why cant i just. talk with everyone without romance coming up i just.  i odnt knwo . i just . wnat to talk to someone face to face about my problems not a therapist. i want to talk to neesama . shit. i cant be like this i cant talk to you withtou  you bring HIM up or YOU without TYOU bringin it u p i cant be friends with ANYONE WITHOUT SOME PROBLEM I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS SOMETIMES EVEN THOUGHT SOMETIMES I CANT EVEN SPEAK PLEASE DONT LET ME SPEAK FOR ONCE ITS SO HARD FOR ME TO LISTEN OR ACT OUT JUST LET ME . PLEASE. PELAS.E PLEASE. I WANT A DAY TO ME UPSET AND CRY AND HAVE SOEMONE HOLD MY HAND AND KISS MY CHEEK BUT IM SO SELFISH AND EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS AND I CNAT. I CNA TBE LIKE THIS . IM SO SORRY IM A TERRIBLE FRIEND I HATE . I HATE MYSELF I CANT HAVE FRIENDS I NEED SOMEONE TO CARE FOR ME WHY AM I BREAKING DOWN I WAS DOING SO GOOD I JSUT. im sorry i cant be friends with anyoe anymoer .