dreamertoribabe

me trying to convince myself that the whole spectrum of human emotions is a good and necessary thing to feel even if its not comfortable while im actively experiencing emotions that make me feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid

i’ve been in love with her from the moment i met her, but that’s not what you say when people ask how you fell together. what else is there to say? what is the socially acceptable thing to pull from your mouth like baby teeth you’ve outgrown? i met her by chance. i met her by fate. i met her at a concert or a dating app in the middle of a strange fall. i didn’t expect it, they expect me to say. and maybe that’s a little bit true. but the real truth, the true that stands in its entirety, is that i needed to meet her. my soul wouldn’t have survived a moment longer without knowing hers existed. the truth is i was wild and drunk and blue in the face on the idea of her until i was sobered by her skin. the truth is the world was too cruel to survive without her. the truth is that every hand that touched me before her were made of hawk wings and she was made of the clouds. she knows a lot of random facts. it’s one of the things i love about her. she told me the other day that clouds weighed a million pounds. but i wanted to tell her, all the clouds landed on me from the moment i saw her. this is the weight of my love for her. what else is there to say? what other truths can i tell? she is the only sky in the world that i’ll never lift off of my chest.

“Falling in love is like a car crash. It takes two to happen at the right place, at the right time. And suddenly you wonder how this possibly happened? If only I didn’t take the long way home. If only I wasn’t driving 71 mph instead of 70. If only I didn’t take that extra minute to find the right song to play on the radio. Could all this been avoided? That’s how falling in love can be. You find someone without actually looking. You crash into them and all of a sudden, you realize every single choice you made in your entire life, whether bad or good, led up to this moment. This moment where the love of your life is standing right in front of you. And as you look into their eyes, everything just makes sense.”

“‘I love her’ 'You’ve just met her a month ago’ 'And I know I’ll love her forever’ 'Forever is a long time, how do you know?’ 'Because forever started the moment she left after our first conversation while she was walking away’ 'How so?’ 'Because I wanted to walk away with her, with her hand in mine, to a life that I know we can have. She was in my head for days and my chest ached to speak with her. Thats how I know I love her. A month, a year, a day that was all it took. A day, less than that. A conversation and I fell. That was enough. I had to know more. I had to know her. And now I do. And I’ll learn more about her. And guess what?’ 'What?’ 'I love her’”