Schizoafucktive

bro people have been sending me asks for years and I never replied to any of them because I didn’t know I had to go LOOK for them! I thought it would show up in the notifications, damn!

Man, I just feel so very disconnected from my life right now, as if there’s another life that I have been unjustly stolen from. I can feel it on the outskirts of my mind and I can feel it in the leftovers from my dreams. There was a life I was living and this is just a pale replacement.

I really hate that AI generating inaccurate information is called “hallucinating.”

whoa wait. the people doing the “schizoposting” memes and stuff aren’t schizo people…? I thought they were… I didn’t realize it was making fun of us… :(

I Love participating in research studies but research studies don’t love having me participate in them. I wanna be a little lab rat but every single one is like “Requirements: Be not psychotic.” Like shit man, I would if I could! Please let me participate! I promise I’ll be a good psychotic :(

Anyone else have some sort of psychotic disorder but not autism, yet get mistaken for having autism a lot, or am I just alone in that boat?

the boss makes a dollar, I make a dime. that’s why I hallucinate on company time.

When you’re in a job interview and the hiring manager is talking about how the company strives to have an environment that uplifts mental health and supports those with mental health struggles and you’re just sitting there thinking “What if I just said ‘I’m schizophrenic’ right now, what if I just said ‘Well that’s a huge relief because if you hire me, I will hallucinate my entire shift.’ Hahaha! Anyway.”

I can’t tell anyone in my life about it. And I don’t want to. But I still want to say it. I have been thinking about ending my life constantly. I am passively suicidal. I want something horrible to happen to me. I will not act on this, but I wanted to put the words into the world. That’s all I needed. Don’t worry about that. Thanks.

Bipolar anger is like nothing else. Why am I so mad? I’m so insurmountable angry at literally everything and it’s for no reason.