The Truth About Leaving My Best Friends Behind
I never imagined that we will reach this point. I was proud of our friendship because I have always thought that it was built in the foundation of trust and loyalty. So many people are looking for the kind of friendship that I thought we already had. But as it turned out, what we were and what we had are nowhere near to what most people are searching for.
We created our circle during the time when we all wanted the same things, when all we wanted to do was have fun, when all we thought about was ourselves and how the people outside our circle see us, when all we did was enjoy the present and not care about what the future holds for all of us. We were young, carefree, and we felt limitless.
But that’s the problem. The only common thing we have left that connects us all is the past and right now, we are in different seasons of life. Some of us are craving for a fresh start. We no longer have the same outlook on life, we're not on the same page anymore, we all want different things, and our priorities just don't meet. One left the hometown, one stopped studying, one just got a job, one is barely surviving, one is just figuring out what they really want, and the rest just want to party and pretend they’re not ready to mature. The thing is, everything is changing and we have different ways of coping up. And because we were all so busy growing up, we never noticed that we were also drifting apart. How did we miss that?
For the past months, I felt like I am gradually outgrowing our friendship. I was moving forward way too fast and none of you seem to keep up with my pace. I thought I was just being three steps ahead. For a moment, I stopped there to wait but when I looked back, none of you were there and that’s when I realized that I lost all of you. There could only be two explanations for that, either I was too absorbed about my progress that I unknowingly left you all behind, or you all saw me running ahead but none of you bothered to go after me.
Whichever of the two, I am now making a choice. I am going to continue to grow and run but I am not stopping this time. The barriers of the road, the wounds and bruises I may get if I ever trip, the strangers I may bump into, these things will sure come. And by doing this, I am preparing myself for the possible roadblocks that I may have to face alone.
To the amazing people I used to call my “Best Friends,” I am sorry for leaving you behind. Someday, I hope to see you all on the other side of the road.