saiku_jello

Yall I just ate so much fucking food like I ate ham turkey popcorn mash potatoes stuffing brownies bread rolls chips posola ( the of Mexican soup/stew?l gravy egg salad and I didn't even fucking Workout today I'm so god danm LAZY I've been doing so good I've been eating like a good 200 cals (first day) up to ( tenth day) even fasting working out 2 hours every.single.day pounds coming off like butter I haven't gotten the urge to Bing or really get tempted to even been doing yoga when I have time even I was 280 pounds and now I'm 210 yo if not that progress idk whats it and my birthday is next month my goal was to be like 180 no binges 100% dedication. And I can't keep 1 fucking promises such a fat pig that I couldn't control myself it make me so GOD DAYUM ANGRY LIKE UGH PLEASE IF ANYONE HAS TIPS OR WAYS TO BURN MORE CALORIES EVEN DIETS OR MEANSPO SWEETSPO ANYTHING PLEASE PLEASE I JUST WANNA BE SKINNY SO SKINNY THAT I GOTTA WEAR MULTIPLE LAYERS EVEN THAT AND EVEN THEN I LOOK THIN SO THIN THAT MY BONES SHOW AND MY SPINE IS OUT I JUST WANNA BE LIGHT,FRAGILE AND DELICATE SO THIN PEOPLE TELL ME TO EAT A BURGER OR I MIGHT FLY AWAY FROM A LITTLE BREEZE. JUST AHHH PLEASEE ANYONE I WANT TO BE PAPER THIN SO DAYUM BAD I CANNOT BE EAT SO GOD DAYUM MUCH SHOVING FOOD INTO MY MOUTH THAT A FUCKING ANIMAL WHATS WRONG WITH ME FOOD IS SO FUCK NASTY BINGING IS SO FUCKING NASTY EVEN THE THOUGHT MAKES ME FEEL HORRIBLE IK THIS IS BAD BUT IDC I HATE WEIGHING THIS MUCH I LOOKS LIKE A HIPPO I LOOK DISGUSTING.