like a villain

It’s raining. You should borrow an umbrella from a co-worker.

It would be bad if you got sick.

Love you. Come home soon, honey.

Your boyfriend was a busy man. A colonel at a very young age, in the most influential unit in your city: Skyhaven. You’ve lived together for a year now, and have been together for a bit longer. Somehow, you’ve gotten used to him coming home late. And he’s gotten used to you waiting for him ‘til late. You insist upon it. It’s too cold to ever truly be sleeping without him as your body pillow.

Your eyes are drowsy, threatening to close while your feet fold deeper as you curl into a ball in the chill room, covered in your thin blanket– that the door opens. You perk up immediately, despite the grog settling deep into your skin.

There, Caleb slowly closes the door behind him. His hat, finally coming off as he loosens his collar, sighing. You get up, still wrapped in your blanket and meet him by the doorway. He’s halfway into getting his shoes off when you stand in front of him, barefoot with a pout.

“You’re wet. Did you get my text? You’ll get sick, you big dummy.” You try to wipe the droplets of rain from his shoulders, then his cheeks; which were cold. His hands move up to your wrists, holding them gently.

“I didn’t have time to check my phone. Sorry, honey.” He says, voice low, tired. Then he kisses the inside of your wrist. Your hands being the only thing warming him right now.

You sigh, which ends in a small smile. “It’s okay. You’re home now.”

—

You linger with him a moment longer after that, just breathing in the scent of rain and metal that always clings to his uniform. He moves toward the couch while you pad back into the kitchen, the faint buzz of the TV filling the space again. The sound of him setting down his things, the muted hum of the holo-terminal booting– all so ordinary it makes you smile.

“Did you eat?” You call out while you stir something in a small pot, steam fogging the air.

“Not yet,” he answers, voice distant but gentle.

You grab a plate, already imagining the way he’ll loosen up after a meal and shower. Then the terminal tone pierces through the quiet. It isn’t the usual mellow ping of work updates. This one is sharper, coded. Military-grade. You hesitate mid-step, plate still in your hands. 

“Work again?” You ask, half sigh, half tease.

He doesn’t answer immediately. The air feels heavier now. From the couch, you can see him sit rigid before the screen, its pale light painting his face in washed-out blues.

You wipe your hands on the towel and walk closer. “Hey… you okay?”

He blinks and turns, startled as if he forgot you were there. “Yeah,” he murmurs, forcing a small smile. “Just… something from command. Nothing important.”

“So it’s fine, then?”

He nods, but there’s no conviction in the motion. You can see the storm behind his eyes. Whatever he just read isn’t fine at all.

You cross the short distance between you, laying a hand on his arm. “You can tell me, you know.”

His jaw flexes. For a second, you think he might. But then the soldier in him wins over the man you love. He cups your hand gently and presses a kiss to it instead of answering.

“I will,” he says softly, “once things are handled. Don’t worry tonight, okay? You’ve done enough waiting for me.”

Something in that phrasing sinks cold in you. You want to argue, ask what’s really happening, but he’s already looking past you at the rain-slick window, mind somewhere far away.

“Caleb–”

“It’s fine, honey.” He gives you one of those smiles, reassuring. But lurking with trembles he’s barely hiding. “Really. Just protocol stuff.”

You nod, because you’ve learned to choose your battles. You go back to the table and place the food down between you both, pretending not to notice his eyes dart once more toward the flashing terminal.

Dinner ends in fragments: your laughter too soft, his replies just half-finished. And when he finally excuses himself to “take a call,” you stay on the couch. Watching the reflection of the lamp fade across the empty seat beside you.

From the hallway, you can hear him speaking quietly, voice clipped, controlled. Then silence.

His footsteps return, slower this time. You look up, already knowing you won’t like what’s next. And Caleb almost didn’t have the heart to tell you, especially when you looked at him that way. Your eyes sparkled in a way that made his heart clench. Your breathing so obviously controlled. So he sits beside you despite the large space the couch could offer.

Caleb let his elbows rest on his knees. His eyes on the floor.

“...They need me in Linkon,” he says, words measured but heavy. “But it’s short-term, I promise– a few weeks at most.”

The words hang in the room as he finally looks at you, and you exhale, this time, turning your head away from him; taking his words in.

But you manage a small nod. “Tonight?”

