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listen for the heavy stillness before the rain & know i am waiting to become whole again .

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MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE SENTENCE MEME
The Black Parade
change pronouns and such as needed ( tw death, tw suicide, tw gore, tw blood, tw drugs, tw cancer)
THE END ❝ You can’t save me! ❞ ❝ Save me! Get me the hell out of here! ❞ ❝ Here’s my resignation, I’ll serve it in drag. ❞ ❝ When I grow up I want to be nothing at all! ❞ ❝ My dear, if you can hear me just walk away. ❞ ❝ Now come one, come all to this tragic affair! ❞ ❝ I’d encourage your smiles, I’ll expect you won’t cry. ❞ ❝ You might wake up and notice you’re someone you’re not. ❞ ❝ If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see, you can find out firsthand what it’s like to be me. ❞
DEAD! ❝ You never fell in love. ❞ ❝ Did you get what you deserve? ❞ ❝ Wouldn’t it be great if we were dead? ❞ ❝ Is that the most the both of you can give? ❞ ❝ Have you heard the news that you’re dead? ❞ ❝ If you get to heaven I’ll be here waiting, babe. ❞ ❝ If life ain’t just a joke then why are we laughing? ❞ ❝ Wouldn’t it be grand to take a pistol by the hand? ❞ ❝ If your life won’t wait then your heart can’t take this. ❞ ❝ So long, cause now you’ve got maybe just two weeks to live. ❞ ❝ No one ever had much nice to say, I think they never liked you anyway. ❞ ❝ If your heart stops beating, I’ll be here wondering did you get what you deserve? ❞
THIS IS HOW I DISAPPEAR ❝ I’m just a ghost. ❞ ❝ I can’t hurt you anymore. ❞ ❝ All the good girls go to heaven. ❞ ❝ Can you hear me cry out to you? ❞ ❝ Who walks among the famous living dead. ❞ ❝ Drain all the blood and give the kids a show. ❞ ❝ Now, you wanna see how far down I can sink? ❞ ❝ There’s things that I have done you never should ever know. ❞ ❝ Without you is how I disappear and live my life alone forever now. ❞
THE SHARPEST LIVES ❝ A kiss and I will surrender. ❞ ❝ You’re in time for the show. ❞ ❝ I’ve really been on a bender and it shows. ❞ ❝ The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead. ❞ ❝ If I crash on the couch, can I sleep in my clothes? ❞ ❝ I’ve spent the night dancing, I’m drunk, I suppose. ❞ ❝ So why don’t you blow me a kiss before she goes? ❞ ❝ Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands. ❞ ❝ You’re the one that I need, I’m the one that you loathe ❞ ❝ Well, it rains and it pours when you’re out on your own. ❞ ❝ A light to burn all the empires, so bright the sun is ashamed to rise. ❞ ❝ If it looks like I’m laughing, I’m really just asking to leave this alone. ❞ ❝ Give me a shot to remember and you can take all the pain away from me. ❞ ❝ There’s a place in the dark where the animals go, you can take off your skin in the cannibal glow. ❞
WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE ❝ I don’t care. ❞ ❝ We’ll carry on. ❞ ❝ In my heart I can’t contain it. ❞ ❝ I’m just a man, I’m not a hero. ❞ ❝ I won’t explain or say I’m sorry. ❞ ❝ Give a cheer for all the broken. ❞ ❝ Do or die, you’ll never make me. ❞ ❝ Go and try, you’ll never break me. ❞ ❝ Your misery and hate will kill us all. ❞ ❝ The world will never take my heart. ❞ ❝ I’m just a boy, who had to sing this song. ❞ ❝ I’m unashamed, I’m gonna show my scars. ❞ ❝ When you’re gone, we want you all to know, we’ll carry on. ❞ ❝ Though you’re broken and defeated, your weary widow marches. ❞ ❝ Though you’re dead and gone believe me your memory will carry on. ❞ ❝ Let’s shout it loud and clear. Defiant to the end we hear the call to carry on. ❞ ❝ On and on we carry through the fears and disappointed faces of your peers. ❞ ❝ When I was a young boy my father took me into the city to see a marching band. ❞ ❝ One day I’ll leave you, a phantom to lead you in the summer, to join the black parade. ❞ ❝ When you grow up would you be the savior of the broken, the beaten, and the damned? ❞ ❝ Sometimes I get the feeling she’s watching over me and other times I feel like I should go. ❞ ❝ Will you defeat them, your demons and all the non-believers, the plans that they have made? ❞
