ambivalent at best

i will not rest until everyone has a crush on me

“just one more day” i say again and again and again and

Training my nervous system to choose an unfamiliar heaven instead of a familiar hell

you've met me at a very "yeah i'm trying to work on that" time in my life

Im About To Change My Entire Life With A Single Tumblr Reblog

no but im so tired of how self-deprecation is always more accepted than self-advocacy. if i say i can't drive because im autistic i get questioned on how exactly that works and given a million suggestions on how to do it anyway and i look like im trying to be special so it's easier to just say im a loser. yeah i don't drive because im kind of a loser lmao. oh well. and people say lmao back and we move on. at worst they say "oh im sure you'll figure it out haha." but no interrogation!! being a loser is more respectable than being disabled. being a loser is something that doesn't make other people feel uncomfortable about their own biases. so no, no im not disabled. i don't struggle to keep friends and do the laundry and make quick trivial decisions and clean my room and brush my teeth because im autistic. it's because im a loser. it's my fault. it is what it is. at least im funny now. do you think im funny? please think im funny

wayyyy too many of you related to this holy fuck

being insane isnt even that bad

IDENTITY EMERGES ORGANICALLY FROM ACTION

IF YOU DONT DO ANYTHING YOU ARENT ANYONE. SORRY

[clearly experiencing symptoms of mania] oh i get it! im finally normal!

is this happening because i was born

i feel like i need to go somewhere really really far

i could live my whole life alone but i got this stupid schizoid dilemma thing going on

the “outwardly” in “outwardly indifferent to criticism” is really important because on the inside that shit pisses me off

Ever since I was young I knew something was wrong and that I am a parasite that will feed on anyone to get by ❤️

i like it when people compliment me. i like it... when people like me. (looks around to make sure nobody is about to shoot me)