He hesitates, then: “Tomorrow morning.” At least. He should at least spend the night with you.

You smile again. “That’s… soon.”

He brushes your hair behind your ear, before cupping your cheek to make you look at him gently. Thumb brushing against your soft skin, as if memorizing the gesture. “I’ll be back before you know it.”

“I know,” you whisper, even as something inside you starts to ache. “You always come back.”

—

Days pass. Then weeks. 

You still go to work. Same office. Same blue-gray cubicle walls humming under cheap lights. Your coworkers greet you with practiced smiles and the usual chatter about deadlines and traffic. You smile back, careful not to let the pauses linger — you don’t want anyone asking how you’re doing.  

You tell yourself it’s fine. You’re fine. You’re not really the kind of person who clings too much. Caleb’s job is important and dangerous; you knew that from the start. You repeat it like a mantra every time the communicator on your desk stays silent.

During lunch breaks, your colleagues invite you out for noodles or coffee. You always shake your head with a little laugh. “I’ve got errands,” you say. You don’t. You just can’t stand the thought of burdening anyone with the smallness of how much you miss him.

Evenings are harder.  

The apartment still hums with the quiet habits you shared– his cup in the dish rack, his jacket folded on the chair. You keep reheating leftovers and packing them in containers he’ll never open.

You stop sleeping in bed; it feels too big alone. The couch becomes your spot again, TV buzzing faintly with that same sitcom you’ve seen a dozen times. The laugh track becomes mocking, at some point.

Messages sit half-written in your terminal.

Did you eat?

Don’t forget to rest.

The plants miss youuuu.

Coco puff too.

I miss you, Caleb.

You somehow never hit send. You just stare at the blinking cursor until the screen times out.

Sometimes you think about reaching out to friends– to anyone– but every time your hand hovers over the call icon, you stop. You tell yourself it would be rude, intrusive. They have lives; they don’t need to hear you talk about the weather or how quiet your home’s been. 

By the third week, your sleep pattern collapses. You start leaving lights on all over the apartment, afraid of how Skyhaven– this apartment feels without him. At first, the neighbors ask if you’re alright. Then they stop. And you’re alone again.

One evening– like any other– you hear the faint static pop outside the door. A knock follows. You expect Caleb. And you feel energy burst in your veins, your chest tightens, your heart surges– of course he’s come back, he promised!

“Honey!” You smile, already excited just unlocking the door. “I’m glad–”

The door bursts forward. Metal boots flood over the sound of rain. You barely register the shout before the noise swallows you whole.  

You fight, of course you do. Your heel connects with someone’s leg; a grunt, a shout. There are too many hands. Gloved, cold, inhuman. They shove you against the wall, pin your wrists. 

“Where– who, who are you you– let me go!”

One of them laughs, distorted through a voice modulator. “Funny. He didn’t even tell you, did he?”  

You freeze for half a second, breaths sharp. “Tell me what?”  

The laugh deepens. “That we’d come for you. He got our message and still somehow picked the other one.”

You blink hard as the words fracture through your panic. “What– what.. message?”

The leader raises his visor just enough for you to see his eyes– clinical and detached, yet clearly amused. “We will hurt the person you love most. Ring any bells?”

Your stomach drops, colder than fear. He’s lying. He has to be lying. “You mean… MC,” you say, voice small, trembling. “You went for her– not–” not me. These guys must have made a mistake!

“Oh, no. He made sure we couldn’t get to her.” A short laugh. “Guess he thought she mattered more.”

The words punch straight through your chest. For a second everything– the shouting, the rain, the struggling– fades under a single ringing truth. All the nights you spent waiting, the unanswered messages, the silence that stretched too long. 

He didn’t come back for you.  

He didn’t even think to.

Hands grip your jaw, cold metal pressing against skin. You thrash once, twice, but the strength is leaving you; your thoughts scatter like broken glass.  

The last thing you hear before the needle sinks into the side of your neck is that same voice, calm, almost sympathetic. “You were just the leftover piece, sweetheart. Don’t feel too bad. Wrong place, wrong kind of love.”

Pain blooms white-hot, before it vanishes into nothing.

He’ll come back, you think. As the floor tilts beneath you.

He always comes back.  

Then, a void. 

—

Linkon feels different from Skyhaven. Brighter, louder, endlessly awake even during the night.

