#pxnkisms

‘You think the

G R I E F will make you smaller inside,

like your heart will C O L L A P S E in on itself,

But it d o e s n ’ t.

I feel spaces opening up inside of me like a building

With rooms I’ve NEVER explored.’

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Alina Jeon

Mystic Messenger Oc

          Despite his absence in the messenger it was always a comfort to know that the rest of the RFA was doing well. Ever since his eyesight completely faded into nothing but light and dark, and every once in awhile maybe a brief flash of color would cross whatever vision could be considered left, his already less than frequent visits had only dwindled further. He missed being able to actually see the chat with his own eyes as he now had to settle for mostly phone calls, and even had Luciel install a program into his app to read every message aloud to him and that would also use his voice to write out the messages instead. No matter how helpful it was it was still frustrating, but never once did V admit to it. It wasn’t his right to complain and he had no one to blame but himself for the way things turned out so he had learned to accept what he deserved.

          So instead he decided to remain silent about the matter as he once again played around with his phone. Fingers moved over the familiar surface to open up the messenger allowing him to listen to the previous chat logs. It was nice to hear that things were as they always were and that Alina seemed to be getting along with the other members as expected, with MC’s help of course. As much as it pained him that he couldn’t help and be on as much as he liked he was glad to know that the other members could find peace and happiness within one another without any issues leaving his shoulders a bit lighter just by that thought alone. Still, he figured that while he was on he might as well stop into the active chatroom as he guessed that it might be the middle of the day and someone was bound to be on, or that he could at the very least leave a nice little message for when the others did log in.

                                                V has entered the chatroom.

[ V ]: I hope everyone’s doing well. I’m sorry it’s been awhile since I’ve last stopped by.

❞ there’s such of thing of foolish belief, you do know that right? ❞

[ Jieun ]: Alina! Finally you’re here! I’ve been waiting for someone to come up for at least an hour.

[ Jieun ]: Listen, I think we should throw a New Year’s party. Not a charity thing, just RFA members. It doesn’t have to be a huge party, just you know, regular house party stuff?

Zen knew that Mina’s heart didn’t belong to him, and instead belonged to Yoosung who had won it fair and square. He accepted this a long time ago... At least he thought he did. Finally meeting her in person only to see her whisked off by another man was a bit too much to bare, especially when they looked so damn happy together. Watching the sight alone made his chest feel unbearably tight, so much so that he couldn’t help but grip the fabric that was over his heart. He needed to get away from this and that’s exactly what he did.

He decided to wander aimlessly around the party, eventually ending up at the bar area. His fan club was present at this place and he always tried his best not to indulge in his unhealthy habits when his fans were around, but tonight he just couldn’t do without it. “I would like a-” Just as he spoke to order his drink, so did the girl next to him so he stopped mid-sentence.