immortal longings

Writing is just opening a document and hoping past-you left something usable behind

been really into the 😁 emoji lately i suppose to remind myself that there is joy to be found even in the direst of circumstances

the author’s thinly veiled nothing #notwriting #straightupnotwritingit

The two wolves inside every writer: "this is genuinely the best thing i have ever written. i am gifted. i am changed. this paragraph alone justifies my entire existence on this planet." and then five minutes later, same paragraph: "who wrote this. who allowed this. this reads like a golden retriever trying to describe grief. i need to lie down and reconsider everything." both wolves are always wrong. the paragraph is fine. you need a snack.

people b saying things so definitively. like man i think it depends

Something nobody prepares you for is that the better you get at writing the harder it becomes. beginners write freely because they don't know enough to know what's wrong. then you learn. and suddenly you can see every single flaw in real time as you're making it and you have to write anyway while your own brain is in the corner going "that's a weak verb. that transition is lazy. you've used that word three times." getting good at this is mostly just getting better at ignoring yourself.

accused of using too many ellipses... don't care... there's always more to come...