Caleb spends the first few nights pretending it’s a temporary reassignment, nothing more. Duty. Safety. Logic. All the things he’s supposed to understand better than anyone.  

MC teases him for how restless he looks at the window. “You’ve been circling around like an idiot for an hour,” she says, handing him a mug of coffee. “Whatever’s on your mind, it’s going to give you wrinkles.”  

He huffs a small laugh. “Wrinkles build the man, pipsqueak.”  

“You don’t need more of that.” She leans against the counter, all casual.

But tonight, it only reminds him of what isn’t here.  

MC tilts her head. “Did you at least let your girlfriend know you got here safe?” He freezes for half a beat. “She knows the protocols,” he says finally.

“That’s not an answer.”  

He exhales. Drops his gaze to the liquid spinning in the cup. The rain on the glass matches its color almost perfectly.  “I didn’t want to worry her,” he mutters, almost to himself.  

MC studies him a moment longer, then shrugs. “You always think that’s protecting people. Maybe… sometimes it’s just shutting them out.”  She softens near the end, knowing her brother can be avoidant of his own feelings.

Her words hang in the air longer than they should.  

When the communicator on his wrist buzzes. And for a moment, his stomach drops, remembering the message that started all this.

It plays back in his head, like a faultline cracking through calm: a voice scrambled by automated distortion flattening it into something both human and not.

We will hurt the person you love most. Soon.

He’d stared at those words while she slept peacefully in their bed, the glow of the screen washing her face in pale light. He’d thought of past ambushes, of reports with MC’s name circled in hazard red, of how she’d been surveilled before because of his link as X-02. Those stupid fucking experiments. 

His years of ‘training’ since he was a child spoke first: calculate probability, reduce emotional interference. MC = high-value target. Logical priority. And he’d spent nearly his whole life with his little sister. Protecting her. They had leverage on her all the time. So it must be her… right?

Soon enough, dawn was spilling through his floor to ceiling windows. You stirred, half awake, murmuring… don’t leave. 

It should’ve been enough to make him stay. But Caleb Xia was built from logic, and logic had saved him too many times to abandon it now.

He blinks, coming back to the present. The mug in his hand trembles. His knuckles ache.

MC is saying something. He doesn’t catch it. The communicator crackles again, this time, louder.

The line crackles with interference, distant voices mixing with the sound of water hitting metal. A neighbor from Skyhaven stumbles through panic, the message choked with static:

“Mr. Xia? I– there was a noise from your building. It was horrible. I think there was a woman screaming. And there were just many suspicious men all rushing through your door and–”

He doesn’t hear the rest.

The mug slips, shattering on tile. Coffee streaks brown across the floor like dried blood.

“Caleb?” MC’s voice reaches him faintly. “What’s going on?”

He’s already moving. Coat. Terminal. Gun. Every instinct flares alive but too late.  

“Fuck, fuck—” His voice shakes as he tries to call you repeatedly. Only to be left on voicemail.

MC tries to follow but he’s already at the door. The wind catches as it closes behind him.

—

His car cuts through the midnight streets, engine roaring against silence. Streetlights smear gold over rain slicks as his mind replays the message in bursts— We will hurt the one you love most. Each phrase now blends with her voice in memory, words he never really answered.

He thought it meant MC.

He thought wrong.

And now, every second between the city’s rings feel like punishment.

—

The ride back to Skyhaven feels endless. He’s lucky to have strings to pull, getting on the train even if the last ride ended hours ago. Rain cuts across the window pane as the scenery changes as he moves past cities. Until eventually, he gets to his neighborhood. Each step makes him nervous as he gets closer to his front door. Mind reeling from what would be behind it.

Caleb tells himself you’re fine. That he’ll arrive and find the call to be exaggerated. Somehow. That he’ll open the door and you’ll laugh at how tightly he’s gripping the handle.

But when the door finally slides open, all sound leaves him.

The apartment is spotless. The faint scent of detergent and ozone hands in the air. The lamp by the couch glows exactly how he remembers it.

And you’re there.

Sitting upright, blanket folded neatly beside you. The TV is off. You’re still, hands resting on your lap as though you’ve been waiting.

When you turn your head and smile, the world clicks into place and falls apart at once. “Honey, you’re home.”

The words are right. But somehow… it’s also wrong.

