SANJUKTA

I repeat sentences while I talk. I dont realise it. I realise it only when someone tells me, or gets angry about saying the same thing a number of times.

It is probably a result of my ability to comprehend things. Unlike others I am slow to understand anything. I need repetitions, reassurances, redos, in clear words and actions to understand what is to be done. Once I grasp it I remember it. It could be that I get it the 1st time or the may be 10th...or never.

I cant make decisions without rehearsals in my head. What I do in moments of last minute pressure- I fold and make wrong decisions. I regret later. Those are my own losses.

I have worked most of my years with artisans who also needed repetition of same words again because of problems in comprehending. Not because they were dumb but because our languages, dialects, ways of speaking were different. Not repeating would only result in misunderstanding and produce wrong results in work.

Sometimes my repetition comes from worry guilt and panic. I worry and feel guilty because- I was responsible for someone's discomfort ( which I think most of the times and has another history), because of last minute submissions/ applications etc etc.

Though not connected to this, I am also involved in activities in life which demand repetition. In repetition you memorize, improvise and improve.

I understand hearing repeating words can get on to your nerves, but its excusable at a level of strange behaviour. Being rude won't cure me of it.