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+ i actually really liked alamo’s first father figure who’s name i forgot :((( he was sweet and im sad for him. justice for my man🙏

+ ngl my heart is aching for faye. she got tattooed with a swastika tramp stamp with no fucking notice or warning or ability to opt out. she is complicit in what is happening around her at this point so i can’t feel too bad but. i think the way chloe cherry plays her as really airheaded and dim makes me more inclined to believe her as oblivious rather than evil. i don’t agree with what she’s chosen for herself but. idk i feel for her i guess

and what we saw of the dynamic between her and mitch ( i think is his name. the nazi man ) was concerning. like he seems very domineering/controlling and i am #worried

+how did rue get out of the hole. did they have to collectively dig her out. it’s such a small detail but. i want to know😭 why did she just. appear. in not hole anymore ! with no dirt on her or anything ?

idk she clearly had a shower or something but i think it would’ve helped me string the scenes together a bit more with like. dirt in her hair or something, or seeing her have a moment in like a bathroom mirror (or somewhere private) where she looks at her reflection and has to see the visual evidence of her near-death? idk but i think just a quick scene of her looking in the mirror and trying to get dirt out of her hair/off her face/neck etc(in like a “don’t see it it’s not real” kind of way? like. [STRANGER THINGS SEASON5 MILD SPOILER] similar to nancy wheeler washing her parent’s blood off of her hands. idk how to describe is but. something like that) would’ve been really powerful ! it would make the near-death feel more real and connected if we see the aftermath bc it just felt a little disjointed to me

+ rue and the feds with that damn phone yall are gonna fuck up somewhere omg i don’t know how or when but i swear i know it’s gonna happen

+ alamo & maddy’s tension makes me nervous. i can’t explain it and i don’t think she’s a character they would kill off or anything, but im afraid

+ rue my darling you should most certainly not be having any children right now. or for the foreseeable future. girlypops needs to sort herself out first before even CONSIDERING having kids

+ her going off at jules ??? get her ass on my behalf rue ! take her down ! (i was kind of fine with jules in season 1, then it felt like her character nosedived in s2 and i didn’t really like her, and after that fucking painting with lexi + the rest of her (limited) screen time in s3 i’m sorry im officially against her. i adore hunter schafer and not even that goddess could make me like jules atp)

+ “he’s not gonna leave his wife for you jules come on”

“you’re just a little toy that he keeps locked in a little room. don’t go anywhere, don’t see anyone, just- just stay there and paint until i come back to fuck you?” i was beyond GAGGED my god ! rue did not come to play and i love her for it

+ was gobsmacked by jules fucking hittting rue? that caught me so off guard i had to replay the scene holy shit

+ rue in the elevator :(((( babydoll needs a hug pls i beg

+ fucking cassie in that fucking show with her small fucking role and her few fucking lines that she STILL manages to fuck up? not to be dramatic but she can fuck right off omg i was ripping my hair out over that shit. it felt like they were trying to be like. she is also traumatised (as any normal person would be after what she watched her new husband endure) but it was ineffective and quite frankly, short lived. her immediately going to the blood on her wedding dress (and not the beating and mild DISMEMBERMENT of her HUSBAND IN FRONT OF HER)was a bullet to what could’ve worked as some form of dimension to her character

+ it’s confirmed, cassie and sydney sweeney are the same person atp. they’re not even trying to differentiate anymore. “oh no, not fully nude … i mean, it is so tasteful so it doesn’t even look like it’s nude” bro omg do i have to say anything

“so you’re a sex worker.” “[laughs] no, i am not! i am not a sex worker. … i’m a performer that uses my body to tell stories” girl. GIRL.

[would like to clearly state that i am not against des work nor am i judging sex workers. i have deep respect for the people who work in that industry, i am just against sydney sweeney/cassie and the way euphoria portrays sex work and the women in it <3]

+ ngl cassie being mailed her husband’s severed finger would’ve been horrifying in almost any other show but all i could do was laugh.

