ambivalent at best

CPTSD constantly has me acting so cartoonishly stupid. hello my partner of 4 years who has literally never so much as raised their voice in my direction, i heard you doing dishes a little louder than usual in the other room. are you going to kill me?

listen im not HAPPY we’re all going through this. but i am at least relieved that other people can understand the mortal terror of “oh my god i think someone is doing their mundane household chores AT ME!!!!”

I think I just realized that part of my anxiety with being in public is that I feel like I don't have the same right to use public spaces as other people do. Like they're the real People Who Use This Coffee Bar. And when I try to use it as someone who is not Inherently Worthy Of Using The Coffee Bar I'm just getting in their way

Anxiety will really have you getting imposter syndrome over things like *checks notes* drinking free community coffee

i haven’t been real for a few days thinking about becoming real again soon though

they had to make one guy who has every fear and i took one for the team

*trying to act natural and befriend you* have mercy on my damned soul???

despite all the evidence, i am sure that im the first and only person to feel this way

The excruciating agony of being looked at

sorry if i seem out of it it's because i Literally Am

you desire love but push away affection? what are you? written by Dostoevsky?

thinking about developing a social skill soon

i am dumber & smarter than u think. do not estimate me