; and its symbol is grey. the right flag's background is dark blue; its circles, from outer to inner, are turquoise, yellow-orange, yellow, copper brown, and dark faded blue; its rings, from outer to inner, are green, golden yellow, soft brown, and faded blue; and its symbol is turquoise. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

dragpathrygracecongic | dogdaysrygracecongic

dragpathrygracecongic: a gender related to the song 'drag path' by twenty one pilots only in the context of ryland grace from 'project hail mary'

dogdaysrygracecongic: a gender related to the song 'dog days are over' by florence + the machine only in the context of ryland grace from 'project hail mary'

[pt: dragpathrygracecongic: a gender related to the song 'drag path' by twenty one pilots only in the context of ryland grace from 'project hail mary'

dogdaysrygracecongic: a gender related to the song 'dog days are over' by florence + the machine only in the context of ryland grace from 'project hail mary'. end pt]

day 4 of the mogai abcs, based on the letter d!

linking congic. colors representing drag path in the first flag are from the dragpathlyriden flag!

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @maggore, @dragonpride17, @project-hail-mogai

[pt. MOGAI ABCS: Day 2- Body. end pt.]

wow ok this is going to be an interesting one. so first off, as host i guess it makes sense that i connect my identity to the most, especially when a majority of our rebels are either neutral on it or dysphoric because of our body type (excluding me and the two other mods on this blog, 90% of us are buff in some way and the body is. very much not!! sorry guys 💜).

for me, my body majorly impacts my presentation, especially my feminine presentation. i get a lot of euphoria from being a femme with body hair, and my body hair is really important to how i present myself as a girl. growing up, we faced a lot of misogyny and criticism for being a proudly hairy girl, to a point that we started to reject the euphoria we felt from our body hair. for a long time, we were incredibly insecure of our hands and legs as a result of our body hair, but we learned to embrace it slowly, and actually- the mogai community was a big part of this. i've learned to take pride in being an otter femme, and i'd honestly never want to go back. as you may or may not can tell we have coined a lot of presentation terms and it's mainly just because of how important our presentation (especially the fact we present alternatively) is to our identity. we have always been outwardly perceived as intimidating/strange overall due to the fact we're visibly alternative, and that's had a big impact on how we present ourselves physically as well as our transition goals. the more odd/nonhuman we present to society, the more euphoric and affirmed we feel in our physical identity as a collective.