I DON’T LOVE YOU ❝ Better get up while you can. ❞ ❝ Better get out while you can. ❞ ❝ You’re still a good-for-nothing. ❞ ❝ I don’t love you like I did yesterday. ❞ ❝ So sick and tired of all the needless beating. ❞ ❝ Maybe when you get back I’ll be off to find another way. ❞ ❝ Well, when you go don’t ever think I’ll make you try to stay. ❞ ❝ After all the blood that you still owe another dollar’s just another blow. ❞ ❝ When you go would you have the guts to say, “I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday”? ❞
HOUSE OF WOLVES ❝ Tell me I’m an angel. ❞ ❝ It’s a compliment, I swear. ❞ ❝ We got innocence for days! ❞ ❝ I’ve been a bad motherfucker. ❞ ❝ I want to hear you sing the praise. ❞ ❝ Well, I think I’m going to burn in hell. ❞ ❝ Tell me I’m a bad, bad, bad, bad man. ❞ ❝ I said ashes to ashes, we all fall down. ❞ ❝ Tell me I’m a bad man, kick me like a stray. ❞ ❝ I’ll be granting your permission ‘cause you haven’t got a prayer. ❞ ❝ Well, I know a thing about contrition because I got enough to spare. ❞ ❝ As the blood runs down the walls, you’ll see me creepin’ up these halls. ❞ ❝ You better run like the devil, ‘cause they’re never going to leave you alone. ❞ ❝ I’m going to come sing the praise and let the spirit come on through you. ❞ ❝ You better hide up in the alley ‘cause they’re never going to find you a home. ❞
CANCER ❝ Turn away. ❞ ❝ Know that I will never marry. ❞ ❝ Bury me in all my favorite colors. ❞ ❝ The hardest part of this is leaving you. ❞ ❝ Now turn away ‘cause I’m awful just to see. ❞ ❝ But counting down the days to go? It just ain’t living. ❞ ❝ Still I will not kiss you, ‘cause the hardest part of this is leaving you. ❞ ❝ I just hope you know that if you say good-bye today, I’d ask you to be true. ❞ ❝ If you could get me a drink of water cause my lips are chapped and faded. ❞
MAMA ❝ We’re all full of lies. ❞ ❝ We’ll never let you go. ❞ ❝ We’re damned after all. ❞ ❝ Mama, we all go to hell. ❞ ❝ You ain’t no son of mine. ❞ ❝ We’re meant for the flies. ❞ ❝ Mama, we’re all gonna die. ❞ ❝ I should’ve been a better son. ❞ ❝ I could have been a better son. ❞ ❝ You should’ve raised a baby girl. ❞ ❝ When you go, don’t return to me, my love. ❞ ❝ Right now they’re building a coffin your size. ❞ ❝ So raise your glass high, for tomorrow we die. ❞ ❝ There’s shit that I’ve done with this fuck of a gun. ❞ ❝ Stop asking me questions, I’d hate to see you cry. ❞ ❝ We all carry on when our brothers in arms are gone. ❞ ❝ For what you’ve done they’re gonna find a place for you. ❞ ❝ If you could coddle the infection they can amputate at once. ❞ ❝ We all go to hell. It’s really quite pleasant, except for the smell. ❞ ❝ If you would call me a sweetheart, I’d maybe then sing you a song. ❞ ❝ If you can stay, then I’ll show you the way to return from the ashes. ❞
SLEEP ❝ Just sleep. ❞ ❝ Three cheers for tyranny. ❞ ❝ How could you cry for me? ❞ ❝ A drink for the horror that I’m in. ❞ ❝ And I can’t…I can’t ever wake up. ❞ ❝ Walk away a savior or a madman. ❞ ❝ The hardest part is letting go of your dreams. ❞ ❝ There ain’t no way that I’m sorry for what I did. ❞ ❝ There ain’t no way that I’m coming back again. ❞ ❝ So shut your eyes, kiss me goodbye, and sleep. ❞ ❝ They’re not like tremors, they’re worse than tremors. ❞ ❝ How could you cry for me? ‘Cause I don’t feel bad about it. ❞ ❝ They’re these terrors and it feels as if somebody was gripping my throat. ❞ ❝ The hardest part’s the awful things that I’ve seen. Sometimes I see flames and sometimes I see people that I love dying. ❞
