I'll do my best.

"I can't believe you just did that."

"You're going to do WHAT?!"

"Let me count the ways that this is a bad idea..."

"Please tell me you're joking."

"You are going to have a LOT of explaining to do over this one."

"You can make all the excuses all you want, but you really fucked up this time."

"So... I did something that might have been a terrible idea..."

"Do you think we could just forget last night?"

"I'm not sure what happened, but I have a feeling I know who was behind it."

"You know that little voice inside your head that tells you not to do the thing? Listen to it next time."

"You're not a teenager anymore. Stop acting like it."

"What's the worst that could happen from all this?"

"Do not talk to me again."

"It really wasn't THAT bad a decision, was it?"

"Yeah. Okay. I screwed up. Now what do I do about it?"

"Don't try to pin this all on me. WE did this. You were involved."

"You don't have that little voice that tells you when something's a bad idea, do you?"

[text] What happened? Everything's a blur.

"Please, please tell me what I did wrong."

“Do you really think so?!” Her eyes were filled with hope and joy at the exact moment that those words left her mouth, and as if she needed some proof of that, Mijung turned to see the final product and felt quite proud of how things had turned out to be. “Wow, it has been AGES since the last time I did something like this. Actually? I thought I was going to ruin it in the moment that took the lights out of the box. But hey! I didn’t burned the house down! That must be a good sign, right?”

There was no way this wasn’t going to be the absolute best Christmas ever. Not now that she had someone so special with her to share it with.

That was good. It didn’t make her feel other than the numbness that had took control over her body but it was better than imagining Saeyoung abandoning his brother in their big house for some stupid girl that couldn’t keep herself away from trouble. She hoped he didn’t hated her. Out of everything, she hoped Saeran could understand her. Forgive her even, and make it easier to leave this world with less problems that there could be if there was another person that took her for an insensitive bastard that hurt her friends in such way.

Although she had tried, long and persistently to put some distance between her and the people she had loved once, making them used to her absence, trying to help them get used to her not being around as she used to. And even when she didn’t knew the results of that it was better to think that some of them would care enough not to blame her for the decision she had took.

Wrong, the decision she was taking and would pursue as soon as she could leave that place.

“I’m not hungry” She lied, Her voice no more than a fragile thread that almost got lost in the concert of machines stating her vital signs. Mijung avoided his eyes as if everything depended on such act and tried to remain as compose as she could, knowing that every piece of information she surrendered to him could and most probably would use to persuade her to postpone her plan. Staying here for another while as to make sure he could let go of her as she had wished from her come back.

His words erased the smile on her lips, and for a moment, Mijung allowed that sentence to embrace her and make her realize how her life was turning out to be by his side. How lonely afternoons in her old room surrounded by the memories of the people that had left her life were now filled with caresses and a beating heart that called for her company. How she had managed to feel needed, a part of something. And as silence fell upon them, covering their bodies with its gentle mantle, Mijung rested in between his arms and enjoyed the warmth scent that his skin emanated, breathing in the love that he felt for her and answering to it with the brush of her hand as she caressed his cheek and placing a soft kiss over the other, silently wishing for him to never let her go, for every God above them to let them be like this forever.

“And what’s the point? You know you are never getting out of the second place now, not while I live in this house at least”

Oh but she knew what those words truly meant, and as much as she was worried about his health a voice inside her head whispered fast and clear, ‘What harm can a night do?’.

“...so, is it going to be pizza or hamburgers this time?”

“Yeah, yeah! Absolutely. You did impressed me with your abilities, didn’t you! Who knew there were that many things you could do with a computer!”

“Wow, I remember when you used to tell those things about me, Mijung”

...and that wasn’t something he was supposed to say right now.

“Did she told you about all those hours we spend gaming at her house?” Soo continued “Her father made the best hot cocoa there was in the world, I felt as I was a part of the family every time they invited me to come in!”

“Oh you are just being too nice” Which, in her language, meant a signal for the other part to shut up and stop making the problem bigger than it already was. But, blind or not, Soo didn’t noticed any of the clues that she was leaving for him and instead left a bigger bomb fall in between them.