Jump Start My Kaleidoscope Heart

i have nowhere to talk about this, but i imagine violet, mira, and brennen all have a slavic stare.

acrylic, canvas 40*50 cm «Lighthouse of the Northern Sunset» 2025

Hollanov lie detector interview where Ilya begs beforehand to be allowed to ask every Rose Landry comparison he’s ever been insecure about, and he totally plays it out like he’s joking (he’s not).

Please remember that Neil wouldn’t realize it but Andrew is deeply insecure. He lost everyone in his life until Nicky and Aaron came along, and he made Aaron swear not to have anyone else because Andrew was afraid of losing him. He’s absolutely going to assume that Neil will get tired or bored of him and move on to someone else sooner or later.

Reminder that before Andrew gives Neil a key and called it home, Nicky already called Neil "family" and told him that the Columbia House is his, too.

I forgot to clarify that this excludes deanaming you if you've changed your name. I specifically meant the "brain offers the wrong word" kind of accidental name mix-up.

Human brains store the names of people (and animals) they love in the same place. If someone you’re close to calls you the wrong name, it means they love you.

Yeah Hayden Pike is sometimes a bad friend but so is Shane Hollander. Neither of them are winning friend of the year awards (headcanon whatever you want but Shane is canonically a bit of an asshole ESPECIALLY to his friends #justiceforRose). Crucially I don't think this necessarily means they are bad for each other. Neither Hayden nor Shane actually WANT a close best friend, they just want someone consistent and predictable whose company they don't outright despise, and they fill that space for each other. It's why there's so much friction when Shane starts acting 'out of the ordinary' because he is acting outside their unspoken agreement of appropriate Best Friend Behaviour. Keep in mind that Shane is incredibly self centered and Hayden is the series everyman hockey player who provides contrast to the 'heroes' (HEAVY on the quotes there, none of the MCs from game changers are actually the heroes of the series except maybe Harrris). Yeah Hayden has the slightest bit of character development and 'grows' over the series but even before this happens and they're at their lowest his and Shane's friendship is still as solid as its ever been because they're not actually that close and neither of them want to be. You can't really fix a friendship that's too surface level to break, especially when neither party is all that invested in the first place. Shane and Hayden are #terriblebesties in that they're awful to each other but neither of them actually care because they're not actually besties and they don't want to be. The reason that friendship works is because they're kind of not friends at all, but to them each other's company is better than anyone elses, because anyone else would expect things out of a friendship that neither of them are willing to provide. Neither of them want the work of a real friendship. Hayden just wants someone to talk with in the locker room who can babysit once in a blue moon, and Shane wants someone who can keep up with him on the ice and won't ask questions about his personal life. Neither of them are actually interested in the other and they're not supposed to need emotional support: that's not what this is. The fact this notfriendship has both of them labelling the other their 'best friend' just shows how terrible these guys are at making friends and how little they actually want them. But again, I don't think they're bad for each other. How could they be? They're on the same page and they're both getting (for the most part) what they want out of this dynamic: company without investment, companionship without demands. No one else deserves to be subjected to the notfriendship of two guys who don't want friends, but crucially don't KNOW that they don't want friends. In my opinion, they suit each other perfectly.

I cannot explain to you in enough detail that this is how (many) (cishet) dudes are friends. (Shane is literally gay but he’s not culturally gay, which matters in this context.)

You know, sometimes I see a shot of the cottage or Ilya's Boston pad or Shane's Montreal apartment and I'm like... you little freaks. You absolutely cannot afford to be caught ever, but also look at your giant voyeur windows. The idea of someone maybe watching is so fucking hot to you, huh? Best case scenario is that the two of you never get caught. Second-best case scenario is that you get caught getting having the kind of crazy freak sex most people can only dream of. If the world has to find out about you, you two also want them to have the evidence of their own eyes that you're each the luckiest motherfucker on the planet.

Oh I think they fuck right in front of those windows frequently and enthusiastically and they know realistically there’s not a chance that they’re seen but they keep taunting each other (erotically) that there’s someone watching and oh you like that don’t you showing off how you take it showing off that you’re mine only mine only mine

Godddd this has me so 😵‍💫