I see pretty much everyone has an intro post so I might as well!
K/Fifi, bi, she/her, 32, I was on tumblr from 2011-2018 under the names skai-high, homoscarfiens, and monarch-nabi (fairly sure that was the order), and was pretty active in the kpop fandoms. I still enjoy kpop but I'm not as involved with it as I used to be.
I live in Kingston, ON. Current interests include star trek, foraging, acting and film, woodworking, and food, though mostly I'm here for cute and funny animal videos, star trek, and shitposting.
Also pic of my dog ("The Boy") because he's the light of my life
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No. We will all be dying by the end of the first week. I am not going to put up with that immovable object vs unstoppable force bullshit for an entire semester.
i don't wear makeup often but one upside aside from the social benefits is that near the end of the day like 8 or 9pm it has moved around enough that some of it starts getting into my eyes and stinging and that's a great cue for my ADHD ass to take a break before 8pm becomes 2am (only takes a few minutes)
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Though unfortunately episode 9 of Discovery did highlight two big problems with this show, which are ultimately different faces of the same overarching problem, namely: it trades in massively unearned emotional beats.
Problem 1: It invests a lot of time in grandiose cinematic montages, complete with slow motion and swelling music, for scenes that do not have matching narrative gravitas. Unlike many people on here, I don't mind when TV shows feel like movies - I actually think it's cool that the streaming era has allowed for a more "filmic" approach in both style and production values as well as structure and pacing. But the show has just not earned the moments that it's pairing this approach to - it's like trying to pack a punch without extending your arm backwards first.
(The most glaring example was the buildup to Stamets' final jump, the goal of which was obviously foreshadowing that something was going to go wrong with that jump, but... for one thing, we can already infer that from the "one last jump! it's just one last jump!" conversation with Lorca, and for another, because they're just going back to a Federation space station, and there's not even any need to do the jump in the first place, it just feels like misplaced tension.)
Problem 2: The characters are way too direct and thorough in articulating their emotions. Star Trek is frequently not what I'd call subtle, but at its best there are still layers of nuance and a kind of writerly deftness to how the "end of episode summation" emotional confessionals are written. Here, it's often not only flat prose, but divorced from the actual thematic work of the episode it's accompanying (and thus divorced from really rigorous character work).
Take this example, from a few episodes earlier, with Burnham and Tyler discussing her relationship with Sarek:
BURNHAM: I always knew I could never be who he wanted me to be. But I realised today that it goes both ways. I'll never get from him what I want, either.
TYLER: That's tough.
BURNHAM: It's okay. Part of me feels unburdened.
TYLER: Still, I'm sorry for that other part of you.
BURNHAM: Thank you. All my life the conflict inside me has been between logic and emotion. But now it's my emotions that are fighting. I think about him and I want to cry, but I have to smile. And I feel angry but I want to love, and I'm hurt, but there's hope. What is this?
TYLER: It's just being human.
There are so many writerly crimes being committed here (not the least how corny and platitudinous it is), but the biggest one is that this starkly articulated catalogue of emotions has so little grounding in context. Yes, she feels a complicated mixture of love and resentment towards Sarek, that's to be expected, but there's so little detail (and by extension, genuine emotion) driving this. It feels like it could be copy-pasted from literally any troubled parent-child relationship.
When in the actual episode, Burnham discovers that Sarek, her adoptive father, capitulated to racist and xenophobic pressure from the powers that be on Vulcan to sabotage her dreams for the future in favour of his biological child - and then, when she confronts him about it, he refuses to acknowledge their shared telepathic experience of that memory, and denies that she is a member of his family because she's not his biological child (!!!!). Furthermore, she only recently discovered that she effectively shares a part of Sarek's soul because he saved her from death in the wake of another racist attack against her. This is all very, very specific relationship building! And there's vanishingly little follow-through on it in this confessional - it's very open, very emotionally forthright (the kind of thing people are referring to when they mention characters talking like they're in therapy), but there are no specific antecedents to these emotions.
Contrast this with Kira's reflections on her mother in "Wrongs Darker Than Death or Night":
SISKO: Tell me something, Nerys. If you hate her that much, why did you save her life?
KIRA: Believe me, there's a part of me that wishes that I hadn't. But the fact is, no matter what she did, she was still my mother.
The situations aren't directly comparable, but this is another situation involving a character being forced to reconcile with the fact that a parental figure cannot live up to their ideals for them, and trying to process conflicting emotions about that. And it is quite blunt, as Kira tends to be, but it doesn't over-explain. There is a wealth of potential interpretation underneath "she was still my mother," and that's where the line's power comes from. And furthermore, it is built up and anticipated by the plot of the episode - both Kira's moral disgust with her mother, as well as being moved to compassion for her situation via their familial connection, are both well elaborated in the events prior to this scene.
That's a bit grimmer and more subtle than Star Trek often trades in, but for something more heartfelt, here's the end of "The Visitor":
SISKO: You okay?
JAKE: How'd you know that was coming?
SISKO: I guess we were just lucky this time.
JAKE: You okay, Dad?
SISKO: I am now, Jake. I am now.
It's very sentimental, but it's so much more competently written. It lands because of the understatement (the succinct wording in combination with the intensity of emotion in context) and because of the dramatic irony - there is a depth of meaning to Sisko's words to which we, the audience, are privy, but Jake is not, and that in itself adds to the emotional weight of the exchange, that he is shouldering this burden of knowledge for his son in the same way that his son sacrificed his life for him in another timeline. And it's the mundane, small-scale nature of the exchange, the expressions of love and relief, that contrasts with the episode's portrayal of that father-son bond as something that persists across time and space, and that emphasizes how precious those little moments are. It's set up, it's earned, and there's something going on beneath the surface.
For another example, from Voyager's "The Chute," in which Tom Paris and Harry Kim process their hellish time in a prison together:
KIM: Tom, listen to me. I, I almost killed you.
PARIS: What are you saying? You're the one that kept me alive.
KIM: I was ready to hit you with the pipe. Don't you remember?
PARIS: You want to know what I remember? Someone saying, this man is my friend. Nobody touches him. I'll remember that for a long time.
Again, this is not particularly subtle in the emotions being conveyed, but it is rich in its meaning in ways that directly follow the thematic work of the episode. It's an expression of grace towards a friend, and one that illuminates the subtext that everybody breaks under extreme duress, but one need not be defined by one's worst moments. Not a particularly unique message, but it does work here, because - once again! - it's commentary on a relationship that is scaled to the specific events of the plot.
In conclusion, to quote Futurama: You can't just have your characters announce how they feel! That makes me feel angry!
think it's a deep consolation to know that spiders dream, that monkeys tease predators, that dolphins have accents, that lions can be scared silly by a lone mongoose, that otters hold hands, and ants bury their dead. that there isn't their life and our life. nor your life and my life. that it's just one teetering and endless thread and all of us, all of us, are entangled w it as deep as entanglement goes. v neat i think.
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b’elanna internalized racism episodes are frustrating because they’ll be so good then bam tom shows up to be like “woah my sexy klingon mamacita, how about we work out those big feelings with some bat’leth 😝”
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