+ after that phone call, rue is totally dying (or otherwise getting written off) at the end of season 3. zendaya seems done w euphoria (as i would be too) and that phone call wrapped her up so nicely and. homegirl is donezo

and the conversation lexi has with her friend right after that about someone needing to be killed off? that was just the cherry on top imho

+ seeing nate have a full fit in the flower patch reminded me of s1&2 nate ! it somehow made me feel more disconnected though?? like. it felt like the show was trying to make season 3 nate feel more like the nate we had in seasons 1 & 2, but it just showed me how big the difference is. like. that was s3nate having a breakdown. that was extreme to me from what i’ve seen of s3nate. but that would’ve been so tame for s1/2nate ! s1/2nate choked maddy, held her at gunpoint, beat a guy senseless and forced him to turn himself in for SA, and the absolute boatload of other things he did. it just made the two versions of nate i have in my head feel more separate. i don’t think im articulating my thoughts very well right now but thats the best im getting i fear

+ rue gave me a damn near heart attack almost crashing into the fucking truck jfc

+ also ! the burning bush at the end was visually an incredible moment ! and i understood what was going through her brain in that moment. i credit that entirely to zendaya’s acting chops, she gave entirely incredible performances this episode (as always)

i felt it was strong symbolism but i haven’t fully registered what i think it’s symbolism for. but my brain is telling me something. once i decipher it i shall report back🫡

(no spoilers i pinky swear. just ranting about production quality)

beyond the ethical shit with sam levinson exploiting artist's work etc (which is obv awful), without the artists’ work the show itself has gone downhill. labyrinth's music gave such character to euphoria, the aesthetic from petra collins was perfect, and what i now think was zendaya's influence as a producer allowed the show to read as three dimensional and deep in a meaningful way once you looked past the dicks.

now though it's such a second screen show with much more limited nuance and depth !!! it feels so centered around shock value and sydney sweeney'(who is a garbage bag of what i believe is likely to be maga infested worms for another day)s tits and i'm like hey. we don't need more cassie content. no one is asking for more. who is asking for more. it's at a point where it's so clearly just. sam levinson's fucking fetish that it's not character work anymore it's just porn! and that is. bad. for a show that is so character driven. there is no overarching narrative, it's just these characters and their lives and problems! and so diminishing the characters so you can get more sydney sweeney fetish content is # not good

it's like ??? hey you have DESTROYED jules !! lexi is being completely ignored !!!! where the fuck did kat go??? did she fuckin fall into the void??? it's literally just pure shock value in parts and while sometimes it's on theme, the way it's done just doesn't work because of the scoring. you cannot play off what is meant to be a dark and gritty and fucking HORRIFIC scene with bit music (i am of course referring to the wedding night iykyk) !! this is a bit and we are the joke. it's the cliche horror strings and they're trying to create comedic contrast to the horror happening around the funny but it actually just devalues the content. i am being ragebaited here

and what annoys me is that it fucking works! it has worked on me !! i'm still watching the show because despite the MANY many flaws. because there are good parts! the good parts are less good than the good from seasons 1 and 2 but. zendaya is still fucking phenomenal and turns my screen into an absolute masterpiece! jacob elordi is (somehow) making me concerned about nate (the snake) jacobs (who for context if you couldn't tell by my fun name for him. is evil and awful and abusive)

like !! zendaya should get awards!!! jacob elordi should get awards !!! alexa demie oh my god do not even get me STARTED on that woman she is stunning and gorgeous and beautiful and has been making me love maddy and root for her since day one ! even when i don't agree with what maddy does, alexa plays it so convincingly that i can't help but adore her. the desperation and vulnerability and pure fucking terror zendaya is putting into rue is insane! and hunter schafer is once again, wonderful! it's just that the direction the creative team took jules in is abysmal and borderline character assassination. i was never a jules #1 fan but i still liked her! even when i didn't like what she was doing and i was yelling at my screen i still liked her! if i didn't then i at least understood her or empathised. and now im like. hey. hey guys. what the fuck have you done. you've destroyed her agency and jules' creative freedom as an ARTIST because that is WHO JULES IS AS A CHARACTER. for why. for what reason. for fun? fun for whom. not me.

aND ANOTHER THING☝️the makeup quality has declined :( and euphoria had such strength in the makeup and hair and wardrobe! and it feels like someone took a fucking axe to hair and makeup and costuming. it still looks fucking great don't get me wrong, and maybe it's just different lighting since they aren't blatantly ripping off petra's aesthetic anymore, but it feels. like less. the show lost its spark and i'm sad about it

