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yuck i fucking hate having ~cinematic~ mental illness moments. was in the bathroom just now trying to put in my earrings and my hands were shaking so bad it took me like five minutes and i was getting irrationally upset so i started tearing up and it's like. ugh. this WOULD be the scene in a movie that shows that the character's emotional health has completely gone to shit. ugh.

if you have hallucinations and/or delusions i love you. youre not bad or evil, and struggling to tell what's real or fake isnt a personal flaw. you deserve happiness and safety, you deserve to be listened to and taken seriously, and you deserve a loving group of people who will support you and treat you well.

my desire to be hidden from the world just keeps intensifying

remember when it was safe® to go outside and you could throw on a coat and grab your bag and take the bus downtown and wander around the street, maybe dipping into a few bookstores along the street, as the sky got dark and the air got that little bite of chilliness into it and you could flip through all the notebooks and paperbacks and touch things and have a conversation with the vendor and see their entire face and then go sit in a cafe and drink coffee and eat a bagel, bumping into people but not minding bc it wasn’t like they could give you a deadly virus, and then go home all happy and rosy-cheeked without a care in the world? yea, me neither.

not to sound like an evil and monstrous brown woman but i will never have any empathy for white women and white lgbt people who join the ranks of fascists. i don’t give a single fuck if they face misogyny or homophobia in their political circles. that’s what you get for aligning with your whiteness to enhance your own position in society. and if this makes me sound like a terrible, loveless person, then so fucking be it. no one forced them into brutalizing or hating people of color and jewish people. 

Negative character development WOOOOOO

A Black man who went to Harvard law, a Mexican man, and a Jewish man singing about cops belonging to the KKK and these white assholes being like, “you guys used to be cool before you got political”