TEENAGERS ❝ The drugs never work. ❞ ❝ You’re never gonna fit in much, kid. ❞ ❝ Teenagers scare the living shit out of me. ❞ ❝ Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me. ❞ ❝ They could care less as long as someone’ll bleed. ❞ ❝ They’re gonna give you a smirk ‘cause they got methods of keeping you clean. ❞ ❝ Darken your clothes or strike a violent pose, maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me. ❞ ❝ They’re gonna clean up your looks with all the lies in the books to make a citizen out of you. ❞ ❝ They’re gonna rip up your heads, your aspirations to shreds. Another cog in the murder machine. ❞
DISENCHANTED ❝ You won’t feel a thing. ❞ ❝ So go away, just go, run away! ❞ ❝ You never learned a goddamn thing. ❞ ❝ This never meant nothing to you at all. ❞ ❝ You’re just a sad song with nothing to say. ❞ ❝ Where did you run to? And where did you hide? ❞ ❝ If I’m so wrong, how can you listen all night long? ❞ ❝ I spent my high school career spit on and shoved to agree. ❞ ❝ As we ran from the cops we laughed so hard it would sting. ❞ ❝ I hate the ending myself but it started with an alright scene. ❞ ❝ If you think that I’m wrong, this never meant nothing to you. ❞ ❝ Bring out the old guillotine, we’ll show them what we all mean. ❞ ❝ Will it matter after I’m gone? Because you never learned a goddamn thing. ❞
FAMOUS LAST WORDS ❝ Can I speak? ❞ ❝ Where’s your heart? ❞ ❝ I am not afraid to keep on living. ❞ ❝ I am not afraid to walk this world alone. ❞ ❝ A love that’s so demanding I get weak. ❞ ❝ A life that’s so demanding I get so weak. ❞ ❝ A love that’s so demanding I can’t speak. ❞ ❝ So many bright lights, they cast a shadow. ❞ ❝ These bright lights have always blinded me. ❞ ❝ Well, is it hard understanding I’m incomplete? ❞ ❝ Nothing you can say can stop me going home. ❞ ❝ I know there’s nothing I can say to change that part. ❞ ❝ I see you lying next to me with words I thought I’d never speak. ❞ ❝ Now, I know that I can’t make you stay but where’s your heart? ❞
BONUS: BLOOD ❝ I’m such an awful fuck. ❞ ❝ Honestly, I’ll be here for a while. ❞ ❝ I gave you blood, gallons of the stuff! ❞ ❝ I’m the kind of human wreckage that you love. ❞ ❝ Well, they encourage your complete cooperation. ❞ ❝ Grab a glass because there’s going to be a flood. ❞ ❝ Send you roses when they think you need to smile. ❞ ❝ Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough. ❞ ❝ I gave you all that you can drink and it has never been enough. ❞ ❝ I can’t control myself because I don’t know how and they love me for it. ❞ ❝ A celebrated man amongst the gurneys, they can fix me proper with a bit of luck. ❞ ❝ The doctors and the nurses they adore me so but it’s really quite alarming cause I’m such an awful fuck. ❞
i’ve been neglecting ben but i’m here,,,,,,,,,, also i quit my job what’s up
💞 !!!!!!!
5 ways to say I love you / no longer accepting / @sixthtm
1. They are children, and there is a monster living in Number Six’s stomach. Not like the monsters that Klaus sees, this one is a living thing that moves and writhes under Six’s skin. It’s scary, but Four has seen a lot of scary things already. At least the thing inside Six doesn’t scream at him, or ask him to save it. And Six is kind and patient, and doesn’t look at Four weird when he talks to people no one else can see. They are children, who have just been taught how to fire a gun and the ways to kill people, but they have half an hour of free time-it is a Sunday, and that means fun. Four would usually spend his time climbing trees or putting worms down Three’s shirt, but Six looks tired and ill so instead he sits by him in the quiet of the attic. Six is quiet, which is fine, because Four can talk for the both of them. “-I’m gunna make us matching bracelets,” he is saying, “like Mom wears sometimes, but not as fancy, ‘cause I’m making them,” he pauses, grins at his brother and the monster living inside him, “we’ll look like twins, which we sort of are, I guess. Anyway, they’ll just be for me and you, not One or any of them, not even Two. Just me and you, ‘cause you’re my favourite.”
