Shan Bran

i naturally gravitate toward women that everyone hates. like lol shes so me i love her

what if you come back to your LAKE HOUSE where you feel TRAPPED after taking care of your last LIVING RELATIVE and your BEST FRIEND who you happen to be IN LOVE WITH is still sending you MIXED SIGNALS because she's EMOTIONALLY CONSTIPATED and all you want to do is sleep in your own BED and SMOKE WEED but when you show up there's a RANDOM STRANGER in your HOUSE who happens to be your long lost ADOPTED SISTER and now you have both DADDY AND MOMMY ISSUES and your CRUSH STOOD YOU UP with a girl who has TWO FIRST NAMES

I think Shirley Jackson delves so well into the horror of self-consciousness. To be so aware of yourself, whether due to loneliness or not belonging or abuse, can be a monstrous experience that reduces your experience of the world to a series of mechanical processes. I will get up. I will cross the room in front of everyone. I will get a cup of water. I must drink the cup of water before I return in case it is odd to have it on the couch. They must not think I'm odd. Instead of swinging into the kitchen for a drink while laughing with friends. Mechanical processes are based on cause and effect, and if you are so used to thinking in terms of cause and effect, you can start applying that framework nonsensically out of a self-defensive need for control--which begs the question of what happens when defense becomes offense

relatedly, the on-set story of hannah crying uncontrollably after the cameras cut and gillian gently asking if she knows how to regulate herself and her saying no (and them figuring it out and jane smoking a cigarette with her after) is kind of a parallel metanarrative. again in my beautiful mind.

ah doing ma thing just like god int- (remembers im atheist) just like the universe intend- (remembers i don't believe in determinism) just like noone and nothing intended ever. doin ma thang fucking unpredictable style

My new pet peeve is people completely misunderstanding the term Male Gaze and making the term female gaze based entirely on that misunderstanding

the white boy of the month pushing his hair back and reading poetry for the camera is not the equivalent of the dehumanization of women in visual media by way of presenting them primarily as vessels for sexual gratification

so cool how advanced the algorithm has become, it literally only takes like a decade or more of spying on all my internet activity and then it can expertly curate a selection of 15-20 youtube videos that i don't really want to watch, and then keep showing me those videos over and over again for a week so i can scroll past them again. the future is now

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

little baby… i’m taking u home with me

tubi is one of our greatest warriors in the fight against streaming services costing a fortune for mediocre content. tubi has the most insane collection of movies you will ever encounter all for free. it has cult classics and questionable lifetime movies and movies that nobody except like three people on the planet have ever seen. tubi has movies that doesn’t exist. like if you just thought of a movie one day but never made it and no one ever made it it would somehow still exist on tubi. one day i will log onto tubitv dot com and i will see terribly inappropriate, overly complex, and strange on there. and i won’t even be surprised.

wait this wasn’t a “poob has it for you” bit?

tubi doesnt have what youre looking for but it does have a lot of things you would never have thought to