ambivalent at best

I could really do with a reward or incentive

i hear there are several types of ways to feel

Wait i can learn from my mistakes? Ohhhhh ok i was just using them to torment myself

i don’t have anything normal to say

sorry for the delay in responding to your message. I was walking around the house with unclear intentions

(no beers in) So how do you perceive me in the privacy of your thoughts

broke my routine so now i have to kill myself

cptsd kind of annoying. Release me

ah doing ma thing just like god int- (remembers im atheist) just like the universe intend- (remembers i don't believe in determinism) just like noone and nothing intended ever. doin ma thang fucking unpredictable style

I NEED SOMETHING TO HAPPEN IVE SPENT MY WHOLE LIFE BORED OR MISERABLE PLEASE CAN SOMETHING HAPPEN

i have [gestures vaguely] my tendencies

i havent done anything or been anyone ever

THIS IS SELF CARE

i like it when people compliment me. i like it... when people like me. (looks around to make sure nobody is about to shoot me)

I’m really not a very angry person there’s just a lot of rage inside me

There’s something terrible boiling bubbling under my skin ready to burst out of my chest but I’m a chill guy