He drops his things, crossing the room in two quick strides as he locks the door in less than a second. “Are you okay? What happened? The neighbors called and–”

Your gaze follows him a second too slow. “I’m fine. You’re drenched.”

He stops. “There were reports of men.. of a break-in.”

Silence. Then, calm. “No one came.”

He looks around. Not a thing out of place. Even the broken picture frame by the door– the one that fell the week before he left– is fixed.

“You cleaned,” he says softly, stunned. “Of course you did.”

You stand, careful, fluid. “You should shower before you catch a cold. I left dinner out for you.”

He moves to the table. Two plates. His served; yours untouched. The food is warm, impossibly so– as if perfectly timed to his arrival. Caleb badly wants to ask how you knew, but his throat’s too tight.

“I’m sorry,” he says instead. “I should’ve been here. I shouldn’t have–”

“It’s alright.” You lean against the wall near the lamp, eyes unfocused in the half-light. “You’re here now. That’s enough.”

He crosses back to you, rests a hand against your cheek. Warm. Steady. No tremor, no tears. He searches for something familiar in your eyes. He’s not entirely sure what, but he only saw his reflection in your irises. His heart clenches. Still, he wraps you tightly in his arms.

“Don’t ever scare me like that again,” he pleads quietly.

Her lips part just enough for a smile. “Okay, honey.”

He laughs, weakly, relief cracking through his guilt. “You even sound like you’re humoring me. You should be more mad.”

“Why would I be?”

It’s a joke. But you don’t laugh.

When Caleb sists beside you on the couch, the air between them feels heavier somehow, despite his relief. The lamplight hums faintly; the rain outside stopped.

He looks around, the apartment looks exactly like it did the night he left.

But your favorite sitcom wasn’t playing.

Your fingers stay on your lap.

And when he holds your wrist in his bigger hand, your pulse.. beats just a little too slow.

—

At first, he tries to restore normalcy.  

He cooks you breakfast, tells himself the silence between you is comfort, not distance. When you forget to respond to little things– his jokes, the sound of your name– he writes it off as exhaustion. Trauma, maybe. It’s easier that way. Maybe you just missed him too much.

You still call him Honey. Always softly. Always rhythmically timed.

“Good morning, honey.”

“Welcome home, honey.”

“Sleep well, honey.”

The first few days, it still warms him. Then the pattern sets in. Too even, too predictable. Each line lands with the same cadence, the same faint smile that never folds into laughter.

Sometimes he catches you sitting on the couch again. Posture perfectly straight, eyes on nothing. No TV, no sound. Just the glow of the lamp brushing your face like it did that first night. When he calls your name, you turn, apologizing, saying you lost track of time.

He finds you doing it every night. Always at the same hour. Always in the same spot.

A rhythm forms. Morning coffee you don’t really drink, dinner served and cleaned before he can finish, a bed you lie in like a statue. He watches all your movements like a hawk; how your chest rises and falls in precise intervals. 1, 2, 3– breathe. If he didn’t look closely, he’d think you’d been sleeping peacefully.

He clings to that lie.

Because acknowledging the alternative means admitting he left you here to break.

On the seventh night, he comes home early from base. The smell of something faintly sweet hits him as he unlocks the door. For a brief moment, his chest eases– you’re cooking. Moving again.

He follows the smell into the kitchen.

You’re standing by the stove, wooden spoon in hand, stirring something slowly.

“Smells good,” he says, smiling with cautious relief as he comes up behind you and kissing the back of your neck, then hiding his face in the junction of your shoulder breathing you in. “What’re you making?”

“Dinner,” you answer without looking up.

He finally raises his head. The pot is empty. Just reflective metal catching the light in circular motions as the spoon scrapes against it. The sound grates against his nerves. 

“Honey,” he says softly, reaching to still her hand, “it’s empty.”

You blink once, as if waking from a dream. “Dinner’s almost done.” Then you smile, turning back to the pot.

The scrape of metal fills the air again.

He stays the re a moment longer, staring at her profile. The steam that should’ve been rising isn’t there. His throat tightens, words crowding behind it but refusing to come out. 

He backs away slowly, returning to the living room. The rhythm resumes– the scrape, scrape, scrape like a clock ticking a world out of sync.  

That’s when the smaller glitches start appearing. 