2. Things have changed, they are older now, they have names-and Ben is dead. No matter how often people say the words Klaus cannot bring himself to accept them. Ben, sweet Ben who hated hurting people, is dead. He stays high for weeks on end, barely eats or sleeps until his father threatens him with a week in the mausoleum if he doesn’t get his act together. Briefly Klaus considers just letting it happen, sure the place is the root of all his trauma-but what can be worse than this? Eventually Klaus manages to drag himself forward, claws his way out of the waves of narcotics and grief enough to eat and talk to his siblings. A few weeks later, and Ben is there looking as if nothing is happened. Klaus wants to scream, wants to cry and throw things and take pills until he cannot see straight anymore. He doesn’t, instead he reaches out a hand to the ghost of his brother and speaks with a voice thick with tears, “hey Benny, I miss you.”
3. Breaking into a bookshop isn’t the hardest thing Klaus has ever done, all things considered. Sure he’s a little scratched up from breaking the window but hey, scars are hot right? Anyway, the police didn’t catch him which is the most important part, and he is huddled in an ally with his prize hidden under his coat. He waits until he’s sure the coast is clear before pulling it out, eyes flicking over the title which, frankly, seems boring as all hell, but he smiles anyway and holds it out to Ben. “Ta-da! All yours, or mine, I guess, but I can read it to you, if you want.”
4. The problem with growing up with part of the Umbrella Academy, besides everything, is that Klaus is never really sure what to do for his birthday. Sure he knows people have parties, get drunk, all the good stuff-but he does that anyway. He could flutter his eyelashes, get a free shot or something on account of the glorious occasion, but he does that too often during the rest of the year for it to actually mean anything. Calling his siblings is out of the question-though he did send Diego a card-as is asking any of his “friends” to, what? Go to the cinema? Take him for dinner. No, that’s not right either. There is one person he knows he can celebrate with. He’s scraped what money he has and cleaned up enough that no one throws him out of the diner. When he asks for two donuts (with a separate plate for each) and two sodas, the waitress gives him an odd look, but serves him anyway which is all that matters. He slides into a booth, pulls from his pocket two very battered looking birthday candles and sticks one in each doughnut. It should be a sad sight, but Klaus is smiling anyway, “happy birthday Ben!”
5. Sobriety is hard, more than hard actually-it’s a fucking nightmare. Between the cravings and the withdrawal and the ghosts Klaus is surprised he hasn’t lost his fucking mind yet. Or maybe he has, that would explain a few things. Still, it comes with some benefits-Diego seems proud of him at least, and his head’s clearer than it’s been in years. There are other benefits too, like the one sat across from him right now. It’s taken weeks of practise to make Ben corporal on purpose and for any long stretch of time, and even now it still leaves Klaus feeling winded and exhausted for hours after. “Don’t over do it,” Ben warns, always looking out for him even after everything. Klaus just grins, slings an arm ‘round Ben’s shoulders, “aw c’mon Benjamin, you’re worth a headache or two.”

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i did something stupid,,,,, i dyed my hair blonde
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my nails have been this terrible neon green color for like a week and a half bc the nail lady wanted me to change from pink and i’m...... starting to Hate it
god will i ever shut up about how much ben actually Loves his siblings????
heck yeah i'll be here today 💪

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taken from dragon age origins. feel free to adapt as you wish.
