when i die they'll remember me fondly because i never bothered anyone with anything. not even once 😁 #myisolation

when you think about it it's just kind of crazy how you can be neglected and abused your whole childhood instead of experiencing a brief moment of being taken care of while learning how to be a person, and then once you're an adult it's like ok now i'm still essentially raising myself in a shitty situation but this time my adult peers are like mad at me because i'm not as emotionally healthy as them, and on top of that i still have to save my own life

and it's not that i expect to be rescued it's that i'm tired of having to save myself

also sick of being condescendingly told "nobody's coming to save you, you have to save yourself" as if i'm not painfully aware of that as i have been doing this shit my whole life but i just want somewhere safe to rest momentarily without my life falling apart

yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

and when all the distractions dont work anymore and its the end of the day, i’m left with just myself and the want for it all to please just fucking stop.

i hate everyone and i wish i never made any connections to anyone

I don't care if you have other friends, I don't care if you do stuff without me, I don't care. I just want to make sure I'm your favourite. I just want to make sure you don't even think about abandoning me. If letting you do whatever will keep you here, I'll oblige.

i will not die of natural causes, i will end it myself