Sometimes you repeat yourself mid-conversation, like replaying a moment you forgot to get right. Sometimes you laugh a little too late, or you stop all the sudden, the noise dying in your throat with confusion. 

Once, you burnt your hand on the kettle. The water hisses, but you don’t flinch until he grabs her wrist away.

“(Name), that’s– God, you’re hurt. Let go!” He rushes, getting the kettle off her hand with his gravity Evol, placing it on the counter; before checking your reddening hand.

You look at your skin, then at him, calm as rain. “I’m fine.”

“You’re not. You’re bleeding.”

“It’s fine, honey.” Your tone doesn’t change.

He grips the counter hard enough for his fingers to ache. That phrase– he’s starting to hate how easily it dissolves tension. How easily it can shut him down.

Later that night, lying beside her, he realizes you haven’t called him anything else in weeks. No teasing names. No Caleb. Just one word, one note, replayed in perfect pitch.

And somewhere inside him, the awareness begins to grow.

Whatever came back with him, it isn’t whole.

—

One evening, Caleb brings out an old bottle of wine you’d bought long ago for a night that never happened. He opens it anyway.

The living room feels too quiet without your laughter, so he tries to fill it with stories instead.

“Remember the first time we went to Yuhua Port together?” he starts, voice too light to hide the tremor underneath. “You made friends with that stray cat who kept trying to steal your sandwich.”

You look up from the couch, smiling faintly. “You mean the one near Skyhaven Station?”

He pauses. “No, Yuhua Port. The cat had white patches on its paws, remember? You said they looked like socks.”

You tilt your head, as if searching. “Right. The orange one.”

“It was gray.”

“Was it?” Your laugh is small, uncertain. “I remember orange.”

He laughs too, even though it lands hollow. ““You’ve got the worst memory, you know that?”  

“I guess I do.”  

The pause that follows is heavier than it should be. You still smile, but there’s no flicker of embarrassment, no playfulness– none of the small reactions he knows by heart.  

So he tries another. “Okay, then. What about the place I took you after that? When it rained the whole day.”  

You hum, thinking, but it’s the wrong kind of thinking– measured, deliberate, like piecing something together from a blueprint. “You took me to that café in Linkon.”  

“No,” he says softly. “We stayed in Skyhaven. The little tea place by the docks.”  

“Oh… right.”  

He starts to correct you again, then stops. His throat’s dry, the taste of wine bitter on his tongue. “You’ve just been tired lately. It’s fine.”

“I feel fine.” You reach for his hand, skin against skin, warm and steady. It feels right. The warmth is there, but the pressure is all wrong.

He doesn’t realize he’s staring until you tilt your head.  

“What is it?”  

“Nothing.” He squeezes your fingers gently, forces a smile. “Just thinking how lucky I am.”  

You smile back. “You always say that.”  

“I mean it this time.”  

“So did you, the last time.”  

He laughs, because not laughing would mean falling apart. He refills both glasses though you haven’t touched yours.  

Later that night, as he rinses the empty glass in the sink, he notices there’s no trace of wine in yours. The liquid’s still where he poured it.  

Untouched.  

He stands there for a long time, water running over his hands, until the sound drowns out every thought except one:  

You remember everything, except the parts that make you you. And he doesn’t know how to confront what he’s already suspecting.

—

You hear the door click open before you can stand from the couch.  

The lamp hums, the same low glow as always.  

Caleb steps through the doorway, eyes fever‑bright from exhaustion, rain still clinging to his jacket. You open your mouth, gentle as habit.  

“Honey, you’re–”  

He’s already kissing you.  

It’s rough, starved, more apology than desire. His hands move like a man trying to anchor himself somewhere solid. For a few seconds, you respond exactly as he remembers– arms around him, lips soft, rhythm precise. 

But when he deepens the kiss, something’s missing. No hitch in your breath, no tremor, no warmth rising from somewhere real.  

He pulls back just enough to whisper against your mouth, voice shaking. “Say something.”  

You blink up at him, calm. “You’re home.”  

His forehead presses to yours. “Not that. Please not that.”

You touch his cheek. “You’re tired, honey.”  

He flinches like the words burn. “Stop calling me that if you don’t mean it.”  

“I always–” 

“No, you don’t!” His tone breaks; he’s halfway between a sob and a shout. “You don’t know what you’re saying! You don’t–” He laughs once, sharp, bitter. “And god, I just– I keep pretending that you do.”