idk i'm still watching it because (and this is the exact way i phrased this to my work friend on thursday) watching euphoria now is a bit like watching a baby elephant try to drive a train full of people. someone should stop him! this is not good! this does not look good (aside from the occasional moments where the elephant finds the pedal) (aka most of whenever zendaya/jacob elordi/alexa demie/ maude apatow etc are on screen) (and the costumes and hair and makeup despite it not being of the same caliber as it used to be, it is still incredible)! this will not end well! this is bad! someone stop him! but as horrified as i am to see the train i loved once go off the rails like this. i am morbidly curious and the ragebait is (fortunately or unfortunately) (i believe unfortunately) working on me! this is pmo so badly but i wanna know what happens. i'm invested now and i don't know if im hatewatching, curiosity watching or what the everloving fuck reason i'm watching for but im in now help me pls im trapped (i am voluntarily watching and i will not stop. i cannot be made or forced to stop. i am trapping myself this is a cage made of straw and paper)

also. seeing maddy constantly (still being so much cooler than cassie and being so much BETTER than cassie is healing my soul. because. at this point. is sydney sweeney acting anymore bc i swear they're just putting her on screen and letting her be herself and do what she wants and they’re calling that cassie. so when they're insulting cassie and poking fun at cassie i like to think that they're actually insulting sydeney sweeney (she doesn't deserve my first name basis im petty and i don't like her can u tell yet im super subtle i know) because at this point they literally just. are. sydney sweeney and cassie are basically the same person now and they both suck and are morally (in my oPINION) not even equal to a slug with the shit that they are (both) willing to accept and say and do and participate in for money and fame (eg that fuckass jeans commercial that was super thinly veiled white supremacy eugenics bullshit) ! but one of them is a fictional character and one of them is a real person who has seemingly (at least publicly) no issue with trump endorsing her and sucking up to right wing lunatics and racist bigots and the works, all of which actually DO have an impact because it's just another person trump's loser cultists can point to and say "see ! she's hot and she has no problem with trump! that means she agrees!" and unless/until she says something, that will continue feeding their delusions. every bit of resistance and every statement matters at this point and it is irresponsible to pretend like that isn't true. "art is not political" not only has art ALWAYS been political and played into politics but at this stage, everything is political. people are being fucking murdered and assaulted in horrific ways. there is actual racial cleansing happening. people's basic human rights and dignities are being taken away. all because of ICE under trump's word. and you think they won't come for you? women's rights are also under attack, but she won't care for that until it is her problem. (i did get slightly political i fear i accidentally lied when i said wasnt going into the worms) (did not mean to lie but. it happened i fear)

i am still hoping she pulls her head out of her ass because i believe change is really important and i hope she is willing to actually have literally any morals and change and stand up against this bullshit. if it comes out that she has been in any way forced or pressured into this i will of course hold no grudge. the creative industry is sadly notorious for taking advantage and control of young women and using them. it is awful but sadly not surprising anymore. and if she is being forced i have empathy for her. but right now it does not read that way, and i will have thoughts and opinions about what is happening now (which i am free to share even though some people will of course disagree and thats fiNE) and my thoughts and opinions on what she is doing are not positive and (to me) are indicative of her morals and ethical values. i would love to see her grow and change ! that would be wonderful ! but until that happens i don’t like her

that last part was a really long winded way of saying that your actions (or lack thereof) are what speak the loudest and right now they are speaking loudly. if it comes out that this is under duress i will have empathy but right now i am judging what i see based on my morals and values.

like. music is so universal and fluid that love for a song can still exist when i have no earthly idea of what the singer is saying

and seriously. what even is so bad about it. she’s fully clothed. it’s the implication that challenges your comfort. and art is and has always meant to be challenging. is the crime that she’s having her hair pulled? that she’s on her knees? so many of the people in seeing complaining are the same people that were eating up the juno positions, where she was also on her knees and in much more provocative positions.

i’ve also seen people saying that she’s “encouraging violence” and “degrading women” which. what. again i would like to state that kink ≠ violence and if you think it is then you lack even a surface level understanding of it and are in no place to comment.

consensual kink is not bad or some kind of massive tone-deafness to the current political climate. she owes you nothing in that regard - SHES A MUSIC ARTIST NOT A POLITICIAN. she’s taking autonomy in her sexual choices, and i find the backlash from feminists quite ironic considering that the people who don’t want to be told how to be a woman are telling a woman how to be a woman.

should a woman not be able to make choices about what she does with her own body? if you think so, please re-examine your sense of feminism.

her music and media isn’t for everyone and it was never going to be. no art suits everyone. but it’s hers to make. if you have an issue with it, scroll past and move on with your fucking life.

thank you for coming to my tedtalk, i’ve been simmering watching all the discourse about this and i needed to rant.

this little (not really) girl just absolutely fuckin gave this crew a verbal evisceration if i’ve ever heard one

“i won’t.”