❝ here I thought we were getting along so well. ❞
❝ I was going to name one of my children after you ! the grumpy one. ❞
❝ well, he’s not half as dead as he looks, is he ? ❞
❝ yes, swooping is… bad. ❞
❝ first it’s ‘ I like you ‘ but then ZAP, frog time ! ❞
❝ mercy ? I wouldn’t have expected that from you. ❞
❝ that’s what I’m here for ! to deliver unpleasant news and witty one-liners. ❞
❝ [ in a sing-song tone ] somebody has been drinking ! ❞
❝ you drink some blood, you choke on it and pass out. ❞
❝ I was just thinking about you ! isn’t that a marvelous coincidence ? ❞
❝ well, uh, try not to tell everyone how easily fooled I was ? ❞
❝ here’s the thing: being near you makes me crazy, but I can’t imagine being without you. not ever. ❞
❝ have I told you that I love you ? I did ? well, it won’t kill you to hear it again, will it ?❞
❝ now that the warm, fuzzy part of the day is over with, we can get back to the ritual dismemberments. ❞
❝ oh no, I’m babbling. maybe we should go— let’s go ! let’s just go ! ❞
❝ that… was SO not what I meant. ❞
❝ well, look here, now who’s an idle gossip ? ❞
❝ there’s nothing saying that a moron can’t be cute and adorable. ❞
❝ I don’t know if I should take you seriously… but you scare me sometimes. ❞
❝ I’ve never been very good at that. the steeling myself part. I find it better sometimes to just be a little weak. ❞
❝ yes, I’m that blind. I so totally did not see you ogling each other before. ❞
❝ some days I have trouble figuring out which boot goes on which foot. ❞
❝ it hurts my manly feelings, you know. all one of them. ❞
❝ I didn’t say it was a good plan. ❞
❝ soooo, what would you do if someone told you that they loved you ? ❞
❝ can’t you be more judgmental ? I’m trying to rant, here. ❞
❝ bad things happen when I lead. we get lost, people die, and the next thing you know I’m stranded somewhere without any pants. ❞
❝ I just would have screwed it up like I do everything else. but at least I would have cared. ❞
❝ now that I’ve handled that with my… usual deft brilliance, time to move on ! ❞
❝ ouch, now I’m wounded. look at me, bleeding all over the place. you are just not very nice, are you ? ❞
❝ I’ve come to… care for you. a great deal. ❞
❝ am I fooling myself ? or do you think you might ever feel the same way about me ? ❞
anyway happy munday here’s two bathroom selfies from saturday when i went to see that fucking clown movie ✌️
haha i skipped work today what's up ✌
* apocalypsedeterrent
he finds him in the library. of course he does — not life or death or time could take ben’s love of books away from him, a fact that brings comfort both to ben and five.
he doesn’t spend much time looking, really. makes a beeline towards his brother’s favorite table, the familiarity of the moment not lost on him. the affection bubbling up his chest now both foreign and familiar at once, long forgotten now rediscovered. he takes a seat by his side wordlessly. pushs a half-eaten chocolate bar into ben’s pocket as he did, for old times’ sake.
“so,” he hums, bringing a book from the stack towards himself, leaning back against the wooden chair flipping through the pages. his voice is low, and casual. a breath above a whisper. the cameras whirring about every corner of this house have not been forgotten, even after so long. “how’s flesh and blood treating you, six?”
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they keep him hidden , these mountains of books the sides to his makeshift cave : there are some habits that are hard to break , dead or not , and the permanence of paper feels like the only constant ben’s ever had in his life ( it’s not , no . never ) . his lungs feel heavy when he forgets to breathe , and the creatures ripple within his chest , lest he dares forget they’ve always been there ( they will always be ) .
he forces himself to be comforted by his brother’s presence , by the number -- name that was given to him . ( how does it feel , to be alive again? to be seen? is it worth it? ) . this is familiar , he thinks , the echoes of a voice he’d thought would never hear again and the dust that purposefully accumulates on the books’ spines .
the subtle movement of a hand , ben breaks a piece of chocolate from his pocket and puts it in his mouth . ( yes , it always is ) . ❛ ‘m still getting used to it , ❜ he says , a not -- so -- subtle it fucking sucks stuck to the roof of his mouth . six doesn’t say it , this , but he misses the hazy -- silence of klaus , the known serenity of a decade spent alone , ❛ how’s family life treating you ... again? ❜
AND THEY SLOWLY GROW / beneath the skin , so breathe in , breathe out , let the human in / IF I LOSE CONTROL , i feed the beast within / * ben hargreeves from the umbrella academy , by sabs .

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