Your hands rest on his shoulders, perfectly steady. “I’m here.”  

He steps back, chest heaving. “Yeah. You’re here. Everyone keeps saying that– you, the unit reports, the neighbors…”

You tilt your head, almost curious.

“But they said you were screaming. You were attacked, (Name). But I did everything I could, I tried– I tried to get surveillance, I tried, but everything’s clean and I just. It’s like it never happened and I don’t know what to do, but I know something happened to you, AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO!” He bursts out, tears already falling as he ends up screaming the last sentence with no control; pulling at his hair in frustration.

Silence.  

He drags his fingers through his hair, trembling. “They sent me that message. We’ll hurt the one you love most. And I–” The sentence dies, then returns as a whisper: “I thought they meant someone else.”  

You watch him, expression unchanged. “You came back.”  

“Too late.” He laughs again, hysterical now. “Too goddamn late.” He turns away, voice cracking. “I thought I could fix this. That if I just acted like nothing happened, you’d come back to me.”  

“I waited,” you say gently. 

He freezes.  

The words land with unnatural precision. His gaze crawls back to your face, searching for the smallest sign that you understand.  

Your smile doesn’t move. “That’s what you wanted, isn’t it? For me to wait.”  

Something inside him snaps. He hits the wall with his fist, the sound splintering through the room. “That’s not what I wanted! I wanted you alive!”  

You stay seated, voice soft, almost soothing. “You’re alive. I’m alive. It’s fine.”  

He staggers back toward you, falls to his knees in front of the couch. Tears mix with the leftover rain on his face.  

“I’m so sorry,” he chokes. “I should’ve stayed. I should’ve been here. If I could trade places with you–” His words crumble into breathless sobs.  

You reach out, running your fingers through his hair like you’ve done a thousand times. The gesture is flawless, gentle, empty.  

He melts into it anyway. Because there’s nothing else left.  

Your voice drifts down, tender, practiced:”Honey, you’re home.”

He breaks completely, the sound that leaves him more animal than human.  

You keep stroking his hair, repeating the words until they lose meaning, until only their shape remains in the air– warm, wrong, and endless. 

—

Later.

He doesn’t remember when the crying stopped. Only the weight of your hand in his hair and your voice, soft as static: “Honey, you’re home.” 

When he finally pulls away, you’re still smiling. The expression doesn’t reach your eyes. His heart feels like it’s tearing itself in two.

He spends the next nights trying to repair a ghost.

You let him. You cook. You sit beside him when he falls asleep on the couch. You hold him whenever he wakes up shaking. Everything looks right on the surface– too right. That’s what drives him harder to open the classified files. Dig deeper.

Until finally, he successfully gets the incident log from the night of the attack.

There’s nothing there at first– corrupted data, missing footage– but then a suppressed note hidden under medical reports: subject sustained neuro‑somatic trauma; parasitic interference detected; neural override protocol inhibited due to host deterioration.

His stomach drops.

He scrolls again. Parasite responsive to emotional stress; external removal will induce cortical implosion.

The air leaves his lungs. It explains everything. You blanking out, your recent extreme perfectionism, like a doll. He almost thought it was a Toring Chip just like his, but he finds this much, much worse.

Ever’s experiment. X‑02’s counterpart. They made you into surveillance wrapped in skin.

He looks up from the file to where you’re standing at the sink, humming faintly. It’s the same tune you used to hum when cooking breakfast, except now the tempo never changes. He can’t tell if you’re doing it or the thing inside you is.

“Did they–” he starts, voice barely there, “Did they hurt you before they–”

You turn, wiping your hands carefully on a towel. “It doesn’t matter. You’re home.”

He tries again, words breaking apart. “You know what they did to you, don’t you?”

A flicker in your smile– a tiny tremor. “I know you left.”

He almost staggers under it. “No, I–”

“You always leave. And then you come back and say sorry.” Still calm, still gentle. “It’s fine, honey. I’m used to it.”

He can feel the edges of the parasite now, folded through the cadence of your voice– its mimicry feeding on every emotion you never said aloud. Your resentment. Your exhaustion. Your love stretched thin until it snapped and let something else inside.

He wants to fight. He wants to tear the thing out of you, damn the consequences. But the warning screens pulse behind his eyelids: external removal will induce cortical implosion.

