Life's What You Make It ...

It isn’t easy, we all make mistakes but the thing is we have to keep going. Our mistakes do not define us and we must learn to move on and keep going! We will get there one day...

Really like this one!

Do you know what? Maybe I don't like to talk to anyone because I just don't have the energy anymore to try and make friends. Let's face it - I'm not really and never have been very popular. I used to think I was nice enough, now I'm not even sure that's true. Yes I lie about things - who doesn't? Maybe I equally lie about nearly everything because I can't be bothered to tell people what I'm really thinking. People have said in the past 'oh it's silly to think like that' or 'you're just saying that for attention'. Do you know what? Maybe I'm just saying those things because that's how I feel on a constant fucking basis. If you don't actually want to know how I'm feeling just don't ask in future. I'm 23 years old, have lived in a studio flat for nearly three years, no improvement on the job front either. I'm in so much debt its unreal. I have a limited network of friends - I'm usually the one who starts the conversation. To top all this off I have a constant battle with my health, whether it be my ears or now my heart. I speak like a weirdo, I have a massive nose, no boobs and my legs are just too fat. I also read way too much into conversations and constantly worry about other people think of me. But that may just be because I'm so incredibly conscious about the need to look good. If you don't look good these days you're not going to get the job and you're not going to network as effectively as others. Anyway enough of this self loathing, I'm in charge of the store for the whole weekend have some massive targets to hit and also have a paint stock take to complete.

Kygo & Selena Gomez - It Ain’t Me

Went to the gym today for the first time in ages. Spent 15mins on cross-trainer and thought I was going to die. Then it was time for the weight machines, luckily I had my boyfriend there to show me the ropes. All in all a good workout, though I have some very achy legs at the moment. Let’s try and keep this up!!