Just tryin' to find a way

There is always more to the story even if it seems over.

Helping a friend pack up and move on after the death of his wife today. The world seems so much smaller, much sadder. It makes no sense.

I saw you in town today, we past each other like strangers exchanging a brief smile, the sun didn't fall from the sky and the world didn't end

I saw a shooting star tonight, bright and brilliant as it fell, it's final seconds flashed before my eyes, then it was gone, it just wasn't there anymore in that final flash, I watched it die and I couldn't stop it, I saw a shooting star tonight

If I keep holding on to you I will never be able to be happy. Why do you haunt my dreams, my memories and my yesterdays?

I've lost you yet you're right beside me. We've lost that thing that made us, us. We both know it. We both see feel it. We ignore it! We act as if we just keep going and don't acknowledge it everything will be fine. The truth is right in front of us.

It's the loneliest feeling, to be here in bed with you and not have that connection, what happened

Have you ever sat there on the verge of emotion knowing that you royally fucked up your life? And knowing that no matter what you do moving forward whatever life you do create is going to be a shadow of the one you were meant to have? Like you know the exact moment it spiraled from what it was supposed to be to what it never will be? Like the life you live is just a consolation prize?

The only place I want to be right now is in your arms

Were you ever mine?

You didn't enter my mind today until I picked up my phone and I didnt have a message from you, that's better than last week, I guess I'm slowly moving on

Moving on has felt like hell, I stand in my space and feel the void

I long to dance in the sun, kiss in the rain and doze off under a tree on a warm afternoon alongside some forgotten river

Once I believed love was enough. How I long to be that naive little girl again