If he fights it, it kills you.  

If he leaves it, he loses you.  

So he does the only thing left.  

He takes your hand. It’s warm, steady, steady in that wrong way. He presses his lips to your knuckles and speaks around the tears that won’t stop falling from his eyes.

“I’ll stay. I won’t go anywhere anymore. I promise.”

You tilt your head, that same patient smile returning. “You always say that.”

“I mean it this time.”

“So did you the last time.”  

He almost laughs. Almost. 

Then he lets you pull him down beside you on the couch. The lamp hums faintly; the night settles into the same rhythm it always has.  

Outside, Skyhaven glows. And a faint thunderstorm bellows. Inside, the two of you sit together in perfect stillness, your head on his chest, as he lays you both down on the couch– both knowing, neither saying. 

Because if he does, you die.  

And if he doesn’t, he’s already dead.

—

Another night, he comes home late.

The lamp is on. You’re on the couch, back straight, hands folded. No TV. No sound.

“Honey, you’re home,” you say.

He hesitates only a second now before crossing the room. He sits beside you, rests his head against your shoulder like he used to. He closes his eyes.

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☆ Dawn's First Light - by chuluoyi (part two)

☆ Heartbreak Anniversary with Zayne - by mephisto-reporting (link here)

☆ Heart of Glass - by szarina (masterlist)

☆ My Wedding Vow Is To Divorce You - by kira-loves0905 (link here)

☆ Claiming Something That's Not Yours - by authorssmc (link here)

☆ evermore - by shaiyasstuff (link here)

☆ Lonely Birthday - Zayne - by i-messed-up-big-time (link here)

☆ You Will Never Be Her - by mischivousvoid (link here)

☆ Imagine being Zayne's non-mc significant other - by dark-night-hero (link here, part two, part three)

☆ Evermore - by orphicmeliora (link here)

☆ THIRD PLACE TO A TWO-PERSON HOME - by a-casxandra (link here, part two, part three)

Caleb

☆ Rotten Apples - by rcvcgers (masterlist)

☆ mine - by captivating-flavors (link here)

☆ The Colonel's Keeper - by saintobio (link here)

☆ The Colonel's Saint - by saintobio (part two)

☆ The Terminator's Curse (spinoff of The Colonel Series) - by saintobio (link here)

☆ weightless paradise - by huxhsz (masterlist)

☆ Heartbreak Anniversary with Caleb - by mephisto-reporting (link here)

☆ Lonely Birthday - Caleb - by i-messed-up-big-time (link here)

☆ even when there was rain, sunshine came - by yuansie (masterlist)

☆ seven years - by cosmoszyn (link here)

☆ eighth year (part two of seven years) - by cosmoszyn (link here)

☆ a decade (part three of seven years) - by cosmoszyn (link here)

☆ LETTERS UNSENT - by orphicmeliora (link here)

☆ Backburner - by a-casxandra (link here, part two, part three, last part)

Xavier

☆ we can't be friends - by kitimeq (link here)

☆ Duty's Cruel Embrace - rcvcgers (masterlist)

☆ Lonely Birthday - Xavier - by i-messed-up-big-time (link here)

☆ Realizing Something You Shouldn't Have - by authorssmc (link here)

Rafayel

☆ Heartbreak Anniversary with Rafayel - by mephisto-reporting (link here)

☆ Ocean Memories - by yuansie (masterlist)

☆ Loathe To Paint You - by rcvcgers (masterlist)

☆ You Were Meant For The Ocean - by sapphirexsolarium (link here)

☆ Lonely Birthday - Rafayel - by i-messed-up-big-time (link here)

☆ You're losing Me - by a-casxandra (link here, part two, part three, last part)

☆ Imagine being Rafayel's non-mc significant other - by dark-night-hero (link here, part two, part three)

Multi

☆ to you - by calebsluvr (link here)

☆ Bitter - by whosashan (part one)

☆ Sour - by whosashan (part two)

◇ Hello, I won't be updating this list anymore BUT there's a second list already posted!

◇ You can also check this Reblogs!

◇ Made this list to keep track on the fics that I am reading and to find these fics easier.

◇ To the authors mentioned THANK YOU FOR YOUR AMAZING WRITING/WORKS AND I LOVE YA'LL 🙈💗

◇ All links are up to date!

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